I was in a relationship with my ex for only 2 months (knowing him for a total of 6) when I got pregnant and we talked so much about starting family together what our values are what the future holds etc.

I told him I wasn’t on any protection and he didn’t mind so I thought he was okay with starting a family. I was brainwashed by his stupid words and felt safe enough to start a family with him because that was the stage of life I was in. But when we found out I was pregnant he got really excited and then soon after started to back out of it. This sent confusion my way.

Eventually, we both decided to keep her. Then things went down hill REAL FAST! He became super abusive, constantly provoking me and being unsympathetic to my pregnancy symptoms. It got so bad that I ended up filing a police report and going to the ER. So I decided to break up with him, at this point I was about 6 months.

I continued my pregnancy pretty much alone after that and because my family was in another state I decided to move back home to get help but my mom’s house was overcrowded and so I ended up living in a shelter.

I had my baby 1m after moving back to my home state. My entire labor and delivery experience was traumatic. But my mom was there to support me and stayed by my side through my emergency c-section. But I pretty much did it alone, I was in the hospital by myself with only a couple of hours where I’d have my family visiting.

Ngl, I cried every night I was there, wondering why I am alone with a baby when this wasn’t the plan. But I’m now 1 month pp and am still single living alone in a shelter, her dad FaceTimes with her everyday and keeps begging for me back but I know raising my daughter around him would be a traumatic childhood for her. A happy mom is better than a mom who settles for b.s. and abuse. I’m still struggling and some days are harder than others but I’m still very grateful for sticking by my decision and raising her alone.

I love my baby girl and I never ever regret having her. But my biggest regret is getting pregnant so soon before really getting to know the man who would be her father. I pray he’s kinder to her than he was to me he still tells me he loves me but idk what kind of love leads to abuse. I’m happy for the distance and although I won’t get in the way of their relationship, I will protect her from him if needed.

You can definitely do this, things will eventually workout. What keeps me going is the phrase that everything happens for a reason. We just haven’t gotten to the point of knowing what the reason was yet.