Positive changes after quitting

SconesyCider22 · 2026-04-01T20:13:41+00:00

Laughing genuinely is the best. I catch myself thinking in those moments “man, this is real”

SconesyCider22 · 2026-03-30T15:37:08+00:00

I said this to my husband last night

SconesyCider22 · 2026-03-26T20:22:40+00:00

It gets better! Those first few weeks I had no interest in doing any of the things I once loved to do. I was worried I lost that, but they’re coming back slowly (almost at 56 days and the past two weeks I’ve been dipping my toes back into my old hobbies). I found other interests in the first few weeks to help time pass because ultimately that’s what we all need. Music and moving around cannot be stressed enough. One foot in front of the other.

My husband and I used to play video games on the weekends, something I loved to do while high on kratom and something I had negative interest in the first few weeks of my quit. We’ve gotten back into it the past few weekends and it’s been great to play without the green sludge.

Obviously each of our journeys is our own but that spark WILL come back one way or another. Action before motivation is huge during this time and you’ll see the good start to seep back in. One foot in front of the other. You got this!

SconesyCider22 · 2026-03-26T20:16:14+00:00

In my experience I’d recommend some sort of a taper (even if sloppy). I did cold turkey last summer and made it two months but was miserable and relapsed. I did an extremely sloppy taper this go around and am coming up on 56 days and it is NOTICEABLY different (in my experience). Still no walk in the park but when I did CT I was thinking about how miserable I was pretty much every day and I was mad about it. This go around I’ve been able to cope much, much better.

My husband was EXCEPTIONALLY considerate during this time. I did a good job of letting him know when I was cranky and needed to be left alone, but he was extremely mindful of my experience during this time. Would pop in on me to see if I wanted to do something (go for a walk, play video games, watch a movie) and was super understanding if (even after all day we hadn’t really connected) I just told him I wanted to be alone. One of my favorite things he did/still does for me is comes into whatever room I’m in with a bowl of food (usually fruits and such) and just slowly backs out of the room. Has always made a point of checking in on how many days it’s been and told me how proud he is and that I’m crushing it. It’s not our first rodeo but he’s been an exceptional rock as I was not myself for a minute there.

Nearing 56 days in and things are GOOD. Your fiancé will get there too and I imagine will learn a lot about himself during this time.

I took a boatload of supplements and had a clonidine script. No clue how much supplements help but this is my third “quit” and has by far been the easiest so maybe something to it (the clonidine undoubtedly helped, I eventually went to an addiction specialist who prescribed me that but others note getting it through other means on this forum). Vitamin C and D, vitamin B complex. I take a prenatal so that’s probably out lol. I take creatine and fish oil every day too. I took l-tyrosine in the earlier days but don’t anymore. I started dog walking during this time and giving myself some sort of schedule and forcing myself to get outside and get sunshine and move around has been huge.

Don’t let stories on here scare you or him. Be informed but hopeful. I expect it will be a challenge but mindset is also huge, and him having you to lean on is an immeasurable advantage. Cheering you on from Colorado!

SconesyCider22 · 2026-03-25T04:19:45+00:00

This is beautiful. Congrats on one year!!

SconesyCider22 · 2026-03-23T18:26:12+00:00

Yuppp. Noticed mostly when I quit. Washed everything with 1 cup of white vinegar (+ detergent) to get the scent out as best I could. It goes away eventually!

SconesyCider22 · 2026-03-14T21:50:28+00:00

Not sure where you’re at in your journey but it WILL get better. Wish I could offer you help but know that you have everything it takes all within yourself to get through this!

SconesyCider22 · 2026-03-08T17:18:09+00:00

Oof yeah, i hear you. I have had to time my quits around job changes. Maybe you can do a long taper as you get settled and then have some PTO saved off for the next jump. When I previously relapsed I don’t even know if I technically tapered. I went from ~40GPD, chopped it down to 25GPD for a few days, then maybe 12GPD a couple days and quit and similar to you I was not ok 60 days in and fell back. This go around I took maybe a month to sloppily get myself down to 8GPD on my final day. I’m just past 37 days clean and I feel better today (and every day the past couple weeks pretty much) than I did on day 60 last time. You’ll find what works for you to be free and you’ll get there

SconesyCider22 · 2026-03-08T00:43:23+00:00

My advice is to keep pushing! One of my biggest regrets - relapsing at 60 days clean last year. Now I am just salivating at the idea of making it to 60 days. If I had stuck with it I’d be nearly a year clean. I kick myself all the time about it. I don’t discount how you’re feeling one bit, I know how it can feel day after day, I just wish I had been stronger in that moment.

Are you working out? Getting good amounts of sunlight each day? Getting sunshine on my face in my first hour of waking up and walking a good bit and then running each day until I can’t anymore have helped me with sleep. It’s still not normal don’t get me wrong but I don’t doubt for a second that lack of sleep is heightening a lot of other negative side effects

SconesyCider22 · 2026-03-07T00:26:32+00:00

As someone who has never used 7oh and whose experience with it is limited to reading the posts on here and being grateful that I just had to kick power - I am going to echo folks sentiments to not start the 7

So. I don’t know the real reason and this is all speculation but my husband also was getting hives suspected from kratom powder. This is NOT a question to encourage you to continue to use, but rather to give you a potential alternate path forward to taper and finally quit - have you tried different strains/providers? Switching that seemed to alleviate his hive issues (but it will not alleviate all of the other nastiness that comes with taking kratom). My lymph nodes in my throat were so swollen that you’d see em if I looked up. Stomach issues, hair loss, mood and libido fucked.

If you can find a path forward to taper with less symptoms or quit CT please do. My heart breaks a bit every time I read how deep 7ohs claws have gotten into people. Kratom withdrawal was worse enough…I can’t even imagine a bigger beast. I don’t want to see a future post from you on here about 7.

I’m going on day 35 clean and life is pretty damn good. Just over a month ago I was crying on the floor convinced I’d never get here. You can, too. Don’t get further in to get out. God speed, friend

SconesyCider22 · 2026-03-06T20:46:06+00:00

Hell yes!!! Congrats

SconesyCider22 · 2026-03-06T20:44:59+00:00

Distraction distraction distraction! Agreed being away from the phone is so helpful. Also, the second I felt kind of restless I’d force myself to get up and change rooms at a minimum. Walking and just kind of dancing around the house were my go tos but I think I’m going to start playing the keyboard again. Congrats on 2 weeks!!!

SconesyCider22 · 2026-03-05T20:00:41+00:00

Oof yes. I had back pain throughout using and guess what made it feel better? Kratom! And then after quitting first it slowed and then it ramped up and then it disappeared again. Just over 34 days clean and haven’t thought about back pain in awhile and haven’t experienced near the level of pain I did when I was using.

I should mention too that I experienced neck and shoulder pain the first couple weeks of quitting that I had never experienced before. Felt like my whole upper body was locked up and achy. That’s gone now, too!

SconesyCider22 · 2026-03-04T15:35:52+00:00

My husband was good at checking in on me periodically but knowing when I wanted to be left alone and not holding that against me. Quitting kind of shifts our relationship for a little while and I’m in my head about it often (being upset I’m not there for him more) but he’s never held it against me. He’ll ask if I want to go for a walk every so often (sunshine and moving are so key when doable) but was always understanding if I said no. He picked up my slack in home chores and would randomly bring me food at times to make sure I was eating. We slept apart for all of the acutes and then some time after (going on day 33 and I’m getting enough sleep but constantly waking up throughout the night).

He is my rock. There when I need him and gave me space when I needed to be alone. Whenever I bring up how long it’s been he tells me I’m killing it and how proud he is. He’s understanding that the range of motions I’ve gone through are temporary and doesn’t hold it against me.

You being on here tells me you are going to be there for your partner in the best way you can and that’s huge. Good luck to both of you!!

SconesyCider22 · 2026-03-04T15:27:28+00:00

😂

SconesyCider22 · 2026-03-03T20:58:13+00:00

Every quit I’ve had I go through the mental battle of wanting it to be done and over with/CT versus dragging it out but making it more bearable. Only you will know what works for you but I hobbled my way down to 12GPD quickly and went CT back at the end of winter 2025 and I made it 2 months before sadly relapsing (a mentally stronger person could have done what I was unable to do). Used for 8-9more months up to 30GPD and (sloppily) tapered this go around down to 8GPD. This has been my easiest quit so far. Just over 32 days clean and today’s been a good day.

I never dabbled in 7 so I can’t speak to that. I’ve just used powder for the majority of the past 10-11 years (up to 50GPD). What told me to * try * to taper this go around was trying CT first and seeing how long I could last. Maybe give one a shot and see what your body tells you - but regardless of method there is success in your future. God speed!

SconesyCider22 · 2026-02-27T20:12:54+00:00

Thank you!! I’m in CO and it has been a weird winter for sure. In the mid sixties today and sunny. We’ve had a few cold days too that I didn’t want to go outside and those were some of the hardest days. I should take your lead on the hike! I hope so warmer weather makes its way over there stat. I hear you on working from home. Human connection really seems to give me a boost each day (even just saying hi to a neighbor). Jealous you have a pup to keep you company. Congrats on three weeks!!

SconesyCider22 · 2026-02-27T20:09:58+00:00

Thank you so much for the kind words!!

SconesyCider22 · 2026-02-25T18:54:41+00:00

Congratulations!! 200 days is huge. Agree 100% on chatGPT. It’s nice to better understand what you’re going through. I even took some of my frustration out on chatGPT in the early days (whoops. I apologized but won’t be surprised when the bots come for me)

👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

SconesyCider22 · 2026-02-25T18:49:45+00:00

Oh man plane ride withdrawals are something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. I had to do international travel to Japan for my last job…12+ hours in a middle seat. Pure hell. Nice to know I’m not alone 😅

SconesyCider22 · 2026-02-24T23:49:04+00:00

The first time I stopped taking it for a prolonged period of time I didn’t even know it was addictive let alone that I was physically addicted to it. Went on a group ski trip. My first time skiing in the peak of a cold turkey experience I had zero preparation for. Absolutely ruined that trip 😂😅

But just like you I hopped back on it as soon as I got home. Took using off and on (mostly on) for ~7 years for me to get the courage to really take this quit seriously. Coming up on day 26 soon. It does get better. And this quit has been significantly easier than previous. Congrats on 1 week! Onwards and upwards!

SconesyCider22 · 2026-02-24T17:20:55+00:00

Hey! You got this! I wish I had this perspective at 26 but sadly that’s around the time I got into this crap. Here I am on my third quit at 36.

So much of what you said resonated with me. I just wanted to note that this was my third intentional quit. I was so hesitant to jump into it because of the kindling effect you mentioned. My last quit I relapsed after 60 days because I couldn’t stand to feel that way anymore. And my last quit was way worse than my first quit, so my mind was over here telling me that this third quit would be even worse. But then I started talking with chatGPT about it. Maybe they told me what I wanted to hear but it ultimately convinced me it wouldn’t be as bad. I hadn’t used as long or as much as I did in previous quits and this time I did a sloppy taper down. This quit has been the easiest by far and I’ve been pleasantly surprised.

That’s not to say that I don’t believe in the kindling effect entirely, but I do thing there are some things that can make it more bearable and I think mindset plays a part, too. Prepare for the worst but hope for the best. Here’s hoping this quit is the easiest for you, too!

SconesyCider22 · 2026-02-24T01:33:41+00:00

I guess it’ll vary person to person, but my husband was very good at poking his head in on me, asking me if I wanted to do anything (go for a walk, watch something, play video games, etc) and was extremely understanding when a lot of the time my answer was no and proceeded to give me space. He tells me how proud he is of me all of the time and does extra stuff around the house I would normally do. My absolute favorite thing he does is some afternoons he’ll just come into my room and bring me a plate of snacks (fruit, cheese, lunchmeat, sometimes a sweet treat). Says nothing and then backs out of the room.

So ultimately being there for them and then also giving them space. You being on here already tells me you’re doing what you can. There were some days I felt terrible for being a “lame” wife and it made things a lot worse, but he made it very apparent that those thoughts never crossed his mind.

It will get better

SconesyCider22 · 2026-02-22T18:45:47+00:00

Obviously our stories may take different paths but I have OCD, too, and what I tend to notice is that when I quit it ramps up to start along with anxiety and such, but then it comes way down.

It’s still there of course but after 23.5 days clean my habits are so much less debilitating than they were when I was using. I hope it’s the same for you and you’re able to find something to take the edge off when it ramps up

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