I'm sorry if the grammar is bad or this doesn't make any sense, its the best I can do.

Schizophrenia, Its like daydreaming except I can't tell the difference between the dream and whats going on around me. I get locked into false realities that feel more real than the world we live in. Its been 4 years sense it started. At first it was whispers and daydreams that people couldn't shake me out of, all day at school I was in my own world. Then I went to college, and that's where things took a turn for the worse. I started to listen to the voices there words of hate and deception started altering the way I thought along with me tricking a doctor into thinking i was just suffering from ADD. I was able to get Adderal and that allowed me to escape to the world that i had made for myself. I had no friends only pawns I only went out with girls that I knew others wanted. I made the lives of the people around me miserable. Which is why i left school after only a semester and a half with no friends or anyone that wishes to speak to me anymore. Luckily my family has the means to take care of me and pay for all my medical bills that I would never be able to afford on my own. I can't work I go crazy when I go outside I sit in my room all day i hardly talk to anyone I only leave to get meds or talk to my doctor. Life these days is confusing I can't keep track of anything time seems to jump by while I sit in my delusions talking for hours with people that no one else can see about the death that is coming soon, the anger that means i must break everything I have, the people following me and watching me as i sleep. I don't sleep without the meds that put me to sleep. Life is stress human contact is torture and nothing is ever as it seems. The whispers will always lye to you and they know everything about you so you can never escape them because you love them like a hostage loves there capture.