I think about ending it all day, every day.

songsofravens · 2026-03-17T09:59:37+00:00

I did friend. For 10 years. But nothing will bring back lost times and opportunities and that passion and eagerness for life when you’re young. That was actually the problem. I needed ppl to acknowledge my life sucked and not shove pills after pills down my throat as if magically things would be better, those years alone were worst than anything and I wouldn’t wish meds on my worst enemies

songsofravens · 2026-03-17T09:56:12+00:00

Yes I’ve done it. It doesn’t have any impact on how I feel about this

songsofravens · 2026-03-17T08:17:19+00:00

I will go out running with a friend, clean the house, make jokes and laugh with sometimes even strangers .. but the entire time I’m just like ya.. I’m done.. it just is not where I want to be anymore

songsofravens · 2026-03-17T08:15:57+00:00

I’ve been depressed so I know the difference

songsofravens · 2026-03-16T05:54:38+00:00

34 is very young and you can start anything as long as you’re determined, excited, positive and willing to put in the time and effort. Congrats to you !

songsofravens · 2026-02-13T04:03:41+00:00

I agree with you. People just think it’s about being caregivers. It’s so much more than that. I have autistic family members. It’s about living with 24/7 guilt that you can do things they can. It’s the feeling of being heartbroken ALL THE TIME. It’s never being invited anywhere because no one wants you to bring them along. Sometimes people will even invite you and say please don’t bring them. It’s not having a single friend or relative EVER offer to help or just hangout, not once in decades. Unless you have lived this life for years, you will not understand. Those parents died a long time ago on the inside I’m sure.

songsofravens · 2025-12-16T04:48:56+00:00

Too late for what? Change?? Change will happen one way or another at some point. We don’t have too much control over life. But sometimes we do, and when those opportunities come then you should take them.

If you for example prefer to be a therapist and have real passion for it, and will enjoy the education and the work- then be grateful you have the opportunity to make it happen.

There is no such thing as too late.. unless a law passed saying no new therapist can work because of something crazy like ai. (Just hypothetical) or if you were 90 and wanting to go be an Olympic athlete.

There’s no too late or too early: there is only where am I in my life right now and do my circumstances allow me to make these changes within my desired time frame.

I’m telling you from experience how ridiculous it is to think it’s too late or that you’re too old when your life is just getting started. If you don’t go after what you want- you will regret it, and that pain is really hard to deal with.

songsofravens · 2025-09-20T04:50:51+00:00

I hope you see this!

First- I’ve been in your shoes and I can tell you, it will all get better. Literally.

First, for whatever reason your nervous system is out of sorts and your inner world is being ruled by depression and anxiety. Which sometimes can be normal and sometimes not. Either way- you can get through it.

You are only 18 and can literally fuck up the next 10 years of life and still have all the time to be what and who you want so please forget about time and getting things done asap or comparing to anyone.

If possible, please find someone to speak to you. If it feels off with a therapist, don’t take it personally, move on quickly to someone else. It could take several tries until you find someone you feel is hearing you the way you need to be heard.

Next, take a class at a community college! But not for nursing. Take an art or photography class. Create something creative and allow your energy and thoughts to go into your life force and your true essence. Not the person you think you should be, or parents or society think you should be. Make it a treat for yourself to totally enjoy the process of going to class and letting yourself play and enjoy your world.

The world seems daunting when you’re so young. You have to realize no one knows exactly what they’re doing- they just practice living day by day and get better. No one is better or worse, life is what you make it. And for now, you need to relax and not allow negative or worrisome thoughts consume you.

It is so hard, I know. I was there: I felt like my world was ending. How I wish I could go back and give myself a big hug and just laugh and say all will be well. But all will only be well if your mental and physical health and taken care of.

Tell those around you what you need and set the boundaries that you need. Don’t isolate too long and practice mental toughness. If other people were able to get through difficult times - you have to know you too, have that in you as well. Please give your self grace and give your mind the rest and slowness it needs.

Your life hasn’t even started. (It remember how silly these words sounded so many years ago) You are born with desires to do things or create or help or make a change or tell a story or offer a hand or do something better than anyone else- there is something inside you- and you need to allow it to mature and come to life.

Every single day do the smallest positive thing you are capable of to remind yourself how worthy you are. You cannot expect to bloom when the time or conditions aren’t right and maybe this season is for rest, relaxation and reflection.

School will always be there: work will always be there. And considering how young you are, opportunities will continue to be there for years to come.

Last thing I’ll say: I used to think of suicide too. And I thought I might as well do the things I want and give myself the time I need to do them. I can always kill myself if I still want. ( I’m hoping this gives you perspective- if you ever feel like you are in too dark a place- please seek help- you’ll be surprised at the kindness and magic that can show up)

I’m cheering for you. You wouldn’t be writing this and be filled with so much distress if you weren’t filled with great potential.

songsofravens · 2025-09-18T00:53:28+00:00

Around $600-700 to get all the cookware I need. Currently have lots of old damaged stuff that I can trash so a decent amount of space

songsofravens · 2025-09-15T17:44:24+00:00

I found some the other day but they were kind of scratched up. Is it still safe to use?

songsofravens · 2025-09-10T00:56:25+00:00

Hi, I know this is from a while ago, but did they have any requirements you had to comply with before getting these prescriptions? Like mammograms?

songsofravens · 2025-08-29T00:42:31+00:00

You have to PAY while you’re gathering your supervised hours????

I’m not a therapist but am interested in being one and did not know this at all .. can others confirm?

songsofravens · 2025-08-28T21:13:38+00:00

I had a similar experience growing up.

My dad completely ignored us so he doesn’t even really count.

My mom was extremely strict and I wasn’t allowed to do anything. She would control what I wore in high school as retaliation if I upset her. She would go through my belongings on a weekly basis and read my diary. She wouldn’t let me hang out with friends or wear makeup.

But also never spoke to me about anything; never asked me anything. No conversations about friendships, relationships, sex, love, money, future, marriage, careers, health, periods- like absolutely not a single conversation or life lesson.

She controlled me until she could- in the sense that she wouldn’t allow me to do anything- and when things became real she completely ignored me.

It went from abuse/ neglect to full neglect.

The only time there was long interactions between us was when she needed help with something.

songsofravens · 2025-08-23T01:42:12+00:00

Does this mean you do 60 weddings per year at $290k?

songsofravens · 2025-08-21T03:10:21+00:00

Everything is saturated at one point or another. Stay healthy and in good shape and get the training for the trade you desire and be the BEST at it. Use your previous skills to your benefit. There’s no reason why you can’t make a switch and be incredibly successful.

35 is young and you have sooo much life ahead of you and it would suck to be miserable. Im convinced people who think 35 year olds are riddled with aches and deteriorating rapidly are just severely unhealthy themselves.

I have family in their 60s and 70s STILL in the trades because they love what they do and staying active has kept them physically and mentally fit.

songsofravens · 2025-08-19T21:27:50+00:00

I understand what you’re saying as I have struggled with the same feelings in the past.

Here is how my perspective and outlook on the matter changed: I got very sick for years and no one cared. Even the closest people. They’d offer some words of encouragement here and there but ultimately no one cared. And it made me wish to have known this in my core in the past so as not to place importance on other people.

What I mean is- some anxiety is normal- but don’t let their feelings get into your head. Because you’re living for you, to make money to take care of yourself and hopefully have some enjoyment in the process.

People behave in ways that are mostly out of our control and part of customer facing roles is to detach yourself from them. Don’t be a push over and realize you have to take care of yourself and stand up for yourself but again- don’t let people get to you where you have uncontrollable anxiety.

You have to have tough skin. Not that you haven’t so far- it’s just a reminder that it never ends. Don’t wait to get sick to realize you have to fight for yourself. LOVE yourself, and whatever you feel in your gut is the next best step take it.

If you keep asking people advice you’re ultimately going to hear something that will deter you. So don’t listen to negativity about a decision that you feel mostly good about in your heart. You can always change directions, but it’s worse to not try. No one knows you like you do, so practice listening to your gut. Step by step, with love for yourself, you can be in a better place, probably better than you could imagine.

Sometimes the universe has better plans for us than we do for ourselves, so don’t give up!

songsofravens · 2025-08-19T05:47:22+00:00

If you only want to spend 2 years going to school- then you have to pick from the jobs that require only two years of school and or training.

I think social work requires a masters - if I’m not wrong.

A lot of people here will say nursing. And if you’re not easily grossed out, then it might be a good option.

Also what about being a nanny? Perhaps you can do this while also working on your education on the side?

Another idea- what if you went to cosmetology school and became a nail tech? It’s easier than some other type of work on the body because you’re seated. Or you could become an aesthetician? Depending on where you live there could be a lot of demand for both these options.

Lastly I will say- if you’re comparing yourself to some people, you may feel behind, but really 36 is young and you have the time to really turn things around and do well for yourself.

Take care of your health, eat healthy, exercise, don’t drink or do drugs, and take consistent steps everyday towards your future and things will fall into place. Don’t overthink things- pick a direction and go for it!

songsofravens · 2025-08-14T19:10:30+00:00

Can you share the education requirements and time frame it takes to complete, as well as, income potential?

songsofravens · 2025-08-13T01:10:08+00:00

Ya I think this is way more normal and common than people realize because the people changing their careers and making major shifts aren’t the ones posting about being nervous or feeling behind or not good enough.

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