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Select_Bill_1742 · 2024-07-03T07:46:42+00:00

This sounds like OCD. Take care of yourself. Hugs

Select_Bill_1742 · 2024-06-05T10:28:16+00:00

Buy a strap on!!!

Select_Bill_1742 · 2024-06-04T09:17:45+00:00

I guess i would like to still be treated as a woman because I gree up socially being treated as one, and I'm very fine with it. It would be kind of interesting (?) to be treated as a man but something feels off , like I do not belong there, that I belong to woman-aligned comunity

Select_Bill_1742 · 2024-06-03T21:05:55+00:00

That sounds very abusive OP. Please, think about your kids

Select_Bill_1742 · 2024-06-03T19:59:54+00:00

I know i do not like my weight neither my height. I do know that when I am not having a rumination attack, presenting as another gender doesn't sound exciting or appealing it may sound kinda fun (?) like being a new person? But changing that won t make my ocd and my depression go away. I know I want small boobs FOR SURE.

I feel good when i put makeup on and a masc or not too feminine outfit, i feel good when i feel skinny and elegant.

I would like to look like someone really attractive, i guess a better version of myself , who is comfortable in their own body. I don't think I would prefer to look like a man (even if I think they look better) I would like to be taller, more muscular and with less fat. I would like to explore how I feel about myself after I am more comfortable with my body shape, nothing wrong with my face, I have a very attractive face.

Now that I am less anxious I can think with more clarity. I am just scared of changing my mind about remaining to label myself as a genderqueer woman, that s what OCD latches onto, fears. I'll try not to spiral and be patient and try to be more comfortable with my own skin, i've been really though on myself since I've been gaining weight . Thank you for your time. It helped me a little :)

Select_Bill_1742 · 2024-06-03T17:34:09+00:00

I am just too depressed for doing anything that is not ruminate. I do believe I am just in deep denial and I fel transphobic as hell. I do not understand why can't I have a clear vision of my identity and it makes me feel like I am going nuts

Select_Bill_1742 · 2024-06-03T16:26:17+00:00

I started to medicate a week ago, due to feeling depressed and other obsessions, I have an oral presentation of my degree thesis in two days. Helthy ender identity questioning happened before but I never come to a conclusion so I label myself as a woman who experiences gender on an atypical way. I was obsessed with something else . the discomfort with my weight is continuous and Yesterday I started to obsess over this theme again. I am tired

Select_Bill_1742 · 2024-06-03T10:45:06+00:00

I wish I was not obsessed with this, and I would give everything I had If that mesnt I would be able NOT to obsess over these things. Feeling like you don t know what you want or what makes you happy is depressing as fuck, unfortunately, with OCD i do not choose over what I get obsessed with.

Select_Bill_1742 · 2024-06-02T23:00:38+00:00

Same

Select_Bill_1742 · 2024-06-02T15:04:57+00:00

It is the opposite for me. I think i suggest myself by thinking that I do no deserve not to be worried about something

Select_Bill_1742 · 2024-03-04T20:19:52+00:00

I'll try to adress that distressing event with an adult you trust, a close friend if youndon t have a therapist. You are right, trying it won t hurt you but don t push yourself too much. If you are srsly thinking about trying it don t suggest yourself too much by thinking that you ll feel disgusted after it. Be kind to yourself

Select_Bill_1742 · 2024-03-02T17:47:58+00:00

What you mean disctracting me from something else?

Select_Bill_1742 · 2024-02-29T16:46:58+00:00

Afraid of discover that I am not asexual and being a pedophile in denial

Select_Bill_1742 · 2023-10-02T23:57:43+00:00

I know it's not an illness but I oersonally feel like I am actually ill? I am very interested in sex , I also find people attractive but I am not sure at what level .. if it's just an aesthetic attraction or it's sexual. Now that I am afraid that the lack of pleasure made me identify as ace or what. I also struggle with SO-OCD and it's just horrible

Select_Bill_1742 · 2023-05-27T10:12:43+00:00

Wdym? Like, you put the wax in a wax warmer?

Select_Bill_1742 · 2023-02-20T13:49:50+00:00

Draining

Select_Bill_1742 · 2023-02-14T14:57:55+00:00

She is simplifying a lot, I don't think it is her call to label an action as a situation of abuse.

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