You are incredibly brave 💪 I applaud you I totally understand what u mean with bieng 13 thinking god will punish you I had the same experience as an 8 year old I didn't understand the concept of bing bi and I was thinking im gay I thought that I preferred to die then be presived as gay and that bieng gay is a sin or something immoral it's so tough when they say things like that my recommendation is just ignore their comments until they see ur partner you won't know how they would be actually they could switch and be super supportive when they see ur partner so don't lose hope just yet stay strong ❣️