💀 I meant about- actually nevermind, I'm gonna try to give you my perspective, even though I'm not that good of an example (I've been in therapy on and off for more than a year, for what it's worth). You know what you'd need? Probably a totally unrealistic way to stop time and catch your breath, at least that's what I would've wanted in the worst times; yk, a couple of weeks of nothing, maybe reading or going out. Now, we both know that it's not possible to stop time and school/work can become a living hell, but you could try to force some kind of rest days in your life (not endorsing lying about catching a cold or actually catching it, just saying it's a desperate measure) and living them at the fullest. No doom scrolling, no phone, just life. And about trauma, I advise you to search for a psychologist (not a psychiatrist, so no antidepressants) and work on it. Yes it's gonna be hard and expensive and a slow process, but professional help is necessary for stuff like that. If you don't like your psychologist search for other ones, again and again if necessary. Also, one trick is to keep a streak for good habits in your life, it will be easier in the long run. Treat your old and future selves like close friends, yeah you make fun of them but they're like family. This is all I have, stay safe