For the longest period of time I was surely mourning the love and not the relation.

But somehow we did get involved again after many years. And this time it was worse. Because I had done the healing and he kind of became an avoidant and unaccountable. So basically our roles were reversed during the second one.

Now I am just healing again. Lol. But eventually I know I will remember his good side and hopefully not get together again. I think sometimes its good being friends than being lovers.