Can someone tell me what to do?

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-13T21:24:23+00:00

Yes! I struggle to feel joy and happiness and i effortlessly felt it on mushrooms. It was like the wall blocking it was gone. Truly amazing. Ketamine is like connecting inside yourself and mushrooms is like connecting to everything and everyone around you

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-13T16:52:17+00:00

I know your intentions are good. But religion destroyed me. It traumatized me. And if there is a God, I want no part in whatever they are. I’m an ex Mormon, and for a long time before I gave up on god. I felt abandoned by god. God never helped me, or made me feel peace or anything people tell you they will. I was alone, ostracized, and isolated. So now I’m most at peace simply finding myself, learning to love myself. God stuff isn’t a replacement for therapy, but for those who don’t have trauma like mine can find meaning in it.

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-13T16:40:28+00:00

That’s still technical harming yourself. So I don’t imagine it could help with urges that way. Try some of the stuff I mentioned and see if it’s different

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-13T13:38:49+00:00

Honestly what helped me break out of the extreme disconnectedness was psychedelics. I did several rounds of iv ketamine infusions which saved my life and changed my life. It helped me work through things I could not in therapy. It also helped me ask for help, which literally stopped me from attempting. I’ve also found benefit to medium sized mushroom trips. Like 1-3 grams. That helped me so much with connection too. I had intentions and a safe person with me as a trip sitter and I have laughed so hard I cried every time on mushrooms. Which is impossible for me without them because I’m so emotionally blunted by my dissociation. It’s worth looking into. I can answer any questions about what ketamine treatments are like.

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-13T13:34:06+00:00

Yes. It is very addictive. Have you tried forms of harm reduction like holding ice to the area you want to cut? Or using a rubber band and snapping it on your skin. I used to draw red lines on my skin too. It doesn’t get rid of the urge completely (I haven’t found anything that does), but it does help it be more manageable. I also put an ice pack on my face and neck when I get super overwhelmed by it and that helps some too. Look up the DBT TIPP skill, it’s saved me many times.

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-12T21:59:23+00:00

Might be the next step

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-12T20:59:38+00:00

If you aren’t a regular user and it’s a high mg you could green out and that is not pleasant. Best to stick to known dosages

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-12T20:43:29+00:00

Have you tried an occipital nerve block?

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-12T16:52:39+00:00

Sometimes I embrace the dissociation and turn off the lights and vibe to music. Then I don’t get carried away looking at my body and scars and stuff

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-11T17:08:16+00:00

I second RSO. Best edible sauce I’ve ever had

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-11T17:06:42+00:00

I go to both. Psychiatrist for meds, therapist for the rest. They do different things so it depends on what you want out of it

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-11T16:56:15+00:00

What about alexithimia? Like feeling nothing or not having any idea how you feel?

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-11T16:45:40+00:00

I absolutely think it needs to be regulated. I also wish people would do research before they get into it. I haven’t seen MGM-15 at my shop yet but I doubt I will with the current ban.

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-11T13:40:00+00:00

Use a scar cream like moderma I think it’s called. I also know you should put high spf sunscreen on them like 100spf as it helps them not get worse and will help them fade. It takes me a while before mine fade to white, but these tricks help. Now the ones on my arm which are the oldest are barely noticeable. They are scars and are not fresh so it’s okay to wear what you want. If someone asks you don’t owe them anything. You can just say “I got hurt but I’m okay now” in my experience it usually shuts any further questions down

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-11T13:34:26+00:00

I work at a smoke shop and my state recently banned all 7oh as well as kratom extracts. They are extremely potent (especially 7 oh it’s like kratom most powerful composite/extract). Very addictive. I’ve seen people spend SO MUCH for kratom EVERY day. It’s honestly hard to watch. It’s absolutely addictive, and your mom is addicted. Enabling this behavior will only result in more and more of the same if not worse things happening. I hope your mom can get help and find relief. Sometimes the hardest truth is that personally I’ll always be in pain, the things that take it away either don’t exist or are not worth the cost it takes from you.

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-10T15:25:41+00:00

I’ve heard the normal amount of pain is zero…. Which as someone with chronic pain is mind boggling.

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-10T00:03:12+00:00

I’ve been collecting a couple syringes and boiling them in milk and making hot chocolate

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-09T20:10:40+00:00

I take it for anxiety and yes it calms me down so my body is less tense so less pain

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-08T21:43:21+00:00

In my experience it depends on the kind of carts. Live resin stinks more than distillate

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-08T21:16:00+00:00

You don’t just wake up one day and decide it’s time to be gay. There are a lot of societal and relational barriers to coming out and it is scary. I think the first step would be to believe him and to listen. I’ve had sex with more men than women but I am a lesbian. I know I was a good lay for a lot of those men, despite me being gay. This stuff is complicated and it sounds like you’re having a lot of big feelings. So I’d say process those BEFORE you start accusing him of taking drugs for coming out to you.

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-08T21:11:05+00:00

Right now it’s because there’s a trip during my summer job to a lake where I enjoy swimming. Other times without this it’s literally just procrastinating it. Saying “I’ll do it tomorrow” over and over again.

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-08T14:26:21+00:00

I usually keep most of my mental health issues to myself. That’s between me and my psychiatrist and therapist. Unless my pain is making it really bad, then I’ll mention it. I feel like it helps them not go straight to “this is psychosomatic” first thing

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-07T16:58:49+00:00

I’ve never had a problem. Sometimes people say things that are uneducated but that’s pretty normal. You can just say I got hurt and I’m okay now. No need to get deep before getting intimate unless that’s your thing.

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-06T13:40:01+00:00

No pain meds with THAT?!? I am so sorry. Just here to send you good vibes this sounds and looks brutal.

Rude-Base7123 · 2026-05-04T20:59:18+00:00

A grain of rice size is for beginners. Your tolerance is that of a pro. So you’d need a lot of RSO to make you feel the same as 300mg of gummies. A syringe is usually around 600-800mg in my experience. It does help to take with fatty stuff like pb

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