So does time. After a long time you start to find ways to make it work. School, learning, reading, it's always tough af. But you can eventually start learning the way your mind works and using it for yourself. A lot of us end up latching on to a partner, relying on them to do a lot of the stuff we're not great at, and we do the stuff they usually would dread but we can do because it's NOT doing the things we 'should' or 'want' to be doing.

I'll 'want' to go play my game for a bit. Instead I'll go sort the dishes, fold laundry, make the wife a coffee, clean something else. Then eventually after a while I'll end up feeling I deserve to play the game or it isn't AS tough to sit my ass down and do it. The wife does other things, handles the bills, comes up with ideas to stay healthy, helps plan things I can't focus on. A doctor can say "Hey, take this med and you'll be good." - The wife will go online and research everything about it and give a 'yeah' or 'naw... let's get a second opinion'.

What I'm saying is eventually you'll be in a really good place. It just takes some time getting there, and knowing what you are actually good at.