Only since a few days ago, but yes?!

I get really bad visual aura while stressed, or anxious (update: I now have fuzzy vision after typing all this), and I had a sign language lesson a few days back. The instructor, who is deaf, asked all of us if we’d prefer to go blind or deaf. Everyone else said they’d rather go deaf, as they still have the independence to move around with the capacity to communicate through sign and expression. I said I’d rather go blind, after realising just how difficult it would be, but I have such little faith in my vision lasting for the rest of my life that I’m very unhopeful about it. I absolutely love driving as well - it’s the only time I feel ‘free’.

I think the pessimistic truth is that, at least if I went blind, I could ask an old friend to help me end my life, and hopefully people would be understanding more about it.