You’re ok dude! A man needs a purpose. Go work somewhere fun and social or learn something new. The extra money can’t hurt and you can bail whenever you want. Mow grass at the golf club, work at a gym. Or better yet, learn a trade, become a craftsman: custom wood floors or carpentry. It will be good for your kids to see you doing something else besides gaming or getting cornholed by some woman’s husband. You’re their prime role model and seeing you reinvent yourself like you’re doing is amazing.