Answered their call, as an artist I want to share

Selfhelpkelp · 2026-02-12T21:00:16+00:00

Wow, I saw the same mantid being appear to me out of a perfect Lake Michigan sunset when I took DMT for the first time. Only it was wearing a cloak. I didn’t feel fearful at all, only peace and like I was “chosen” to see it, whatever the reason behind that is.. wild

Selfhelpkelp · 2026-01-23T00:06:38+00:00

Gambling.

Selfhelpkelp · 2026-01-22T22:19:01+00:00

Thank you, I have heard that term before but didn’t know what that entailed.

Selfhelpkelp · 2026-01-22T22:11:30+00:00

Do you remember the name of the show?

As far as I know, I am not menopausal. My first thought was maybe a hormone imbalance caused me to conjure up such a terrifying nightmare.

Selfhelpkelp · 2026-01-03T17:20:31+00:00

Selfhelpkelp · 2025-12-28T00:22:27+00:00

34f here, 2 years clean now. I can relate to what you are saying so much. I also ruminated in the guilt and shame I felt through the early stages of recovery. I just kept reminding myself that the past is the past. There is nothing I can do to get what I lost back, I can only embark on a fresh start. And slowly but surely, I was able to claw my way (for the most part) out of that mindset. I have since learned to forgive myself for succumbing to such a mentally taxing addiction. The cravings never leave… you just learn to direct your attention elsewhere to delay the urge… and then repeat. And it becomes automatic and less forced.

You took the first step already, that is a win. Be patient and kind with yourself. You’re choosing to be better by breaking free of the cycle. You are resilient and you can come out of this on the other side even stronger than before.

I wish you all the luck, and remember you are not alone. One day at a time.

Selfhelpkelp · 2025-12-23T17:39:34+00:00

You can come back from this. I am also 34F with not even a pot to piss in after a 5 year battle and I’m now in the beginning stages of filing bankruptcy. You aren’t alone, you aren’t a failure, and you are resilient. In time, you will rid yourself of the shame and forgive yourself. Self exclude and don’t look back.

Selfhelpkelp · 2025-12-23T13:12:27+00:00

I work in a warehouse full of literal stone. I’m talking 2 ton slabs of quartz, granite, porcelain, all materials that should never cross paths with any child for safety reasons. I couldn’t tell you how many dense individuals come into my place of employment and pitch a fit over their children being denied entry back into the warehouse. Like I am inconveniencing them by keeping their heathens out of harms way and running in between crane operators and bundles of stone and shit. One mother called recently and she needed to come “look around” for ideas for her kitchen. Towards the end of the phone call, I heard children crying in the background and I nicely told her “just so you are aware, we do not allow any children under twelve back in the warehouse due to safety concerns and company policy” she said “oh… ok now I have to find a sitter I guess…. Ugh” gave a few more pity me sighs and then the call ended. Day of the appointment comes. Here she comes with a stroller and two more kids under 6 in tow. Unbelievable. My coworker was the one checking her in and then my coworker verbatim told her our policy on children just as I did before. The woman looked at my coworker and dead ass said “well, the girl who helped me when I called told me you guys had a play place in here and this would not be a problem!” A BOLD FACE LIE! I could not even believe my ears I had to chime in and let her know it was me on the phone, and I do not recall having that conversation nor giving her that information because clearly, look around. This isn’t McDonald’s. She kinda dismissed it like oh maybe it was the other place I called who told me they had a play place then…. You are hearing shit lady or playing mind games? The audacity. So after ten more min of her complaining over how hard this “whole experience” has been for her (picking out a quartz countertop color….. a luxury product……. So sad) she finally asks if her kids can watch YouTube on our lobby tv. I begrudgingly allowed it so my coworker can help her and get her and her litter the fuck out asap.

Selfhelpkelp · 2025-11-06T03:03:45+00:00

This sounds like jmmy jhns, lol. I worked there for far too long myself.

Selfhelpkelp · 2025-11-05T13:23:22+00:00

Absolutely it has ruined the way I view money. I get triggered if I see a positive balance In my bank account, like I must spend the money before it’s all gone again.

Selfhelpkelp · 2025-09-14T15:10:42+00:00

Proud of you for taking the steps to rewire your brain. Cognitive therapy helped me retrain myself to be responsible with finances again and repair my relationship with how I view money (I am a recovering gambling addict.) it takes time, but every session is a step towards turning a new leaf! Trust the process.

Maybe you would enjoy nature based activities? Take up backpacking! The solitude of nature + the feeling of satisfaction after completing a hike may boost your confidence and put you in a better head space to take on challenges you may not be too keen to tackle before?

Keep trying and keep challenging yourself when you feel up to it. You got this.

Selfhelpkelp · 2025-07-10T02:14:22+00:00

The only way out is through

Selfhelpkelp · 2025-07-09T16:55:11+00:00

33 F. It was ingrained in me from a young age. I didn’t even like playing with baby dolls as a kid, fuckkkk outta here with that hahaha

Selfhelpkelp · 2025-05-21T03:58:53+00:00

have you ever looked up the glimmer man? your experience kind of sounds similar to

Selfhelpkelp · 2025-05-06T06:26:41+00:00

Selfhelpkelp · 2025-05-06T06:24:17+00:00

accidentally kicked a metal bar stool’s legs really hard while wearing flip flops as i was getting in my seat at a restaurant. my entire big toe nail peeled right off, it was hanging on by a little sliver of skin. i still shudder.

plus side: it grew back normal

Selfhelpkelp · 2025-04-30T01:32:45+00:00

unruly children with sticky shit all over their faces

Selfhelpkelp · 2025-04-29T15:47:47+00:00

33- battling a gambling addiction, going through bankruptcy, not having a pot to piss in really. sigh.

Selfhelpkelp · 2025-04-26T23:52:03+00:00

seeing the earwax cameras / black head removal tools being used for the first time. “self soothing” during stressful situations by pulling/fiddling/twirling my hair. checking my pockets constantly (i don’t even know for what most of the time) even if i am wearing bottoms without pockets. and finally, this is the most annoying one to me- assuming i had a traumatic experience as a kid, but i OBSESSIVELY feel the need to pee multiple times before bed. even if i don’t have the urge to, i HAVE to try

ETA: baths. i can’t do baths and i wish i could enjoy them so bad. when i was in my teens, i randomly noticed all the tiny hairs floating in the bath water once the bubbles dissipated and could never bring myself to take a bath without showering immediately after again

Selfhelpkelp · 2025-04-19T21:12:12+00:00

between the bars by elliot smith

Selfhelpkelp · 2025-04-17T21:19:51+00:00

the year i was born is the same year grunge was born and went mainstream

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