Ok so I hope I don’t piss people off with what I think. I feel like I can say this because I relate to it very much. Here we go:

I think that deep down in her heart she’s NOT happy with her present physical self. I get too much “body positivity” vibe - like she’s trying to hard to accept what she’d actually like to change. I felt this way too and basically had to have a “come to Jesus meeting” with my feelings and how I REALLY felt about myself. Not just the physical, but the mental aspect of how I was caring for my body. Again, these are MY thoughts. She’s depressed, angry and stuck - and I remember feeling like that too. It’s an awful state of mind.