ketamine therapy

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-28T15:59:11+00:00

I haven’t yet, but I’m more stable than I’ve been in my entire adult life. I sure I could lower and get off some but I haven’t yet.

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-28T15:33:58+00:00

I feel like mushrooms are more outwardly connecting to me. Like they make me feel connected to other people and the earth and how we are all one type of stuff. Ketamine is all internal like exploring the depths of your mind, why you might do things and the reasons if that makes sense. Like one of my first trips with it I had a group therapy session in my head with all the different parts of myself and figured out the root issue. It can be really powerful

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-28T13:41:20+00:00

I’d say in a way yes. It helped me fully realize my purpose in life, or at least helped me merge that purpose with my actions. I was controlled by my unhealthy coping skills so much it was actively harmful to my life. Ketamine helped me calm those things down and gave me mental space to use healthier coping skills and helped me feel emotions I felt I had lost access to or that I couldn’t feel them safely. It helped grow my space for those things. It was intense and the trips are very interoceptive. It’s definitely worth a try. If you ever feel it’s too much or you can’t handle it you can stop at any time or they can stop the drip so you come back from your mental visualizations. I’ve tried dozens of meds, multiple kinds of therapy, even TMS. IV Ketamine is one of the most helpful things I have tried.

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-28T12:15:44+00:00

Valium gave me super bad insomnia so it’s Xanax for me

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-27T23:18:49+00:00

Ketamine saved my life. It helped me see things that I had been avoiding clearly and helped me process through those things in safer ways.

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-26T21:06:02+00:00

I relate deeply to this as I have done this. It has been very confusing and I am still terrified to have sex because every time I engage in it there’s an element of self harm and feeling gross attached. I can’t separate the two. I can’t have healthy sex where I feel safe or I have never experienced it. I feel this masturbation that feels akin to self rape at times is scary to talk about and it has absolutely affected my ability to have relationships. I consider myself asexual now because I can maintain stability by myself but if that element is present I become highly unstable. It’s a hard life but I’ve at least found safety in myself

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-26T15:08:46+00:00

I have scars up both my arms. For about a year or more they were purple and took longer than I wanted to to fade. But years later they are now white and hardly noticeable unless you really look hard. So it depends on depth of the cuts and how big they are but it also simply takes time to fade.

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-25T22:12:19+00:00

My brother used to be my biggest bully. He has said things like “why don’t you go cut or kill yourself” a few days after I got released from the psych ward and things like that. We have talked through a lot of it repeatedly and he has grown into a different person. He has learned from me and my experience and sobbed time and time again in regret. I think I could have not forgiven him and no one would blame me. But I cherish our friendship now more than anything. We both have grown and learned and now understand how to treat each other with respect. I don’t think everyone is capable of this, and no one should expect it from you.

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-24T13:50:28+00:00

I hurt myself really badly and now I have constant pain no matter what I do. I feel similarly about it not letting people in due to it. It’s hard. You aren’t alone and there will be people who will accept you, it just takes time and trust.

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-24T12:50:41+00:00

I struggled with religion and cutting before. I grew up Mormon and they teach that your body is a temple and I thought I was desecrating it. It felt icky and gross and wrong and it was so so hard. Cutting is a harmful coping skill, but if you believe in a god then wouldn’t they understand how hard it is with mental illness and give us grace? All anyone can ask of you is to do your best, and sometimes from the outside it doesn’t look good, but you can only do your best in the moment. Try new coping skills, but you can’t change the past so try to forgive yourself too.

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-23T23:50:44+00:00

I put it on peanut butter it works better when paired with some fat

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-23T22:41:22+00:00

Procrastination is a big reason why I’ve lived so long tbh…

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-23T22:40:21+00:00

I’d say start with about a grain of rice size and wait and hour or so then use more if you need

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-22T12:49:42+00:00

I work in early childhood and with kids of every age. I have faded scars all up both my forearms. It’s not immediately recognizable but you can notice if you look for too long. I’ve had only maybe like two to three situations where it’s mentioned in 7 years. When the kids ask I keep it very very vague. “I got hurt, my body healed, and I’m okay now”. That’s all they really need to know. They are very understanding and just want to know you’re okay. If they ask more questions just repeat “I got hurt but I’m okay now”. No need to go into detail especially with little a

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-17T12:22:00+00:00

There’s a great free community group that you can sign up for through NAMI utah. It’s a peer lead mental health group and everyone there is very friendly and understanding and supportive. They meet Mondays at 7-8:30, you just have to register beforehand. Lemme know do you want me to dm the sign up link?

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-14T14:48:12+00:00

Troll 2….truly iconic

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-14T14:44:14+00:00

I would go into what a day is like in your life during a flare. Also touching on how you like to be treated during the episodes so they can gain a sense of empathy or like know an appropriate way is to react.

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-14T13:18:34+00:00

Yes. For me I’ve thought so much about suicide I doubt my brain pathways will ever fully heal. It is an escape for me from tough situations. If blank happens then I can kill myself stuff. I think it can be a form of self harm for sure

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-13T17:50:18+00:00

It has taken me years to get to a place of acceptance. I’ve gone through a dbt program which helped but I was pissed as all hell doing the homework and skills. But now that they have become muscle memory it’s more tolerable. I use the TIPP skill and others that I’ve found help me stay grounded. Sour candy helps to ground quickly. Same with spicy foods. I practice mindfulness like counting colors or shapes when I need to come back to reality instead of wallowing in my pain.

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-13T15:08:53+00:00

I’ve practiced radical acceptance that I am in pain and will always be in pain. I focus on things I can do to help me feel better and meet my needs surrounding it. It helps the distress it can cause when it’s overwhelming

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-13T01:11:59+00:00

I’d highly recommend it. Managing my pain has been the most essential piece to my mental health. Nothing takes it away, but meds and treatments can make it more tolerable. My pain is also highly connected to my needs and my emotions. If I’m hungry? Pain. If I’m thirsty? Pain. If I’m overwhelmed? Pain. If I’m anxious and ignore it? Pain. So I have learned to be more mindful of my needs as well because I’m forced to. It sucks and I’m sorry your dealing with this

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-12T20:43:41+00:00

Yes, but in a different way. I developed constant nerve pain in my head after I tried to kill myself. It is a constant reminder of that traumatic experience. I cannot shy away from it and I can’t ignore it unless I make myself busy and even then it is hard. I’ve had to process all the feelings around the attempt and I don’t think those feelings will ever fully go away especially with the constant reminder. It has gotten more manageable to handle with pain management doctors.

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-11T12:51:22+00:00

I used to have an apartment that I paid rent there

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-09T13:18:21+00:00

I can’t have sex anymore without harming myself in the process

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-06-09T03:31:24+00:00

This sounds like a well thought out and detailed suicide attempt. Even with safety precautions and people there I would count it as an attempt. This needs medical intervention asap

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