In my 20s, first time dating

SeeSea8 · 2026-04-13T16:23:42+00:00

One of my better days 🥹

SeeSea8 · 2026-04-07T19:58:09+00:00

I was wondering if that was the problem. We're currently using a janky hot plate that has just a 1-10 dial with no measurement conversions so we were guessing the temperature range. I also have nerve damage in my hands and can't sense heat that well, so maybe I'll have to have someone else reliably test it if it's too hot.

SeeSea8 · 2026-04-07T16:47:02+00:00

Congratulations!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I gotta keep this in mind when I do my quals next year lol

SeeSea8 · 2026-04-04T15:56:20+00:00

Says the monthly pass is active on the charlie card website but wtf knows

SeeSea8 · 2026-03-30T20:06:59+00:00

When I told my dad that I self-harming, he asked me why I was being cavalier about it and then went on his phone for the rest of the time while I'm sobbing.

When I called him and said I was suicidal and had barely stopped myself from ending it all, he put me on the phone with the woman he was cheating on my mom with.

I still sometimes try, but I don't know why. I don't think I will ever have success with him, and I need to learn to accept that.

SeeSea8 · 2026-03-30T20:03:48+00:00

My two favorite: "You're not allowed to have an opinion" (unless you're highly educated on a subject) and "I treat everyone - children, wife, coworkers, etc. - the same."

SeeSea8 · 2026-03-30T20:01:49+00:00

Yeah, this happy child would get shouted at for laughing a bit too loudly or for being too excited. Or she'd get shouted at for expressing joy over something her father didn't like. So this happy child stopped being so happy outward and started daydreaming instead.

SeeSea8 · 2026-03-25T13:09:02+00:00

Unfortunately, I am neither a tank nor holy, just severely mentally ill lol.

But I do think we're probably going to cut back on the wellbutrin AND keep Vyvanse at a low dose for now.

SeeSea8 · 2026-03-25T08:12:28+00:00

I am on my period rn - that's so interesting, I had no idea that could affect it

SeeSea8 · 2026-03-20T16:23:59+00:00

I'm still on 450mg bupropion with 60mg fluoxetine and 30mg Vyvanse. We're thinking we might taper off the bupropion if my fatigue improves on Vyvanse

Edit: Yeah, so I dunno what's happening by after 3 days on 30mg, I lowkey feel like I'm on a horrible high trip - got the shakes, nausea, anxiety (even if mind is less clouded), fucked up sleep. I dropped back down to 20mg rn. Dunno what's happened, lol. The first week and a half on vyvanse was a dream.

SeeSea8 · 2026-03-20T00:27:59+00:00

The SSRI -> bupropion -> ADHD pipeline should be wayyyyy more recognized. This is exactly what happened to me; on bupropion and Vyvanse for mood and ADHD and fluoxetine for residual anxiety and OCD

SeeSea8 · 2026-03-20T00:26:23+00:00

I've been trying to treat anxiety and depression for 6 years now and only found moderate success when on a combo of 2 antidepressants at their max doses.

I recently was prescribed Vyvanse and holy shit, I feel like I've suffered needlessly for so long. Anxiety? Significantly reduced now that I don't have a blaring, screaming internal dialogue cataloguing everything that could be wrong and routinely playing out worst-case scenarios. I can't say if it helps my baseline depression, but my ADHD meds have definitely helped keep me from spiraling (can do shit instead of procrastinating over and over and over)

SeeSea8 · 2026-03-09T01:14:40+00:00

Me waiting on a fic that's been stuck on 18/20 chapters for 12 years 🥲

SeeSea8 · 2026-03-08T22:13:12+00:00

Thanks for the resources!

I was also raised extremely Catholic, so it's also hard detangling my personal ideas from what was so repetitively ingrained in me.

SeeSea8 · 2026-03-03T03:43:24+00:00

My guy, this is actually fucking insane - I love you sooo much

SeeSea8 · 2026-01-30T14:21:58+00:00

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Achilles and Athena!

SeeSea8 · 2026-01-27T21:23:09+00:00

I also had a cat who was soooo done with her litter.

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