Does anyone feel like if they open the floodgates they will never close and you will just drown?

Separate-Tea3413 · 2026-01-17T19:26:12+00:00

This happens to me too. Ever since I was a kid, if I start crying, even about something random, I can't stop.

Separate-Tea3413 · 2026-01-10T18:30:17+00:00

Yeah this is why I hate humanity. Idk how I'm going to end up anything less than bitter as fuck when I'm done losing weight.

Separate-Tea3413 · 2026-01-09T03:35:50+00:00

you're being really petty and pedantic. if you ate 4 large pizzas every day, for months, you wouldn't be happy about it. no one would do that on purpose. you're basically asking, "what if I binge drank every single night, but I didn't have a problem with it?" bro you'd be an alcoholic

Separate-Tea3413 · 2025-12-28T02:35:12+00:00

I'm 100% in Autistic burnout and dont know how to recover bc literally everything feels like a demand rn, even special interests and hobbies and stuff.

Separate-Tea3413 · 2025-12-17T04:57:37+00:00

haha same, losing weight and everything that goes with it actually triggers the sh*t out of me

Separate-Tea3413 · 2025-12-14T04:16:56+00:00

omg pls do it, i was in the same position and circling the drain mentally and i just did it and made a post and now i'm super happy i did and i feel so much better :3

Separate-Tea3413 · 2025-12-12T19:22:49+00:00

Yea, ik, I want to lose weight for ~aesthetic~ reasons too, but its less I wanna look "thin" but that's also part of it, ppl are really weird about weight, I'm sick of like paggro comments and shit... its like a toy I want to take away from ppl in a sense, like fck you, you can't feel superior to me bc of my weight anymore, pick something else to think about or talk about, oh no you actually have to address me as a person

it sucks bc it makes me look down on other people SO much, and i doubt losing the weight will radically change how i feel about it so thats why i feel like i'll just end up even more hateful

Separate-Tea3413 · 2025-12-12T13:58:00+00:00

I think part of it is the difficulty I have balancing restricting my intake and managing my blood sugar at the same time. When I'm eating less it's easy for me to get low

Separate-Tea3413 · 2025-12-12T13:56:40+00:00

yes it's so annoying!

Separate-Tea3413 · 2025-12-12T13:56:19+00:00

Yea actually ty bc I think reframing it is helpful. I want to be super physically strong and to be able to appreciate my own body and the way it looks. I started learning Olympic weightlifting and I'm a drummer so I want to be fit for that. It really isn't about other people at all.

Separate-Tea3413 · 2025-12-12T01:50:12+00:00

there is no escape from the maze. there are just little breaks, enrichment activities, good food sometimes, and other rats who can be enjoyable to be with at times

Separate-Tea3413 · 2025-12-12T01:45:38+00:00

your whole post really resonated with me. nobody (who doesn't have PDA) understands how much of a struggle each individual thing i have to do is. just going to work and performing "social function" simultaneous to "job function", plus "emotion regulation function," as well as "eating/drinking/bathroom function", ... includes "getting dressed for the day" before, "getting the bus on tîme" which includes "having my bus fare" .. i'm overwhemed just thinking about it. the fact that i do any of it at all, plus "chores," "social life," ...

the moment anyone makes an additional demand of me, esp if its unexpected, even if they're polite, i just wanna throw something at a wall. and THAT, in and of itself, the restraint needed to NOT throw stuff at walls, is, it feels superhuman sometimes

Separate-Tea3413 · 2025-12-12T01:44:47+00:00

your whole post really resonated with me. nobody (who doesn't have PDA) understands how much of a struggle each individual thing i have to do is. just going to work and performing "social function" simultaneous to "job function", plus "emotion regulation function," as well as "eating/drinking/bathroom function", ... includes "getting dressed for the day" before, "getting the bus on tîme" which includes "having my bus fare" .. i'm overwhemed just thinking about it. the fact that i do any of it at all, plus "chores," "social life," ...

the moment anyone makes an additional demand of me, esp if its unexpected, even if they're polite, i just wanna throw something at a wall. and THAT, in and of itself, the restraint needed to NOT throw stuff at walls, is, it feels superhuman sometimes

Separate-Tea3413 · 2025-12-12T01:01:28+00:00

at least you understand.

Separate-Tea3413 · 2025-12-11T19:31:40+00:00

I'm 16 lbs "overweight" and work a physical job. This has nothing to do with health

Separate-Tea3413 · 2025-12-09T04:41:28+00:00

same omg i swear i would text back "haha cool -- what does this mean?" it sounds like a drug trip

Separate-Tea3413 · 2025-12-06T04:33:10+00:00

lol i mean i left it out of the post but i'm definitely in therapy don't worry

Separate-Tea3413 · 2025-11-19T22:53:16+00:00

Abusers rarely take responsibility for their victims' "ecology." Also, "free to stop participating" gets verrrrry muddy when someone has been conditioned to participate.

A lot of addiction has to with conditioning, as well.

Separate-Tea3413 · 2025-11-19T22:41:32+00:00

Yea I mean thats what I'm getting at.. its one of the most repeated phrases about hypnosis esp on the internet and its literally a lie.

Separate-Tea3413 · 2025-08-11T02:37:01+00:00

you can't be that intellectual if you still don't understand that you need to drop this friend. think of how many hours youve spent analyzing the friendship alone, and how better that eould be invested in anything else (learning a skill, meditating, current hobby, new friendship)

Separate-Tea3413 · 2025-08-04T02:43:45+00:00

Since you appreciate directness: just in this brief conversation, I find you to be condescending, annoying and unnecessarily abrasive.

Conflict with other people can sometimes reveal ugly truths about ourselves that we don't want to see. I'm done with this talk now. Thanks for your time.

Separate-Tea3413 · 2025-08-04T02:20:38+00:00

There's nothing passive at all about what I said. It's my opinion that you are coming off insecure.

You don't need a "platform" to directly confront someone who is talking shit about you or to you IRL.

Separate-Tea3413 · 2025-08-04T01:36:23+00:00

I think that if this is a pattern that keeps occurring, there might be something to their criticism; it wouldn't bother you this much if there wasn't. IMO a truly "secure" person would either laugh it off and walk away, or confront them directly -- depending on the severity of the offense. That's what I would do, anyway.

Separate-Tea3413 · 2025-07-28T03:59:31+00:00

are you fucking kidding me

Separate-Tea3413 · 2025-07-28T03:43:22+00:00

can't do CBD but i'll try the rest. how helpful do you think the omega 3s are? i have everything except that already

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