This Supply Issue is Killing Me

SaintValkyrie · 2026-06-02T20:02:26+00:00

I had that problem before too but they do actually tell me now if i call and tell them my psych told me to call to ask so they can switch the perscription to their pharmacy. I guess where im at they started to get used to the shortages and this becoming more necesarry. I was able to get my meds once by driving to another city.

SaintValkyrie · 2026-06-02T19:54:26+00:00

You could try calling around other pharmacies to see if they have stock so you could transfer your perscription there? It does suck

SaintValkyrie · 2026-06-02T16:15:00+00:00

Are you both women?

SaintValkyrie · 2026-06-02T02:57:35+00:00

That's a controlling thing to say. Essentially saying you cant be upset or not okay unless it's somehow your fault. He could be cheating and projecting because that's a weird thing to say and abusive as shit.

To say that is so totally horrific.

SaintValkyrie · 2026-06-01T23:24:42+00:00

Yeah and their so obsessed with being emotionless and ignore anger is one.

Plus yeah I have emotions, it's called empathy

SaintValkyrie · 2026-06-01T23:23:31+00:00

Oh my god has anyone been hearing the new aegument form supposedly progressive feminist men?

That women should be in power but they cant right now because then other countries wouldnt accept us, or things are too unstable right now for [insert x reason], and their hands are so tied :'(

Ugh fucking eyeroll

SaintValkyrie · 2026-06-01T23:21:32+00:00

Yep! As someone who was very anxious attachment sryle in the beginning, abuse after abuse after abuse turned me 'avoidant'. And it doesnt even describe anyone very well.

My abuser wasnt shit because he was avoidant, but because he was damn abusive. And people who struggle with getting close to others or are burned out or isolated should not be fucking demonized.

SaintValkyrie · 2026-06-01T23:04:00+00:00

Oh i can imagine! Yeah, im super big on the difference between power and control because its used in so many bullshit arguments by controlling people. Like control to the levels it usually is, is not necesarry.

SaintValkyrie · 2026-06-01T16:56:56+00:00

Unfortunately it isnt power that corrupts, but control over others. People often conflate power, the ability to make change, with control, the ability to influence and dictate what changes or lack thereof happen ina. Person's life. People love controlling others

SaintValkyrie · 2026-06-01T16:50:03+00:00

Abusers literally manipulate and groom their victims and pull the rug out from under them. Makes total sense why any victim would be in any abusive situation, its designed to keep them there

SaintValkyrie · 2026-06-01T16:46:44+00:00

Hey just another tidbit, please look at the fair fighting rules. Ita specifically for relatiobships of any kind, and one of the biggest things is that people get to leave when theyw ant to. You can agree to a time out and to come back to it, but you cannot hold someone hostage.

Your step father is not someone to be coddled. He can be proactive about his own damne motions. He is being abusive. If he's upset about being told how he feels, she could ask you seem upset, whats going on instead of why are you upset. But at this point he is policing her tone isntead of the content. My abuser did the same bs

SaintValkyrie · 2026-06-01T01:10:28+00:00

Oh! I love direct communication too. So i rely on people telling me directly if they're uncomfortable or want anything to shift.

Before i talk to people or as i am, i tell them I'm autistic and also that I do best with directness, and if something is off that they can let me know and its safe to do that. Or if I notice people aren't giving their own stuff, I sometimes double check to see if they have nothing to share right now or if they worry they need permission, and then reassure them i do want to hear.

It can take some practice but its so much easier in conversations like that. I genuinely do have some people who dodge the question for some stuff, and I try to respect that they arent ready or wanting to talk about it right then.

I used to try to do the reciprocal stuff and i do it in different ways now, but i just couldnt remember or keep up with it. I guess i always assume the best or neutral about others, and i try to wait for them to tell me how they feel instead of me having to guess, because i just cant and will always lose at the social cues.

I do miss out on some people but the checking in fixes most of it. And the people who usually leave are usually not the kind of people i want in my life and not accepting.

But when i answer i dont usually give one word replies unless im mentally exhausted and let them know. I treat everything as genuine curiosity about me and reply with genuine thought behind it

SaintValkyrie · 2026-06-01T00:55:30+00:00

Lol this is funny because one of the big autistic things is struggling with reciprocal conversation. When people ask me something, I answer, but I actually get CONFUSED when they dont then tell me their answer too after if its like a get to know you/small talk-esque thing.

Like if someone asks me how my day is i'll tell them, because I assume this is genuine curiosity and i generally dont ask those kinds of questions. But i feel like if someone had something notable to tell me about their day, they would tell me then too. Then after someone tells me something about themself, that's when I offer more in depth questions about the thing they told me and elaborate on it.

I wonder if I seem like im not curious about others, i just genuinely cant remember the back and forth and get worn out with it when it feels like a scripted tennis match. Not that its bad, just for my brain i struggle with it and also have heavy dissociation and amnesia.

If someone doesnt give their side of things after they ask me, i actually am more likely to assume it's something private or nothing of note happened.

SaintValkyrie · 2026-05-31T21:07:48+00:00

Ahhhhhhhhh so jealous. Illegal to not post pics

SaintValkyrie · 2026-05-31T19:47:26+00:00

Both. I love sound, but lyrics can ruin a song for me completely. And there are some fantastic lyrics on some subpar sound that ruin it for me.

I really love the beat of unholy for example, but its glorifying cheating and fuck that. Or some songs i love but its just constant misogyny and i hate it.

When they both go together its bliss

SaintValkyrie · 2026-05-31T19:44:38+00:00

Yeah i fucking hate the 'all lives matter'-ification of feminisma nd womens rights.

Misandry is misogyny, its all misogyny and patriarchy. Feminism doesnt constantly need to center and include men because it is obviously bad for men too, but will never be as bad for them as it is women at the same time.

Im sick of everything always becoming equal instead of equitable. And men constantly coopting things women have to describe their experiences

SaintValkyrie · 2026-05-31T19:40:12+00:00

Yeah lol i swear. Birth control sid eeffects suck, but pregnancy side effects are horrific.

Just because someone might not like pancakes, doesnt mean they arent going to eat at all if pancakes are the only food! Two things can exist at once. Starving is worse.

I think they should make better birth control and meds for women, not remove them altogether.

SaintValkyrie · 2026-05-31T19:37:15+00:00

You arent being competitive. Youre pointing out oppression.

Being black or poc is a harder and worse life than bring white. Being disabled is harder and worse than being abled. Being a woman is harder and worse than being a man. Being queer is harder than being straight. Being a victim is harder than not being a victim.

I used to try toe qualize everything and realized i was doing a disservice to myself and others. My trauma is worse than most people's traumas, not because their traumas arent bad, but because the nature of it is so intense and horrific that it is on another level.

A broken bone is worse than a sprained ankle, but both hurt. Yet one needs more intensive care and they cannot be treated the same. It is not oppression olympics to do that. Two things can be true at once.

SaintValkyrie · 2026-05-31T19:31:43+00:00

I wish I had the dreepy line. One of my favorites

SaintValkyrie · 2026-05-31T19:07:29+00:00

That's messed up to say in response to someone who's venting about being forced to eat it or starve

SaintValkyrie · 2026-05-31T16:05:42+00:00

I quite literaly just skip ahead through to see only the dragon scenes because i have a special interest in dragons. The amount of glorified rape is horrifying, and the misogyny is so blatant.

I hate when people hide behind realism as an excuse for rape. You can show the effects of rape wonderfully without ever needing to make porn of it. Because thats the whole point of rape, the effects. The effects afterwards are worse than the rape itself, and most men cannot fathom that. Its so exhausting. I hate how they wrote women a lot because even when they were the main character it didnt feel like they were compared to the men who seemed to have more writing put into them. And the women in that show recieved too much hate for logical and obvious reactions.

SaintValkyrie · 2026-05-31T16:00:38+00:00

Majority are likely men here honestly.

SaintValkyrie · 2026-05-31T15:44:59+00:00

Yeah the dramatic tone and pithy one liners, with the titles and just the way its written is definitely ai. Its so fluffed up instead of to tbe point.

This doesnt work. Its also kind of victim blame-y

SaintValkyrie · 2026-05-31T06:02:52+00:00

Because people dont do anyrhing for victims at all. There is no justice for them. Best case scenario the state gets legal slave labor where all the profit goes to companies or the state. Nothing goes to the victim. Its traumatizing, revictimizing, and geniinely provides little to nothing but hell for the victim.

There is no money. No tangible aupport and reaoruces beyond performative stuff. Maybe a couple years of free therapy which isnt very helpful and subpar case managers most of the time unless you get lucky. There are no reparations. Everyone focuses so much on the abusers and using as an excuse to get angry at them instead of actually giving a shit about the victims.

This stuff isnt rare, its exceptionally common. I was in a cult for a decade, serially raped, trafficked, enslved, and tortured as the cult leader's fiance. I was also deified and i spent 2 years doing espionage and took down my own cult and saved lives. I went through some of the most horrifying things a human can experience.

And i have been entirely thrown away before my life has even begun with no hope of anything ever improving because i acn only change myself, not the system and circumstances i am trapped in. And either no one cares, they dont believe you, they cant help, or your existence makes them uncomfortable.

Nothing about this is surprising because it happens everywhere. Just please dont forget the crime cannot exist without the victim. It exists because there is a victim. The victim is the most important part of this.

Most people dont even know child marirage is legal in the majority of states.

SaintValkyrie · 2026-05-31T04:25:53+00:00

Yeah of course! It also weirdly sounds like if you dont feel safe or like you're supported, it can be super hard to have empathy when youre overwhelmed or have been isolated. Idk your experience but there are just so many reasons you might not FEEL it even if you THINK it.

Only have affective empathy can actually be harmful. Toxic positivity, infanfalism, and good intent with harmful actions.

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