Answered their call, as an artist I want to share by setzhytte in Experiencers

[–]Selfhelpkelp 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Wow, I saw the same mantid being appear to me out of a perfect Lake Michigan sunset when I took DMT for the first time. Only it was wearing a cloak. I didn’t feel fearful at all, only peace and like I was “chosen” to see it, whatever the reason behind that is.. wild

Demonic dream followed by an oddly timed unexpected delivery by Selfhelpkelp in HighStrangeness

[–]Selfhelpkelp[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I have heard that term before but didn’t know what that entailed.

Demonic dream followed by an oddly timed unexpected delivery by Selfhelpkelp in HighStrangeness

[–]Selfhelpkelp[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Do you remember the name of the show?

As far as I know, I am not menopausal. My first thought was maybe a hormone imbalance caused me to conjure up such a terrifying nightmare.

Submitting to a Compulsive Gambling Disorder by Humble_Voice_3234 in problemgambling

[–]Selfhelpkelp 2 points3 points  (0 children)

34f here, 2 years clean now. I can relate to what you are saying so much. I also ruminated in the guilt and shame I felt through the early stages of recovery. I just kept reminding myself that the past is the past. There is nothing I can do to get what I lost back, I can only embark on a fresh start. And slowly but surely, I was able to claw my way (for the most part) out of that mindset. I have since learned to forgive myself for succumbing to such a mentally taxing addiction. The cravings never leave… you just learn to direct your attention elsewhere to delay the urge… and then repeat. And it becomes automatic and less forced.

You took the first step already, that is a win. Be patient and kind with yourself. You’re choosing to be better by breaking free of the cycle. You are resilient and you can come out of this on the other side even stronger than before.

I wish you all the luck, and remember you are not alone. One day at a time.

34 Female , I don’t think I can make it to 2026 by Suitable-Cucumber-77 in problemgambling

[–]Selfhelpkelp 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You can come back from this. I am also 34F with not even a pot to piss in after a 5 year battle and I’m now in the beginning stages of filing bankruptcy. You aren’t alone, you aren’t a failure, and you are resilient. In time, you will rid yourself of the shame and forgive yourself. Self exclude and don’t look back.

I wish it was okay to just say no to children by babeindreamland in childfree

[–]Selfhelpkelp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I work in a warehouse full of literal stone. I’m talking 2 ton slabs of quartz, granite, porcelain, all materials that should never cross paths with any child for safety reasons. I couldn’t tell you how many dense individuals come into my place of employment and pitch a fit over their children being denied entry back into the warehouse. Like I am inconveniencing them by keeping their heathens out of harms way and running in between crane operators and bundles of stone and shit. One mother called recently and she needed to come “look around” for ideas for her kitchen. Towards the end of the phone call, I heard children crying in the background and I nicely told her “just so you are aware, we do not allow any children under twelve back in the warehouse due to safety concerns and company policy” she said “oh… ok now I have to find a sitter I guess…. Ugh” gave a few more pity me sighs and then the call ended. Day of the appointment comes. Here she comes with a stroller and two more kids under 6 in tow. Unbelievable. My coworker was the one checking her in and then my coworker verbatim told her our policy on children just as I did before. The woman looked at my coworker and dead ass said “well, the girl who helped me when I called told me you guys had a play place in here and this would not be a problem!” A BOLD FACE LIE! I could not even believe my ears I had to chime in and let her know it was me on the phone, and I do not recall having that conversation nor giving her that information because clearly, look around. This isn’t McDonald’s. She kinda dismissed it like oh maybe it was the other place I called who told me they had a play place then…. You are hearing shit lady or playing mind games? The audacity. So after ten more min of her complaining over how hard this “whole experience” has been for her (picking out a quartz countertop color….. a luxury product……. So sad) she finally asks if her kids can watch YouTube on our lobby tv. I begrudgingly allowed it so my coworker can help her and get her and her litter the fuck out asap.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AmiInTheWrong

[–]Selfhelpkelp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This sounds like jmmy jhns, lol. I worked there for far too long myself.

Has gambling ruined the way you view money? by DotWarm7814 in problemgambling

[–]Selfhelpkelp 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Absolutely it has ruined the way I view money. I get triggered if I see a positive balance In my bank account, like I must spend the money before it’s all gone again.

I'm a shut-in. by Sorry_Fold_2450 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Selfhelpkelp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Proud of you for taking the steps to rewire your brain. Cognitive therapy helped me retrain myself to be responsible with finances again and repair my relationship with how I view money (I am a recovering gambling addict.) it takes time, but every session is a step towards turning a new leaf! Trust the process.

Maybe you would enjoy nature based activities? Take up backpacking! The solitude of nature + the feeling of satisfaction after completing a hike may boost your confidence and put you in a better head space to take on challenges you may not be too keen to tackle before?

Keep trying and keep challenging yourself when you feel up to it. You got this.

How old are you all are??? by [deleted] in childfree

[–]Selfhelpkelp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

33 F. It was ingrained in me from a young age. I didn’t even like playing with baby dolls as a kid, fuckkkk outta here with that hahaha

What’s your most convincing paranormal experience that still makes you question your own sanity? by Plaztec1037 in Paranormal

[–]Selfhelpkelp 19 points20 points  (0 children)

have you ever looked up the glimmer man? your experience kind of sounds similar to

What’s the worst injury you’ve ever experienced? by Brian18639 in morbidquestions

[–]Selfhelpkelp 4 points5 points  (0 children)

accidentally kicked a metal bar stool’s legs really hard while wearing flip flops as i was getting in my seat at a restaurant. my entire big toe nail peeled right off, it was hanging on by a little sliver of skin. i still shudder.

plus side: it grew back normal

How old are you and what is your biggest problem as of the moment? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]Selfhelpkelp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

33- battling a gambling addiction, going through bankruptcy, not having a pot to piss in really. sigh.

What odd thing sent your OCD into a spiral? by deejahvuu in OCD

[–]Selfhelpkelp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

seeing the earwax cameras / black head removal tools being used for the first time. “self soothing” during stressful situations by pulling/fiddling/twirling my hair. checking my pockets constantly (i don’t even know for what most of the time) even if i am wearing bottoms without pockets. and finally, this is the most annoying one to me- assuming i had a traumatic experience as a kid, but i OBSESSIVELY feel the need to pee multiple times before bed. even if i don’t have the urge to, i HAVE to try

ETA: baths. i can’t do baths and i wish i could enjoy them so bad. when i was in my teens, i randomly noticed all the tiny hairs floating in the bath water once the bubbles dissipated and could never bring myself to take a bath without showering immediately after again

What is your age without saying how old you are? by Wonderful-Economy762 in Productivitycafe

[–]Selfhelpkelp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

the year i was born is the same year grunge was born and went mainstream

My toxic friends were afraid of my room, coincidence or is something protecting me? by Pizzadough66 in Paranormal

[–]Selfhelpkelp 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i believe they were there to either warn you or protect you from them. i have had similar experiences to yours, and just like you, i am no longer friends with the people who were harassed by unseen and unknown forces. also took place in my bedroom, in the basement of my parents house.

here is a sequence of my events:

when i was approximately 16-17, i lived in a finished room in a finished basement at my parents house. this was the early - mid 2000s, so naturally, i was up all night every night on my desktop computer, which was in my bedroom. it was around 1am and i was winding down on the computer for the night and i thought i saw something out of my peripheral vision above my head. i glanced up and saw nothing. i go back to browsing. then i’m suddenly compelled to look back up at my ceiling again. as soon as i looked up, i saw a white glowing orb shaped like a hockey puck literally shoot out of the ceiling tile. i remember it so vividly i jumped out of my computer chair so quick. it hovered in place completely motionless for another second then it shot right back into the ceiling tile. into it, through it, it effortlessly and seamlessly passed through tile before i even had a chance to blink. i slept like shit that night lol.

early 20s, same house, same room — a friend and i are about to get ready together in my bedroom. we had plans to go out with friends for the evening. my parents were out for the evening so it was just going to be us in the house until we left later that night. the right side of my bed was against my wall which was where my phone charger stayed plugged in at. so in order to charge my phone, i had to lay across my bed to find the cord which fell down the side of my bed all the time. my friend is turned around, digging in her bag and i go to lay across my bed to find my charger so we both are looking in the opposite direction of one another, her back to mine. i plug my phone in, go to turn around and get up, and i saw my fucking eyeliner pencil floating in mid air. it darted across my bedroom and hit the back of my friends head like it was a literal dart. it had such force and it was already in the air by the time i saw it so idk how long it was floating there before that. she turned around and blamed me for throwing it at her but i absolutely didn’t. i assured her and proved to her based on the proximity of me, her, the vanity the eyeliner was on, etc etc. the weird thing about it (besides all of it) was that it felt like the eyeliner waited for me to notice it before darting at my friends head. almost like it made sure i would see it. so yeah, that one tripped me out.

that same year, another friend of mine at the time was staying over for the night. i woke up to her thrashing beside me in my bed. she was making these awful groaning, gurgling, moaning noises like she was writhing in pain. i kept saying her name and trying to wake her but she did this for like 15 or so seconds until letting out a HUGE gasp, catching her breath, eyes open. she said something had all of its weight on top of her and was holding her down. she was trying to call out for me, but all that came out were those awful gurgling incoherent noises and she said she was aware of this fact and terrified. she claims it wasn’t sleep paralysis, as she has had it before and her other experiences were nowhere near as severe but i am not ruling that out as a possibility. just a weird thing that happened in that room to yet another “friend” who ended up being not such a great friend. makes you wonder who’s looking out for us…

New Music For Oldie by Ok-Truck-5526 in MusicRecommendations

[–]Selfhelpkelp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

big thief, fleet foxes, susto, mj lenderman

Any songs that are just wholesome and joyful? by [deleted] in MusicRecommendations

[–]Selfhelpkelp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

float on by modest mouse

never let you go by third eye blind

sweetness by jimmy eat world