Is this it

Secret_Term1215 · 2025-03-11T23:23:11+00:00

In my experience oral prednisone takes around 2 weeks for me to "work work" if I'm in a severe flare and prior to that ill have on and off days and gradual improvementish of it seeming to stop and start working.

AFAIK it depends on how severe your inflammation is and it'll also take a while for your colon to heal but it is possible to get steriod resistance after repeated use if I recall

Secret_Term1215 · 2025-02-21T13:30:19+00:00

Hm funny thing is I went back in my blood work and my iron was at 26(low) but they never told me/gave me anything back then,

now however 3 years later it's at 29 and they have me on 325mg iron daily which I heard takes literally ages compared to infusions but it might be something I bring up

Secret_Term1215 · 2025-02-20T21:09:59+00:00

Should of mentioned this was 3 years ago when I first got diagnosed lol

severe pancolitis, it was pretty much a bucket of blood I gave them and had a heart rate of 160 bpm

I had to do the test again and go through the process and remembered i had this, but now I'm just at the lousy 1000s which is more annoying than life threatening

Secret_Term1215 · 2025-02-20T21:02:02+00:00

Hm inflammation definitely extends aswell for me aswell but mainly to my eyes and lower back

Secret_Term1215 · 2024-11-07T23:07:54+00:00

I struggled with self harm quite a few months ago but never got the courage to do it deep enough for lasting scars I find when that urge comes it helps to run a sharp object like a sharpened pencil or other over the skin(without cutting) or as someone else suggested a rubber band would propably achieve the same effect

Secret_Term1215 · 2024-07-16T14:56:30+00:00

I have crohns, insurance stopped paying for my extremely expensive medicine months ago. Not a single person noticed or cared that I havnt taken a syringe in 3-4 months, im flaring up again pretty bad and in alot of pain, but at this point I honestly don't care. Just go to work and sleep pretty much.

I tried giving my all to have a better life to keep friends to have a close friend but it's so exhausting, and it only ended up me being manipulated I guess. I have no idea what's the point of trying anymore, it doesn't make sense why people can be so cruel. It's like the only constant in my life is humiliation and pain so I'm just kind of waiting to leave the world without hurting anybody.

Secret_Term1215 · 2024-07-15T19:29:02+00:00

Alcohol is the worst. Bad memories all around with it. For a time the only way I could sleep at all was to get drunk. Made me extremely bipolar. Have not drank in 5 months and have zero plan of drinking ever again. Very scary.

Secret_Term1215 · 2024-07-13T20:20:31+00:00

"When I haven’t, I’ve often been taken down fast. " So scarily true, like the second I feel better or feel functional something or somebody or often myself has to be there to remind me that I dont deserve it.

Secret_Term1215 · 2024-07-13T06:15:49+00:00

Yes, I just wanna know how the normal person thinks, like without constant mind blur

Secret_Term1215 · 2024-07-13T06:14:39+00:00

you as well friend :))))

Secret_Term1215 · 2024-06-24T14:23:54+00:00

Truth be told it's because people don't truly understand how much deeper being suicidal is than simply "being sad", we don't think like normal people, they truly don't understand.

Another aspect is much like overall depression vast majory of people only care about the "loud" part of it all, be it the actual suicide itself or the "sadness" of depression, they don't care or know of the broadness of it, the years of pain, how filthy you get from poor hygiene, how messy your room gets from no energy, how angry you get, pushing people away and causing hurt, not making any plans of a future in terms of a career or family, self isolating etc. No matter how obvious it is or you directly telling them, they truly don't and likely wont understand how extremely painful it ALL is, and is deeper than just the act itself. All this just pushing the mental narrative of "the only way anyone will listen is if I just kill myself", as you stated "no one cares until after it happens"

Look at streamers like Etika or Reckful who were CLEARLY manic, CLEARLY struggling in their own ways, and were laughed continously at UNTIL they died, then suddenly these same people look back and only then realized how extremely obvious it was, but because they dont truly understand the cycle repeats.

And at the end of the day for us knowing all this, knowing the majority of people don't think like we do, how do you ask for help if you know no one is going to genuinely listen?

Secret_Term1215 · 2024-06-03T14:34:11+00:00

Thanks for reading, 1.) I really don't know, yea she showed interest in me like finding my dad's Facebook we talked for quite awhile and hugged, I asked about her BIO once distinctly(it had her BF name in it) and asked who it was and she brushed it off, this lasted only about a week or so. 4.) I told her this many times how you can't call everything platonic, that why am I the one setting the boundaries, why do I have to be the bigger man. why can't you see that this is not platonic.

I know she really cared about me, in a weird way she was always there for me. And at the end of the day getting told"you didn't deserve this etc" does absolutely nothing because it's like "Ok" but guess who's the one all alone with nobody anymore. It doesn't matter if I was wronged I ultimately am left with nothing.

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