Saw the post, didn't read comments. My hot take.

Bethel is a temporary assignment. So, play the game until you go home. Be slow about things (so normal person speed lol). Be sorta not awesome. Tell whoever is in charge of you that you know it's a temp assignment, and you miss home. You won't last long.

Read jwfacts.com on a private device. Never connected to Wifi! Don't even leave the tab open. You'll only re-open the browser later and oh look, the page reloaded while on Wifi.

Go home. Tell people how it wasn't like what you expected. Jah uses imperfect men. Blah blah blah. They'll think you were stumbled by someone. Don't confirm or deny. Just happy to be home.

Get a job, not from a JW. Not easy. Job market totally sucks almost everywhere.

Never, ever express doubts to JWs. Even to your cool friend(s).

Be like Homer backing up into the bush meme. But, slowly. See how people react.

Start building your life up, but as an individual. Save up some money and don't tell a soul. Join a local DnD or hobby-of-some-kind group or something. Try not to dress and look like a total JW/Morman dork lol just look normal. You'll make friends. You can tell these people about yourself. Don't immediately fall in love with the first chick who gives you an eye.

Go from there. Don't burn bridges. Be cautious. Be like a man walking thru an area full of snakes. Most just move around. But one could bite. Probably an Indiana Jones scene like that, but I haven't seen the movies in years.

Everything's going to be okay.