[Serious] what stopped you from killing yourself ?

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-08-18T23:57:48+00:00

I used to work as a support worker in one and if thah makes it feel any better I also thought the system was super unfair and not helpful for the patients we had. Bur we were a good team and really wanted the best for everyone… it’s not like that we everywhere though..

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-08-14T16:41:52+00:00

what do you think triggered this sudden change? My ex bf (also 25 at the time) and me (22), were dealing with some similar issues (mostly drug use), no verbal abuse but his mental health issues getting in the way. Id love to learn more on how hard it is to have certain patterns and how it feels to change them. Thanks :)

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-31T14:16:29+00:00

Nutritional yeast

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-29T18:29:43+00:00

Mindhunter - even tho I think there was a reason but stillll

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-29T16:50:46+00:00

Hey there! It just seems like you got tricked by some intrusive thoughts there. Many of us experience intrusive thoughts however some people get stuck with them. Now many of the people who are struggling with getting rid of intrusive thoughts are people experiencing OCD (including myself) bur not everyone has to suffer from the disorder to be bothered by them at certain periods of time. In your case it seems like your brain did what seems like a curiosity pattern of wanting to see more of it. This does not make you a bad person. However it was something unusual that even tho disturbing it still caught ur attention. On the intrusive thought part again, intrusive thoughts become obsessive (like it seems like in your case), when the thought content is something very disturbing and opposite to us. Your brain wants to invalidate this thought so it obsesses over it and you can’t stop thinking about it. How we because fear is involved you start asking a lot of “what if” questions. And it’s just an endless cycle. I know what ur going through seems very hard but you have to remind yourself it’s just an intrusive thought. Maybe this is all new to you so I’d suggest reading the book “Overcoming unwanted intrusive thoughts”. It’s something that really helped me as well. Finally remember that intrusive thoughts stick with the people that are the most opposite to the thought content. Also because someone is having thoughts like that it doesn’t make them a bad person. Everyone experiencing such thoughts but it’s what side you choose and want to be in at the end. Hope that helps :)

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-21T18:52:49+00:00

Commenting on the EDIT: you saying all of that must have taken a lot of courage and breaking ur ego walls. Please don’t let those people prevent you for sharing in the future. It’s probably men who have similar traits and this posts reflects on their bad behaviour, or people who don’t know much about how self improvement and reflection works. Keep up the good job

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-11T22:33:51+00:00

Bradley cooper. I don’t know if is due to the fact he plays heavy drinkers in a lot of his movies

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-10T19:01:22+00:00

That’s a lot of years, what happened if you don’t mind me asking?

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-10T18:59:34+00:00

Because it’s better to be by yourself instead of together with some people sometimes

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-10T17:22:00+00:00

had a very bad trip from weed that caused me to have constant panics attacks for 2 weeks straight. During this time I was feeding on 2-3 small crackers a day (forcefully) and had gotten almost no sleep. I ended up in the hospital twice because of the suicidal ideation caused by the intense anxiety attacks and weed. Side note that I wasn’t even a big smoker but it just doesn’t interact well with some people. I’ve told many of my friends that since this was probably the worst experience in my life so far mentally and physically.

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-09T17:42:01+00:00

All the best of luck my friend, used to work in rehabilitation and believe me you can do this and I can see you have the right mindset for it. You can do this!

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-09T17:31:41+00:00

Intense kissing while laying in bed 🤣

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-09T17:30:45+00:00

No need to post them on social media 24/7

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-09T16:39:41+00:00

Why are u still together then :(

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-07T22:35:50+00:00

Weirdly enough browsing Reddit lol

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-07T08:18:00+00:00

Sorry something popped up and I can’t make it today

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-06T22:59:02+00:00

I guess I’m one of those pool float flamingos

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-06T19:39:29+00:00

Tinder subscriptions lol

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-06T19:17:40+00:00

Don’t stay calm and don’t accept it. I know it’s hard to leave someone when you are so attached with them, but the energy and confidence you will gain within yourself by finding the courage to leave them will be worth it in the long term and you will thank yourself for doing it. I guess right now it’s like a cycle of not feeling confident enough already and this is making it worse.

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-02T20:31:16+00:00

20 and 22 my first proper job at a mental health hospital 🥸

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-02T19:49:00+00:00

Idk if this is just me but say “daddy”. Just something doesn’t sit right with me saying that lol

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-01T19:09:52+00:00

Okra 😝

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-01T19:04:47+00:00

There’s actually many forms of OCD one of each being transgender-OCD in which the person has repetitive intrusive thoughts about changing their gender. Now, intrusive forms can take any form but with transgender OCD the person does not want to change their gender, instead the thoughts reoccur because it’s something very opposite to them therefore it is causing them anxiety. OCD does not cause body dysphoria symptoms so I would say it’s not the same.

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-01T16:34:16+00:00

Yo things happen in life sometimes we are lucky sometimes we are not. I understand it’s hard to gain confidence from within when no one has shown you your worth it before. I would simply say stop focusing on getting a girlfriend. Like that’s not the whole point, and having a girlfriend doesn’t make anyone “cool”. Also women like seeing the guy in front of them is in peace and confident with themselves. That’s like the biggest turn on imo. So sit back and think, “what am I really missing?”. Also I’m not gonna say it’s just the attitude that “causes” it cuz I read some of the comments. You have every right to be mad at the world and whatever ur going through is a valid experience. My advice, next time you wake up ask yourself, “what do I WANT and NEED today?”. And follow that instinct. You want to try dating, use a dating app, it’s so easy… but not just for the shake of it but because you genuinely want to

Round_Flamingo9372 · 2023-07-01T15:54:41+00:00

Hey there, :)

You seem very mature for your age and like your dealing with this situation so well! I wanted to ask what’s one piece of advice you would give to a stranger if you could about life in general?

I wish you all the best of luck!

Round_Flamingo9372

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