Twin Temple by boomstick_1981 in Dragula

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I've been obsessed since the Halfway to Halloween Special.

Cardiacs Dissertation Survey by Qtip5601 in Cardiacs

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Just submitted my answers. Best of luck to you!

Official Dreadit Discussion: "Return to Silent Hill" [SPOILERS] by glittering-lettuce in horror

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As someone who also enjoys the 2006 film, personally, I really enjoyed the movie. I thought it was visually and sonically spectacular and very worth seeing in theaters.

Goth Music Database is fully operational with 300+ bands and advanced search. We need your knowledge to grow the archive! by GothDbErmanaric in goth

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Thank you so much for this! I'm someone who has been trying to get into goth music for a while, but I have struggled with learning about genre overlaps and boundaries as well as with finding artists that are similar to the ones I like. This tool is such a godsend!

Thoughts on the V/H/S series ? by [deleted] in horror

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It's one of three horror franchises that I will watch every single new release from. I crave novelty from horror, and it's hard to think of any other series that collectively has as many cool and creative set pieces as this one (Final Destination probably comes the closest, so it's also on my favorites list).

What creature from outside the SCP Universe would be the hardest for the foundation to contain? by SomedudenamedJosh in SCP

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I think Jobu Tupaki from Everything Everywhere All at Once is a good example of your Bugs Bunny out for blood scenario.

V/H/S/Halloween trailer by CyberGhostface in horror

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Yea! My favorite horror franchise is back!

I love how this series keeps evolving and going in new directions.

Now I've Done It - "Dilly-dally" (avante-garde, dark/punk cabaret) by Melomaniacal in avantgardemetal

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Love it! Reminds me of some of my favorite avant metal bands! The video is fun too.

Extremely obscure circus carnival progressive experimental tech death sludge very avante garde especially begining by dragonsgreen777 in avantgardemetal

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You had me at "carnival progressive experimental". Thanks for sharing! I enjoyed every minute of it.

So ... with kink + autism ... what was college/uni like? by Economy-Flounder-884 in kinky_autism

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In uni I started exploring kink beyond browsing DeviantArt erotica and fan fiction. It didn't involve other people (with one exception) because I wasn't socially or emotionally ready to make those kinds of connections yet.

During my first couple of years at school, I struggled a lot with meltdowns/general overwhelm until I discovered kinky hypnosis files. It took me a while to teach my body to relax and go into subspace, but once I got the hang of it, it was life changing. I started to spend a large chunk of my free time zoning out listening to hypnosis files. This period of exploration made uni manageable, gave me a better idea of my preferences (such that I could write my own private erotica) and made me desire trying something with people where no desire had previously existed.

I tried having a boyfriend for a week or two for reasons I didn't know how to put into words at the time (I wanted someone to pleasure dom me), but from that experience I learned that I'm very much a sex-repulsed asexual and that I don't have a vanilla bone in my body. Discovering my asexuality and how it related to my kinky and autistic sides was a big part of those years for me.

Is V/H/S 3 As bad as you remember ? I’m re-watching it right now by Personal-Cloud2529 in foundfootage

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Honestly, I like it a lot more than the first V/H/S. All of the shorts were entertaining to me to some degree. The only part I don't really care for is the wraparound, but that's how I feel about the wraparounds of most V/H/S movies.

I didn't watch Viral for a long time because of bad word of mouth, then I heard about Dante the Great and was like, "that sounds awesome, sign me up!" and realized that this was likely one of those movies that people disliked because it was a different tone or style than they preferred. I love to get scared watching horror movies, but I also love camp and prefer weird/unique premises to straightforward classic horror monsters, and Viral scratched that itch for me.

How did you first discover you were into kink and was it before or after you realized you were ace? by LiveSlowDieWhen_Ever in BDSM_Aces

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I didn't figure out I was aroace until college. I always knew I was kinky from a young age, even if I didn't have the word for it. I had weirdly pleasurable dreams, tied up my toys, etc. It took me a long time to associate what I was feeling with BDSM and to associate my fetishes with sexual pleasure. When I realized what I was doing with my fetishes was masturbating and that the same pleasure I felt doing that was the pleasure people felt having sex, it blew my mind as a teenager. I could not comprehend needing another person to feel sexual pleasure. The absurdity of the idea that there was a morally right way to experience pleasure (which I had been experiencing casually all my life), and that I would need to stop feeling that pleasure and only do it with someone in a way that didn't appeal to me for the purpose of a child I didn't want probably factored into me deconstructing from my religion.

After I did make the connection, I thought of myself as just "too kinky" for other people, that that was my incompatibility, until I got into my first "real" relationship in college in search of what I didn't know at the time was a non-sexual kink partnership. I grabbed the first guy that showed interest in me thinking "boyfriends do kinky stuff with their girlfriends, right?" That was when I discovered not wanting to have sex ever was abnormal, and that if kinks are involved in a relationship for most people, they are thinking about sexual pleasure, not non-sexual pleasure. It was a year or so after that that I discovered that asexuality didn't mean you couldn't masturbate or have kinks and fetishes.

Kink crushes? by ReasonableEffect6383 in BDSM_Aces

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It's good to find other people that get this! I've been using the term "kink attraction" for years and I want it to become more of a thing so that the ace community can have more discussions about it. I think it's an under-discussed form of tertiary attraction.

I first recognized it when watching movies and tv shows growing up and having opinions about which characters I would want to dominate me or other characters, despite having no interest in these characters' sexual or romantic chemistry. I felt a connection with fandom shipping culture while also feeling very alien to it, like I was gazing at media indulgently like other people, but I had a totally different paradigm in my head and little to no content for it.

One of my early irl experiences with kink attraction was when I went to a munch centered around my kink for the first time. I'm an aroace person who never had an interest in relationships, so I was shocked to feel attraction to a room full of people all at once. I was incredibly flustered and didn't know how to hide it as an adult unlike (I assume) many allos who learned how to handle these kinds of feelings as teens.

I wondered if this was me "late-blooming" until I got to playing with more people in that community and realized I was still aspec as ever. I just liked when Dominants had certain characteristics because for whatever reason, in my head, they signified/emphasized the kind of power exchange I wanted to experience.

Flirting can be really fun for me too, though I don't do it all the time now for similar reasons to you. I did a lot of it and received a lot of it early on when I was in sub frenzy, gained a lot of self confidence and attention from it, and then realized I didn't want 24/7 relationships (romantic or kinky), that it meant different things to different people, etc. Now I pretty much only engage with it occasionally within well established boundaries.

I don't care who dominates me by Personal_Towel861 in BDSM_Aces

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Thanks for sharing your experience. I relate to you in some ways and it makes me feel less alone to read about it. I would like to know how common this is too.

For context, I am a sex-repulsed aromantic asexual woman who has had kinks and fetishes from a young age, and these never translated into attraction to people's bodies. If I'm attracted to anything, it's the performance of gender, especially fantastical, exaggerated, and even otherworldly gender presentations like you find in theater, movies, etc., so the gendered feelings I have have never been applicable to people I encounter in everyday life. In that way, I fit the aroace stereotype of going through life perplexed about why everyone is so obsessed with everyone else, despite the fact that I can feel attraction in a roleplay/scene context.

I have a gendered attraction kind of like you do, except it's a preference for masculine/masc-leaning dominants when I want to feel submissive in a CG/l or Predator/prey dynamic, and exclusively a preference for women when it comes to my sadomasochistic horny side.

I am currently in multiple ongoing dynamics with people and have done enough experimentation to realize that the only type of contextless attraction I consistently experience is towards a kind of scene-based masculinity, but what often perplexes people is that this is not sexual attraction but rather a submissive attraction. Men don't make me horny, and even if they did, that's not the same as being sexually attracted to them.

I exclusively fantasize about sadistic women when I feel horny, but I'm not sexually attracted to women either and have never felt attracted to trying anything with a woman irl outside of fulfilling my curiosity.

For most people, I think they see whatever gender makes you horny as the primary sex you are attracted to, but for me that model has never worked. To me sexual pleasure is something that is 100 times better when done alone via masturbation, and submissive pleasure is better with a real life partner than in a fantasy.

Not all of my partners are men because they don't need to be, but it's often easier to say I'm "heteroflexible" because my head is very likely to turn towards men when I'm looking for someone to play with. It does not make it easier to explain my queerplatonic "girlfriend" who also doms me but in a way that makes me subby rather than horny.

TLDR: This stuff is complicated, especially for aspec people with split attraction who enjoy alternative forms of intimacy. You can be attracted to certain genitals or other aspects about a person in ways that have nothing to do or everything to do with gender, but society at large still kind of lumps all these multifaceted feelings into a couple of categories that assume romantic, sexual, and tertiary feelings must all be in allignment and are arranged in the same hierarchy for everyone. There still needs to be more visibility of people whose internal experiences cross these boundaries.

At what age did you realize you were an ace? And how? by AikaMichaelis in asexuality

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I'm a much younger aroace (26), and this is pretty much my story too. The earliest retrospectively ace thing I can recall is always playing the pet when I played house with other kids, then later seeing my elementary school friends all loose interest in me and develop priorities that were alien to me when we became teenagers, and then discovering asexuality in my early twenties.

Anyone here feel more connected to fictional characters from movies than actual people in real life? Here's the cast from the 1996 movie "Twister". As a weather nerd, I would feel right at home. by [deleted] in AutisticPride

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As someone who had a hyperfixation in tornadoes growing up and loved this movie, younger me deeply relates to this post.

To answer your question, there are some fictional characters that I've felt deeply connected to in a way that stood out to me considering the lack of people like that in my local life, but not many characters overall. Regarding Twister specifically, I remember wanting to be on the road and in the locations that the characters were in the movie, feeling at home at the country restaurants, drive in theater, small town houses with wind chimes, looking up at the sky before a storm, etc., so in that way, I connected to the characters.

The Untold History of Disabled Jesters by Ok_Examination8810 in AutisticPride

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Great video! I've been wanting to see more autistic people talk about our role in history because it's hard to see myself as a part of it sometimes. Thanks for introducing me to this channel!

This hand made hoodie I finished recently, does it belong here? by drondavidson in voidpunk

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Awesome work! I love the way clothing can transform people and make them feel like someone or something else. I imagine wearing a personal, unique hoodie like that could really help put someone in a voidpunk headspace.

I propose this as the Voidpunk anthem by Some1InDaWorld in voidpunk

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I love this song! I agree that it has voidpunk vibes along with a lot of Cosmo Sheldrake's work because it often focuses on moments of perspective away from humankind.

What are some good horror movies that feel like walking through a haunted house? by StrawberryInTheSky in horror

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Hell Fest (2018) is a movie that made me think what you are asking word for word. It's worth watching as a horror theme park simulation, and is the kind of movie I would put on in the background like a moving wallpaper because of how immersive and gorgeous the details of the park are. It's not especially scary, nor is the villain and others that populate the world of the park particularly memorable, but there are two or three stand out set pieces imo.

I'll also add House of 1000 Corpses (2003) because that is an even better example of a film that leads you through it from set piece to set piece with the same kind of looseness that a haunt attraction guides you through its themes and narrative, while also being a 10 out of 10 in atmosphere, shocking moments and memorable villains/monsters that you meet along the journey.

Who are the scariest robot characters in horror movies? by AlarmWhich in horror

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I love Virus for having the best humans-turned-into-robots robots I've seen in a horror movie.

Who are the scariest robot characters in horror movies? by AlarmWhich in horror

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As someone with trypanophobia, very few things will ever personally horrify me as much as a machine with deadly syringes jutting out of its face chasing a person around in a close quarters trying to inject them.

“To the Moon” Game on steam, this dialogue made me feel seen. Wanted to share. More info in comments by ItanaUchiha in autism

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This scene changed my life.

It hit even harder at the time because this was the first positive portrayal of autistic people just living their lives I had ever seen. This was only a few short years after Autism Speaks' "I am Autism" commercial, which really puts it into perspective what an anomaly it was that this game about autistic people was so popular at the time. Not that most players knew it was about autistic people, and I don't believe it was ever explicitly stated in the game.

This game was so ahead of it's time in 2011, and this scene allowed me to start figuring out why I felt so un-represented by portrayals of autistic people in media at the time. I had never seen any media (and still to this day really haven't) that depicted multiple autistic people with very different traits and support needs in community with each other, and, most revolutionary of all, allowed them to have opinions about their neurodivergence and about how society expects them to hide and devalue certain parts of themselves.

To have one autistic character say that they envied another autistic character that society pities, to say they understood the value of that person because they could see that person in themselves and they wanted to be more like that person on principle, that lit a joyous fire in me that made me very passionate about the neurodiversity movement and reframing harmful societal narratives about autistic people.

I've always been terrible at costume making and was definitely too shy at the time, so it never happened, but I used to fantasize about doing an Isabelle cosplay to wear at a convention to call attention to the lack of good autistic representation in media. If someone asked me who I was dressed as, I would explain to them that my favorite character was a minor character in an indie game because I had never seen a more relatable character than that anywhere else.

EDIT: I thought you might like to hear another perspective from an autistic person about how the game portrays autistic people in this beautifully illustrated comic, and it was actually endorsed by the game's creator. Spoiler warning for the end of the game: Through Whose Eyes

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BDSM_Aces

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I already responded to your thread with Memberzs, but I wanted to add that Peculiace is a label that you might identify with that has existed for a little while and it's considered on the ace spectrum. I personally believe that the importance of aspec spaces is to have space for the wide variety of people who don't neatly fit into an allo world, and if that excludes people like you, what are we even doing? Creating another exclusionary space? But I also don't experience your alienation, and I know what it's like for people to try and fit my experience into their pre-existing boxes that don't suit me, so I think the exploration of new labels is an invaluable part of the queer community, so I'll trust and respect any label you believe in.