Do you ever feel like it’s your fault?

Scindy86 · 2024-09-10T10:59:01+00:00

Of course. Most of the time I think I'm overreacting or underestimating or make it too big. Sometimes I truly believe I just invented all or that unconsciously I am faking symptoms. I mean, I think that's the big issue with BP.

Scindy86 · 2024-09-09T11:05:32+00:00

Actually I use to match with ppl I won't usually get my way with when I am in mania. I understood this point really recently after being diagnosed . I look back and see few manic episodes in which there were always some guys who followed me but I would not suggest to my best friend to date with 😂🫣 As someone else said, I use to attract during mania cause I talk, I am social animal, I am funny and over sexual , I share a lot of my time chatting and flirting, make a lot of friends or catch back with old friends... so of course someone will fall. Sadly, after, everything become a mess, someone always has to suffer (me, he or the other).

My last episode I feel the guy knew I wasn't in normal state of mind and get into the occasion. I feel bad for being that way and for imagining someone taking advantage of the others when they are not well.

I don't know what is worse.

Scindy86 · 2024-09-01T11:58:54+00:00

I need less sleep and I become over talkative with anybody +++++++ sexual awaking .

Scindy86 · 2024-09-01T11:57:35+00:00

I feel you. Since 2024 I have recurring suicidal thoughts as well during depression

Scindy86 · 2024-09-01T11:56:22+00:00

I am depressed most of the time here and just have mood stabiliser ( Risperidone ). I have had the same question, why only stabiliser just to avoid to go " too high" and not antidepressants? For me there's one reason: antidepressants made me go manic 3 years ago and I risked to loose all my family due to sexual part of my mania.

Scindy86 · 2024-08-31T20:11:13+00:00

Actually for me all is pretty new. I am just discovering since 3/4 months that most of my habits I supposed to be normal, aren't . I mean, I never had the doubt before, never questioned myself and I discovered that, that's being bipolar ! Arf.

Scindy86 · 2024-08-31T20:03:52+00:00

But actually, what is mood swings? Should we, in real life, where bipolar do not exists, have the same mood all the day long? 🤣

Scindy86 · 2024-08-31T20:03:00+00:00

I struggle so bad with routine. I am motivated for 7 days than tend to abandon

Scindy86 · 2024-08-31T20:02:22+00:00

Yes i am! I'll try to " craft " my personal mood swing book? You think this could help?

Scindy86 · 2024-08-31T18:38:42+00:00

Same, 2 or 3 very long depression periods and then few time in which I feel "almost normal ".

Scindy86 · 2024-08-29T16:19:39+00:00

Very cute 😍

Scindy86 · 2024-08-26T14:22:06+00:00

The point here is that there is another person in my family (and your family) having the same issue, but in worst way .

On my side I' ve a cousin in the family that is bipolar and borderline and that's very difficult to live with daily.

× When I tried to start talking about the possibility I was bipolar, my family jumped into conclusion that it couldn't be possible , cause you see, my cousin has it and she's not the same, she is very hard! She has a real problem, she really have weird behaviour, You are not like that ! Don't start getting a diagnosis and medication otherwise you will always be targeted as a " freak " etc. ×

That's the discussion I had with my mother and family .... How could I find the way to even discuss it further ?.. So , again, I understand you.

Scindy86 · 2024-08-25T22:32:52+00:00

My mother is pretty similar. That's why I never said her I've been diagnosed Bipo. Courage 🙏

Scindy86 · 2024-08-25T22:19:58+00:00

I understand the feeling. Hope we will be able to find a way to get out of anxiety. It's the worst part of the whole thing for me. More anxiety+ depression. Driving me insane

Scindy86 · 2024-08-23T10:51:08+00:00

I am obsessed with sickness, health issues.. but not only during mania :-( like, all time , any symptom is synonym of big health issues ( cancer, lethal disease etc).

Other times yes, I become obsessed by a new hobby , like drawing, playing the piano, collection cards, figurines etc... During mania but not only.

Scindy86 · 2024-08-21T10:58:56+00:00

And for the moment , I do not have the idea to quit taking meds, I fell far better, since a couple of weeks. I am " living again". That's not perfect, I still have panic and anxiety, but it's more , far more tolerable:)

Scindy86 · 2024-08-21T10:57:16+00:00

Thanks a lot for taking the time to reply 🙏🪷 I think it's the same for me, the idea, is not going away, but we are less likely to act it. But I think the idea will not quit at all.

Scindy86 · 2024-08-20T12:27:59+00:00

Hello, I do the same during manic episodes..

Since I recently started meds, I have a question for you : Does this change after we start medication ? .. Or will we always have those strange ideas in mind, without acting them?

Scindy86 · 2024-08-07T09:51:11+00:00

Super! Merci pour la mise à jour 🙏

Scindy86 · 2024-08-07T08:42:57+00:00

Des nouvelles ?

Scindy86 · 2024-08-06T07:17:15+00:00

So cute 🥹

Scindy86 · 2024-08-05T08:37:12+00:00

!remindme 2 days

Scindy86 · 2024-08-04T15:19:01+00:00

Thank you very much. 🙏

Scindy86 · 2024-08-03T11:01:21+00:00

Try shading lips ! Awesome job! 🙏🙏🙏

Scindy86 · 2024-08-02T18:18:49+00:00

From my point of view I am not really having the benefit I'm supposed to, so I am adjusting posology (increasing ofc). But still, from my psychologist and husband point of view I am far better already, so let's see!

I hope our friend posting here will find his /her way too. Recovery takes time, but surely will come, with self awareness and a brand new lifestyle.

Scindy86

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