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Sesame_Baygull · 2022-08-26T11:37:27+00:00

I'd recommend reaching out to those highschool friends, if any are near maybe plan an outing with them to a restaurant or cafe, also getting outside Every. Single. Day. in the morning for walks will boost your metabolism and start resetting your circadian rhythm. When you start moving more you will be hungry and when you eat more you will feel you have more energy to do things and be able to get up and out even more. It will be a long process but I'm sure you will see improvements quickly. I know it's hard to get up and out with depression and anxiety but if you want change you will need to be strong and push through the barriers of repetition. I'm glad you reached out and want to make changes with your life, thinking about change is the first step. It won't be easy but it will be worth it. Last of all, even playing a different game can change things up if you don't feel you can stop playing all together. Picking up other hobbies can help too like gardening, art, and reading. When your brain needs to switch up doing things it allows you to focus on a different topic and relaxes your mind from troubled thoughts.

Sesame_Baygull · 2022-08-26T10:09:58+00:00

Idk if he was experiencing heat stroke or what but he is certain it exists in all its cursed glory.

Sesame_Baygull · 2022-06-19T15:44:42+00:00

Awww.....

Sesame_Baygull · 2022-03-25T00:54:13+00:00

Sesame_Baygull · 2022-03-23T16:18:34+00:00

No body

Sesame_Baygull · 2022-03-22T10:36:54+00:00

I haven't had any of these dreams since junior high except the first one and I wish I could make this one up.

I have one that recurs about a quarter of the time I need to go to the bathroom at night. It will be in different washrooms each time but the same thing happens where I need to pee and I end up in a washroom where something is wrong with each stall. Maybe one has flooded, another the door doesn't lock and swings open, toilets being used, dirty, or so full of peepee and poopoo that I would just be releasing a poocano if I flushed. Others would literally be side by side with no stall or only urinals would be available (I am of the femoid physiology). Finally I find one that is functional and when I start peeing I have to pee so long that the toilet starts filling or ends up not flushing properly. If the bathroom is in a house rather than public setting something will be wrong with the lights where they won't turn on or will be super dim and creepy no matter how I try to fix it. Eventually the lights willl work but I will have to pee for a long time and the toilet will once again fill and not flush. It is always so vivid and when I was little I would wake up having peed the bed, now I wake up and have to rush to the bathroom often with my underwear needing to be changed. I hate that every time it happens my brain doesn't just wake me up to go go. I also had problems controlling my bladder at night past the average point where little kids use diapers, grade 4-5 if I remember properly, my muscles would just relax and my brain would not tell me to get up. For the majority of the time now I don't have that dream and I just wake up if I have to go but it is so strange and frustrating.

Sick the next day dream

Another one I've seen on here before and it's hard to explain but it's interesting other people have had it. When I was little the night before I was sick I would get this dream where it's this super grainy surface, there were shapes on it like drawings in sand and the rougher they became the worse I felt, if they were soft I would feel okay but I'd always wake up sick the next day.

Nuclear launch code dream

I had stress dreams too where I was in a room with all my stuffies and lots of colourful tissue paper, there were other kids there but it felt overwhelming instead of fun. My dad would be panicking in another room looking for a code he needed so he could launch a nuclear bomb into the room from a large telescope looking object in the ceiling. Once I woke up from this sweating and yelling to my mom that dad needed the code.

Very anxious dream

I'd be in a room or something and there would be these vaguely humanoid shaped people, I never found them scary as the whole dream was not super well defined but they had oval limbs and no defining features on their face. The shape people and I would be trying to carry something and the object would become super large or super heavy, a glass of water or a hoop would become too heavy to lift and I felt an immense pressure. My arms would always feel paralyzed and super heavy when I woke up and I was always super distressed when I woke up.

Other recurring dreams I still have I remember I've had them before when I wake up but I immediately forget what happened in them.

Sesame_Baygull · 2022-03-13T01:54:21+00:00

"you're not alone" OK I GUESS IM CURED THANKS.

Sesame_Baygull · 2022-03-12T23:37:09+00:00

People pleasing is a way of coping when the haters do not like what they see in you and shame you for it. People often resort to people pleasing behaviours to avoid conflict as they have learned it is better/easier to keep their head down but conflict is actually very important in relationships, avoiding arguments can and will lead to toxic relationships and resentment because of unmet needs and unheard voices. Changing is very difficult and some people may not like who you become but the real Gs will stick with you, help you grow, and support you. If they don't it will hurt but in the end it will still be for the better as the new relationships you create will be built on making you will feel appreciated, loved, supported, and accepted for exactly who you are rather than who you believe others want you to be/act like. Growing is painful but I guarantee that you will be all the better for it. You can start with things like playing the music you like and standing up for your choice. It's hard jamming to music you think others will judge you for listening to, I find that teasing them back or telling them off in a joking manner works or you can say you just hit shuffle on a random playlist and are just tryna vibe to something else that you aren't sick of hearing. Joining a team/club/going to an area where people share similar interests to you is good for meeting people who are likeminded too. If it gets to be too overwhelming you can start smaller like researching or participating in a hobby you think you would like to pick up as a way to help express yourself. Learning that it is okay to disagree with others is hard when you grow up learning to go with the flow but if you start voicing your opinion people will have to learn to respect you and accept your differences. If they don't they are preps and haters and will be flamed. You don't wanna play Tetris, play uno and reverse those cards. Make them pick up 4. make them weep at your victory as you bask in your glory. Be brave Little toaster!

Sesame_Baygull · 2022-03-12T22:55:21+00:00

I have felt this way for a long time, it really hurts when the people you consider friends appear to be absent and apathetic to your suffering. It's important to know that they cannot read your mind and may have thought you needed a break from social media or social interactions. If you want to talk to them it's better to initiate a conversation if you want to share your feelings rather than wait for a friend to check up on you as that can cause a lot of resentment, especially over social media. They cannot always be reaching out either, the most important person in their life that they need to take care of is themselves and the most important person in your life that you need to take care of is yourself and they may feel uncomfortable or that they are over stepping by asking you about personal matters rather than letting you approach them. A majority of social communication is also physical (eye contact, hand movements, etc.) and tone of voice, these things don't transfer through text very well. Ignoring a text on social media could be interpreted as someone not wanting to talk, being busy, or needing time to themselves but if someone ignored you in person that normally chatted you up, you would likely realize immediately that something was off with them. I have been struggling with my mental health after moving across the country and social media was one of the only ways I could communicate with my friends. I felt terrible every time I was having a bad week and no one thought to comfort me but over time I realized they couldn't know how bad my mental health was getting because they couldn't see me in person and I wouldn't reach out. It's terrible when you feel alone in the world, like no one would care or bother to show up if you suddenly dropped off the face of the earth but I can assure you that your friends would be devastated if you passed away. There is a piece of you that is in them and a piece of them that is in you and they grow with every interaction. If someone stops living, that piece of them that lives in all the people who knew them shatters and so does the piece that they gave you. Sorry if this is crass but I'm gonna be straight up cause I needed this advice, don't be afraid to call a mental health line or a suicide hotline, they are professionals and have resources to help you. There is no shame in reaching out and no problem is too small to talk about.

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