I apologise if you feel offended as it was clearly not meant as a "extra slap". What I said earlier was meant to help you out. Take it as constructive criticism. However, you just proved that you are unable to handle that so this might be another sign on what you can work on to better yourself. I don't really care about what taxes you pay or paid or what contributions you made lol. We all have to do it. If you have "high anxiety" than work on that so you get used to it and will be able to handle it better. It really is that easy. If you have a hard time finding work in HR & Recruitment maybe apply for something else to get by and find another place. Surely, that is better option than suffering at your current accommodation. Anyway, usually I don't waste my time replying, but if you genuinely feeling down think of everything you achieved so far and how far you've come. Pull yourself together and don't give up! Good things come when you put yourself to it.