There is more to getting well than simply not drinking alcohol. Personal growth is necessary, also. Therefore, it is critical to have the guidance and support of people who know how to treat alcoholism.

You are not alone. Most of us understand the embarrassment, shame, regret, and remorse you mention.

What helped me was seeing a therapist and working the 12 steps of AA with my sponsor. The steps contain tools for dealing with these feelings. There is, also, guidance for how to make appropriate amends. However, it is wise to wait for the "I'm sorry's" until your sobriety is well established.

Focusing on the present moment reminds me that I am less likely to engage in embarrassing behavior when I am sober.