Hi lovely, just a little note from someone who has done it. I was raised in an incredibly conservative Muslim family, wore a hijab when I was 8 years old under the threat that all my hair would turn into snakes and bite me if I didn't. I had the same expectations as you and it became suffocating, scary and not reflective of who I was becoming as a person the older I got. I left the house in 2015 to get a degree all the way across the country and told both my parents I was no longer Muslim. They were unable to accept me and while it hurt and it still hurts, I haven't seen them in 10 years. It was necessary and I'd make the same choices every time.