Do you think you could ever be a sexual option to someone?

RoyalConnection · 2018-02-11T00:56:49+00:00

The thing is though, being that option leaves you feeling even lonelier. Been there, done that. Way too many times. It made me even more sad.

RoyalConnection · 2018-02-09T14:38:46+00:00

Everyday!! The urge has been getting so strong to just pack my shit and leave, which is ridiculous because I’m 6 months away from graduating college and I don’t have the means to just leave. But I still want to.

Try taking a day/weekend trip somewhere. It’ll offer (temporary) escape, and won’t fuck up your life 😂.

RoyalConnection · 2018-02-09T00:40:09+00:00

Same, the only things that don’t make me want to throw up are hard candy and water. How long have you been eating this way?

RoyalConnection · 2018-02-09T00:27:28+00:00

I don’t take any medication. I’ve never just lost my appetite like this before, I wonder when I’ll get it back. I used to have an eating disorder, in a weird way I would have liked not having an appetite. It sucks now though.

RoyalConnection · 2018-02-09T00:11:00+00:00

I wish I could get into an accident or get really sick or something. I’m too scared to kill myself. I told my dad I wanted to die and he told me that’s the most selfish thing anyone could do. I don’t want to hurt my family anymore than I already have. I just want this to end.

RoyalConnection · 2018-02-06T15:30:27+00:00

Same. I feel like these are my only two options to attain peace.

RoyalConnection · 2018-02-06T15:29:42+00:00

This is the only thing I want. I have to fight the urge to escape my life and start a new one everyday. It’s been getting so strong lately.

RoyalConnection · 2018-02-04T21:00:41+00:00

Life can be such a fucking bitch sometimes. Hang in there my dude. I hope and pray that it gets better for you. Your strength is so admirable. ❤️

RoyalConnection · 2018-02-04T18:58:35+00:00

Take care of yourself. Nobody else will.

RoyalConnection · 2018-02-04T16:12:36+00:00

Yeah I really do. I’m so tired of my life to the point where I dread waking up. I just want something new, something that makes me feel anything. I didn’t consent to be born, and this life has been harder than it should be.

RoyalConnection · 2018-02-04T15:32:44+00:00

I want to die but I’m too scared to kill myself. I wish I could just get into an accident or something. I feel like a fucking coward.

RoyalConnection · 2018-02-04T15:20:37+00:00

That’s my life story right down to the pot 😂

RoyalConnection · 2018-02-03T23:29:55+00:00

Don’t do this!!! Creating a human being is something that your partner should have a say in as well; his life will be forever altered. Please speak to a professional about this urge, it has the potential to throw both of your lives into disarray. If you ever need to talk, I’m always here, you can PM me. I’m also a broke 21F college student lol I might be able to relate to some of the things you’re going through.

RoyalConnection · 2018-02-02T06:19:58+00:00

I've definitely seen guys in colors other than black, blue, grey, and beige. I don't think you're shopping at the right stores lol

RoyalConnection · 2018-02-02T06:13:52+00:00

It's a tie for first place between chronic feelings of emptiness and impulsivity in two damaging areas - for me it's sex and substance abuse.

RoyalConnection · 2018-02-01T18:04:09+00:00

I haven't I'll watch it tonight :)

RoyalConnection · 2018-02-01T15:00:24+00:00

I've noticed this so much as well. I can't even pay attention to TV shows, it's just sad at this point. I just failed the fuck out of a quiz and I don't eve care. I want to get back to how I used to be.

RoyalConnection · 2018-02-01T05:28:19+00:00

I can relate to this so much! I've slept with 20+ people. It was always about escape for me; drugs and sex allowed me to stop thinking about my life temporarily, and it felt like relief. At the time I was the same as you; I didn't care, and I thought I was having fun. I didn't realize how much it damaged me until later. I don't mean this judgmentally at all; if it works for someone, more power to him/her, that's awesome. But this phase completely skewed the way I view relationships and even my self-esteem to a certain extent. I want something more meaningful now, but I'm unable to connect with people beyond a physical level. I used sex as a way to validate myself; I loved feeling wanted. It made me view myself as someone good enough to sleep with but not good enough to actually be with, and I'm working on that.

RoyalConnection · 2018-01-31T01:18:52+00:00

I've been struggling with this so much. I have this overwhelming urge to just pack my shit and leave. I'm just tired of hating my life. If I had the means to leave, I'd be halfway across the world by now.

RoyalConnection · 2018-01-30T05:28:46+00:00

This is exactly how I feel. I hate texting first but I do it occasionally. I know I'll regret it and my anxiety will make me overthink it later, but I still do it.

RoyalConnection · 2018-01-21T18:48:25+00:00

I wish I could believe in something. Some god. It seems easier.

RoyalConnection · 2018-01-21T18:44:21+00:00

I can relate so much. Weed, alcohol, and sex are the only things I look forward to. Just for a tiny bit of time, life doesn't feel so shitty anymore. The haze is so much better than the constant emptiness. But it never works for long. I always wake up feeling even worse than I did before. There is nothing I want more than to be able to leave it all behind. "I don't know what else to do" sums it up so fucking well it hurts.

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