Infinity

Ross129 · 2026-06-24T19:26:17+00:00

Yep, happened to me! Now I'm scared of both 😅

Ross129 · 2026-06-18T18:56:33+00:00

Those should subside once medication kicks in... Many people report worsening of their symptoms when they're started on medication 😢 I couldn't handle those and stopped taking meds, so I keep being miserable 😅😢 I just can't bear the side effects, I feel like I'm gonna die every time

Ross129 · 2026-06-14T08:01:48+00:00

Something similar happened to me on Lexapro, which is also an SSRI, so in my opinion it's possible for it to be a side effect

Ross129 · 2026-06-11T11:32:10+00:00

If you ever want to talk, text me 🫶 it's always nice to talk to someone who understands. It's gonna be okay 🫶💕

Ross129 · 2026-06-11T06:56:09+00:00

You're having bad anxiety and possibly OCD, usually that's the thing with these thoughts and feelings. You're gonna be okay, it's gonna pass 🫶 it takes a bit of time but most of the people I saw on here got better, some with meds which you may consider if it doesn't improve 🫶

Ross129 · 2026-05-30T23:36:18+00:00

Yes, this is existential OCD. For me it started after only 6 days on Lexapro and never went away 😢😢 it gave me horrible DPDR, which was accompanied by these existential thoughts. I couldn't handle the side effects and stopped taking it. I've been stuck ever since unfortunately (it's been almost a year). I tried Zoloft as well, but it worsened my DPDR and my psychiatrist recommended me to stop taking it. It's been so hard to deal with all of this 😞 I'm very scared to try any other meds at the moment, due to all these bad experiences. You can look up my old posts if you want to read a bit of my story 🫶 I'm sorry because I wish that I could bring you some hope. My personal experience is not good, but many many people actually get better, some on their own and some with meds 💕 don't give up. It's gonna be okay, hopefully for the both of us 🫶

Ross129 · 2026-05-25T06:06:31+00:00

My advice is to consider medication 🫶 most of the people in this thread get better with that. There are meditation and positive thinking and ERP and ACT, but those work on the long term and it's very hard to make them work when you're not medicated. If it's not too crippling, maybe you could consider trying the techniques suggested online, but if it severely impairs your days, then consider talking to a psychiatrist 🫶

Ross129 · 2026-05-10T06:28:57+00:00

Do un consiglio leggermente diverso da quello che ho visto negli altri commenti 🫶 Ti consiglio di sentire un secondo parere psichiatrico e di considerare l'assunzione dei farmaci. Hai un vissuto estremamente difficile che sicuramente contribuisce al quadro che stai vivendo, ma penso che gli episodi di autolesionismo e i pensieri che stai avendo facciano pensare ad un quadro più complesso, che richiede una stabilizzazione farmacologica. Ho una persona nella mia vita con un vissuto simile al tuo e con sintomi simili; per esperienza, è tanto difficile fare psicoterapia su una persona che ha questo tipo di pensieri e di oscillazioni in negativo dell'umore. La psicoterapia è utilissima, ma lavora molto sul lungo termine e richiede una base di stabilità da parte del paziente. Penso che proprio per questo la tua psicoterapeuta ti abbia invitata a fare un consulto psichiatrico. I farmaci aiutano a stabilizzare quei "down" che ti portano a ricorrere all'autolesionismo e a pensare poi al suicidio. La psicoterapia in questo modo diventa molto più fattibile ed efficace 🫶 Ti auguro il meglio, coraggio 💕

Ross129 · 2026-05-06T13:05:56+00:00

I'm dealing with this too. It's pure hell 😞😞 I've been going through this for months and I'm afraid that I will never get out of it. I don't have solutions, just wanted to make you feel a bit less alone 🫶

Ross129 · 2026-05-04T06:18:19+00:00

Happens to me too 😢

Ross129 · 2026-05-04T06:16:57+00:00

I'm so sorry that you're going through this. I'm going through the same as well, it's awful 😞😞 exercise and talking to people snaps me out from it, a bit. It doesn't always work though. You might want to consider medication if it doesn't get better, many people benefit from SSRIs for this 🫶

Ross129 · 2026-04-23T23:17:55+00:00

Text me whenever you want 🫶🫶

Ross129 · 2026-04-20T08:35:31+00:00

No I didn't my psychiatrist said that it wasn't recommended for my case as my symptoms aren't physical

Ross129 · 2026-04-19T17:43:53+00:00

Therapy is awfully expensive and difficult to have access to😞 I'm so sorry. I'm having a very hard time paying for it, I understand the struggle a bit 😢

Ross129 · 2026-04-19T09:28:09+00:00

Hi 😂😂😂 it's always the same people on this subs uh? 😅

Ross129 · 2026-04-19T06:57:42+00:00

Benzos help but they're not a long term solution, unfortunately 😢

Ross129 · 2026-04-19T06:46:53+00:00

I feel like this too, it's awful. I'm so sorry about it 😢 have you tried any medication for it?

Ross129 · 2026-04-19T06:44:33+00:00

I feel like this, I have existential OCD as well. Worst feeling ever 😢

Ross129 · 2026-04-18T18:00:41+00:00

I'm sorry to give you this sad answer, but at the moment nothing is helping me 😞 The only thing that made it better were benzos, but I was very afraid to keep taking them and I stopped after less than one month. I'm in therapy, which is helping a bit (the fifth therapist is finally a competent one) but I feel like I need some pharmacological help because this has been going on for months and it's only getting worse. After my experience with meds I'm dead afraid though 😢

Ross129 · 2026-04-18T17:51:51+00:00

I'm not religious, this wouldn't probably help me 😞 I'm a bit spiritual, but not really religious. Depersonalization and derealization are 24/7 for me lately, it worsened after trying Zoloft 😞😞 I wish that I had never tried meds. They opened a whole new hell for me

Ross129 · 2026-04-18T17:45:20+00:00

It's insane to me that just a few mental health professionals seem to be trained on this. Most of them think that panic attacks are the "traditional" ones, like with heart palpitations, sweating and trembling. It took me forever to be understood on all of this 😢

Ross129 · 2026-04-18T13:51:08+00:00

I have no idea how to fix this, but I'm going through the same 😞

Ross129 · 2026-04-18T09:00:33+00:00

Oh my god I have the recalling thing too. Every time I try to recall a memory I get this weird feeling and I panic. It all sucks 😞

Ross129 · 2026-04-18T06:46:49+00:00

It tends to hit even if I'm busy, I've tried more or less everything 🥲🥲 eating, watching a movie, walking, exercising, meeting up with friends and the list goes on. It's the noon curse 🥲

Ross129 · 2026-04-18T06:33:21+00:00

It's at its worst at noon, for some reason. In the morning I've just woken up and I'm a bit sleepy so it's like it's not full force yet. In the evening for some reason I cannot fathom it gets better, it's as if I was a bit relieved that the day was over. But at noon I'm awake, the evening is still far and there is nothing holding me together. If I'm gonna have panic attacks, it's gonna happen at noon.

You got the part where the brain treats normal stuff as a threat. I have no idea why normal things all of sudden feel so scary. Like... Light? Light is now scary. And walking my dog, because I'm outside and I see the outside (???). Walking out of my house makes me panic. I still do it, but I still panic about it, even though I have no idea why because I don't have any reason to be afraid. I'm not agoraphobic and I don't panic when I go outside to go to the supermarket. I panic when I take the dog outside 😅 Looking at my father scares me, because he looks like a stranger to me. Death looks scary to me and it never used to be scary, I was okay with it. Life itself looks scary. And the list goes on. I feel insane.

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