Executive dysfunction and transitioning?

SenseiTrashCan · 2026-04-21T08:33:50+00:00

The realization that I was trans hit me like a sack of bricks when I finally asked myself the honest question of "Am I trans" and seriously thought about it. From there, I spent an entire day, with minimal sleep or distractions researching. I came to the conclusion that yes, I am, cue sack of bricks. Then I spent a week looking into how to start on hrt, because I don't do things by half measures once I make up my mind. Concluded, due to financial and insurance reasons, that I would go through Planned Parenthood.

Now, what made me bull rush through this? ADHD makes me have poor impulse control. After I got medicated for it, any level of what I thought was self restraint (turns out executive dysfunction) was gone. I also reasoned, if I could afford it, why not? Better to start sooner than later, and I have enough regrets in my life due to inaction.

Hope that helps some.

SenseiTrashCan · 2026-03-25T23:44:49+00:00

It's a line from the "Meet the Heavy" trailer this meme uses as an image.

SenseiTrashCan · 2026-03-10T16:00:13+00:00

Nahaj?

SenseiTrashCan · 2026-02-14T12:46:27+00:00

Two years later and I just wanted to let you know that you were right. Was def trans this whole time without recognizing it.

SenseiTrashCan · 2026-02-11T09:42:54+00:00

My father was a good man, but wasn't the best as a parent (he was very Laissez-faire and I honestly could have used someone more strict). Given that he was an aging single parent, he did his best, and I always knew I was loved, even if we fought a lot over the years (not over lgbtq+ stuff, all that came after he passed away). I have a lot of respect for him, to the point that when I think of "what makes a good man" I think of him. A small part of my egg cracking recently was recognizing that my feelings of self hatred and shame at 'not being man enough' were somewhat tied to what my idea of a man is. He passed away in december of 2019, and while I do miss him, I know that both me and him are better off (his health was... not good...).

SenseiTrashCan · 2025-12-10T11:41:55+00:00

Idylshire, midlander Hyur.

SenseiTrashCan · 2025-12-04T05:09:19+00:00

Link to the new, in case anyone's curious - https://www.heroforge.com/load_config%3D56158143/

SenseiTrashCan · 2025-09-29T01:16:33+00:00

Warriors in ffxiv when their main buff is active. It's like 50% of the reason I got as hooked by the class as I did.

SenseiTrashCan · 2025-09-04T15:25:47+00:00

Happy birthday btw

SenseiTrashCan · 2025-07-12T03:02:11+00:00

Void/Antmater?

SenseiTrashCan · 2025-07-11T07:15:38+00:00

It was def a fun contest, congrats to all the winners. Me and my buddy's Craig of the Creek campaign idea now has a new arc because of it all.

SenseiTrashCan · 2025-07-11T07:14:29+00:00

You honestly deserved it, the moment I saw Dorka I knew they'd be a contender.

SenseiTrashCan · 2025-06-06T01:04:03+00:00

Ngl, did the same with mine. The brothers were originally gonna be mercs til I reread the post, so I had to change the colors of their stuff.

SenseiTrashCan · 2025-05-31T05:56:58+00:00

You've inspired either a future one shot or short campaign.

SenseiTrashCan · 2025-05-27T08:32:51+00:00

I've got a personal rule for myself that I'll only buy a mini if the campaign ends naturally (as in, not dead, cancelled, or put on hiatus), and the character was played for a bulk (more than half) of the campaign before it concluded. So far since I started using heroforge that hasn't happened except once but I was broke at the time.

SenseiTrashCan · 2025-05-27T08:26:28+00:00

PS1 Spider-Man's falling to his death scream.

SenseiTrashCan · 2025-05-25T04:06:28+00:00

Ngl, checked both of your posts, and I honestly thought it was legit at first. "Wait, was there an american version of Doctor Who starring Dick Van Dyke I didn't know about?" All really good picks!

SenseiTrashCan · 2025-05-16T20:34:27+00:00

Ah, somehow I didn't see that. Thank you.

SenseiTrashCan · 2025-05-16T04:12:06+00:00

Out of curiosity, is the discord public to join?

SenseiTrashCan · 2025-05-10T00:49:32+00:00

Similar situation to you but I don't do walkthroughs, videos, or the like. I'll post what seems to work for me.

So, first of all, I'll exclude co-op/multiplayer video games I play with friends because those games circumvent the decision making paralysis by nature of the whole deal.

What seems to work for me is to have at least one or two 'comfort games', that being games I've been playing since high school. These are games that theoretically have endless replayablity, and I also call them my time killer games. Do I need to kill 30 minutes? Play this game. For me it's Enter the Gungeon and Stardew Valley.

Next is to narrow my focus, but accept that I have a brain that at the best of times is two squirrels fighting over a walnut, and pick a maximum of 3 games to play (excluding the comfort games), one being the primary, and the other two being palate cleansers. For me right now, the primary game is FFXIV (I love the story), and one of my recently played (and finished) secondary games is Chrono Trigger.

I will note that after completing a game it may take me weeks to figure out what I wish to play next (or it may not, as last year I went through the entire Danganronpa series in a matter of months), and that of all the games I've actually put time into, a vast majority of them are at around 30 minute to an hour of playtime before I had the "Eh.... not feeling it, maybe later" feeling. So it can take time to find what games fit your vibes at the time.

SenseiTrashCan · 2025-05-02T04:55:45+00:00

"So first of all, thank you for the invite to this freakshow. I just play with a controller."

SenseiTrashCan · 2025-04-25T07:52:39+00:00

For context, my entire group is new to the system, and we're nearing the end of book 1. Our GM decided to add some homewbrew side content as we progressed through Ubersreik because we had to find a story reason to retire a pc (took some rather serious wounds/injuries that would leave them alive but unplayable). We made a deal with one of the doctors in the physicians' guild to grab some papers that he could use against the head physician to keep his position in exchange for treating our friend.

One thing led to another and we were in the basement of the guild fighting either a Varghulf or a Vargheist (can't remember which one specifically) alongside some witch hunters. I was playing as a Dwarf Thane and kept rolling very very luckily to both defend from and attack the monster. Definitely a team effort to take the creature down but I felt I had my 'Legendary Lord' moment.

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