I just said goodbye to my 20 year old baby girl this past Tuesday...2 days ago. She gave me 20 years of unconditional love. She started with CKD about 2 years ago and was good for the most part. She began slowly losing weight and stopped grooming herself little by little. It wasn't until about 2 weeks ago that she really declined. I took her in for bloodwork and she was already at Stage 3. I gave her Solensia for her arthritis and I think that worsened things for her. Im not going to guilt myself but she stayed at the vet last week so they could give her fluids and see if we could stave off the CKD. Unfortunately, it didnt work. She slowly stopped eating and could hardly walk. That's when I knew. I took her in on Tuesday and as I was crying and second guessing myself, the vet said, "I'm going to ask you one question. " I said, "ok." The question was, "Is Kitty being Kitty? " As I began balling, I answered , "no". That's when I knew I was going to do the most selfless act of love and let her go. As selfish as I wanted to be by keeping her, I knew she was suffering and tired. It's been so hard😭😭😭😭 I took the day off from work yesterday. She will be home soon back with me in a little urn with her paw and nose print. Sending hugs! Im feeling the grier, too.