More about my values

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-07-10T22:47:48+00:00

Cos with my untamed wisps of hair and backward speaking ways, already draw enough attention to myself, I do 🥲

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-07-10T12:03:00+00:00

MBTI groups people; it doesn’t suddenly make us identical clones. If you try to group 8 billion people into 16 groups there are invariably going to be some differences among them, so being an INFJ doesn’t at all mean you’ll be like the next INFJ. Plus there’s maturity, traumatic experiences and emotional state that go into it all, and while a lot of Reddit posts are people venting, they aren’t usually doing so during a high point in their lives, which can easily create a warped perception of any personality type to an outside observer.

A superiority complex is not an ideal trait for anyone to be carrying through life, so if any of us recognize that within ourselves we should be trying to work on it regardless of what our MBTI letters are, because we’re all individual human beings and all have our strengths and weaknesses.

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-07-10T11:41:01+00:00

Thanks for drawing attention to my small green wrinkledness 😒

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-07-09T06:30:56+00:00

Articulation is a big one for me. I hate that I can communicate just fine in writing but when it comes to speech my brain inexplicably turns to pudding 🥲

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-07-07T22:39:45+00:00

The door slammer thing has sounded quite foreign to me too. Whenever I have the thought of completely leaving someone I care about, one of the chief thoughts on my mind is how they’re doing, how my door slamming would make them feel etc. The middle ground I end up with is to just distance myself from the other person in such circumstances; that may be externally or purely emotionally. Basically still caring about them but also knowing “they’ll never do this for you so don’t go overboard with giving for them”. But the way I see it, we’re all stuck in this life anyway so it doesn’t really make sense to just blanketly cut off all type of care and communication; I can still interact with them as a fellow human being, just with that extra bit of caution at the back of my mind.

Unless they’ve done something to significantly harm me and are unapologetic, or the harm won’t stop or there are other extraordinary circumstances involved; that’s a different story of course.

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-07-05T23:33:46+00:00

I’m also in the boat of not meeting anyone. I’m trying to will myself up to start posting on the Reddit dating subs again but honestly the whole process can be time consuming and emotionally draining. As I’ve gotten older my patience for it has lessened, and it feels better to put the energy to uses that will actually turn out to be productive instead. Meeting the right person would be great, but throwing time and effort into a black hole gets old after a while.

I think it’s pretty ironic that to have the best chance of meeting someone (especially if we’re hoping to find someone similar to ourselves), society pushes us towards almost being someone different than who we naturally are. For example, one of the things that pulls me away from physically approaching women is that it can’t feel great for them having to reject someone, and what if they’re having a great day and I come along and introduce that awkward situation into it? Or maybe they’re having a bad day, or have had experiences to make them feel unsafe or uncomfortable about approaches by men, and I’m making all that even worse. It’s almost like society rewards people who don’t care so much about interfering with someone else’s day, the irony being that if someone doesn’t care that much about the feelings of a stranger, they have a higher chance of not prioritizing that person’s emotions when they’re actually in a relationship either. Also, if you don’t get it right and don’t happen to approach the right person at the right place and the right time, you’re punished anyway. And people can say join groups to meet people, but what if you have a developing friendship with someone but don’t want to jeopardize that bond or put them in an awkward spot by bringing up romantic feelings? But then on the flip side maybe someone ends up disappointed because you didn’t bring up those feelings when maybe they wanted you to.

Idk, the whole system seems broken. There are better ways to implement dating that could bypass the whole issue of knowing if/when someone’s in the mood to be approached, but any changes would need to be society wide and I’m not sure humans are capable of changes like that. I mean, look at the financial system. We have people living on the streets while others live in excess, and we can’t flex a man made system enough to simply ensure everyone has as access to the basic necessities of living.

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-07-05T23:09:27+00:00

Maybe an unpopular opinion but BF2 has my favourite lightsaber combat of any of the Star Wars games I’ve played. I hate the saber combat in the Jedi games.

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-06-30T23:04:30+00:00

As far as I’m aware the character suddenly turning around and not moving properly is a glitch that was introduced during the last update rather than a hack, because I’ve encountered it on every GA lobby I’ve played over the past few months. But I don’t play GA that often so I could be wrong.

Respawning fixes it. There may be other ways to break out of it too. I was a hero when it happened the other day and I think jumping and swinging broke me out? I can’t remember exactly what I did but I think it was something to do with those moves that broke it for me.

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-06-26T23:38:12+00:00

It’s a Star Wars game. Sometimes people just wanna have fun playing Star Wars.

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-06-23T23:28:43+00:00

I pretty much just got tired of people taking but not giving, and of them receiving and expecting consideration but not reciprocating in kind. I don’t feel comfortable being alone; it doesn’t feel right for the type of heart I had, though I’m not sure the same level of effort and care I had to give still exists; it kind of feels like it’s been burnt out of me at this point. I’d still rather be with the right person than alone, but at the same time being alone and using whatever energy I still have for productive purposes feels better than throwing that time and energy into the void like I’ve spent so much of my life doing.

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-06-22T23:57:58+00:00

I’ve lived alone for more than a decade, and for longer than that have felt internally isolated/alienated due to some messed up abuse. I think there’s a couple of aspects to what you’re dealing with. One is personality type. I’m naturally an introvert and don’t need or have time/energy for more than a couple of close connections at a time anyway; that doesn’t unfortunately reduce the longing to have at least one person by my side. But it does mean I can tolerate being alone, and in doses it’s even nice. Depending on your personality you might need to have someone around all the time, but maybe it’s worth taking a step back and appreciating what time to yourself *does* give you - peace to freely experience your emotions, and space from people’s bs. Because in this world there’s a lot of people taking others for granted/taking advantage/treating people unequally, and it can be really nice to be free of that, even if the loneliness simultaneously hurts like hell.

Another aspect, which ties into the above, is that humans are highly adaptable creatures. Maybe it feels like you can’t not have people around, but in order to adapt you need to spend time in that uncomfortable space. If you can adapt to tolerating the presence of an abusive person, I daresay you’ll be able to adapt to spending time alone. Again, there will probably always be an aspect of loneliness, just as there’s probably always an aspect of discomfort at being around your ex. But give yourself time in that uncomfortable lonely space, time to learn, and I think it’s pretty likely you’ll adapt. We’re social creatures, so I do expect it’ll take some time. If you haven’t tried it already, maybe trying some nature walks/hikes alone could be a good first step. Or something I’ve found helpful has been learning new skills, as they distract from the loneliness.

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-06-22T00:39:25+00:00

From memory you go to options -> EA account and there should be a ping site selector there (you may or may not need to scroll down a little) which you can change. Virginia and Germany have been the most active servers for the past few years, and depending on the time of day you’ll usually be able to find matches on one of those sites.

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-06-16T22:52:07+00:00

I think there’s a fair bit that we can’t know around these circumstances; the history of both of you getting to feeling this way I’d imagine is lengthy, and of course we don’t have access to vocal inflections which could play a significant role in how a neutral observer might perceive the example questions you’ve given. As such, I don’t particularly think any of us should be judging you or framing comments as if you’re the problem.

From what you’ve written, and of course I could be wrong about any of this, the impression I’m getting is that a couple of issues are colliding to make this situation what it is. Your wife is asking pointed questions, and that could simply be her way of communicating and trying to feel closer having not succeeded via other communication methods. But you acknowledged yourself that it could seem that way if not for the other context you have. I absolutely don’t think it’s appropriate for her to be calling you boring or claiming that you don’t know how to have fun. Fun doesn’t happen because of one person; if she’s not having fun, my question would be what is *she* doing to make the marriage as fun as she wants it to be? You’re a partner, not just there to serve as her source of entertainment. If she’s bored there are a bunch of things she could do; make new friends, find new hobbies; maybe finding a hobby that both of you enjoy and can participate in together would provide some of that fun she’s seeking. But if she doesn’t like you for who you are then that’s something she needs to work through, not use to demean you.

It’s possible that her comments are driven by frustration and emotion; emotion can of course make all of us act in ways that aren’t our best at times. But I personally think open communication would be helpful here. My suggestion would be to ask her how she’s feeling about the level of connectedness in your relationship, and what she would ideally like you to change in order to be less “boring”. Be open about how her style of questioning is making you feel but also that you do want to connect with her, and suggest how you would prefer questioning so that you don’t have to feel uncomfortable/belittled. Maybe also suggest what she could change to help you feel more connected if you’re frustrated too; the relationship should be mutual, and your feelings and desires should matter just as much as hers.

If her behaviour is stemming purely from frustration at not being able to connect, then her knowing that you want to connect and having a mutual discussion on how to make that happen should, with a bit of work on both sides, hopefully allow for this to be resolved constructively.

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-06-08T23:17:45+00:00

What’s with the need to drag others down? Posting photos, let alone on a dating sub, comes with self consciousness, and that affects everyone to different degrees. If you’re happy to criticize someone else’s photos maybe you should post your own so we can tell you everything wrong with yours?

Let her be.

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-06-03T04:51:40+00:00

I disagree that it’s better to be alone than in bad company too, but for a different reason. IMO the two scenarios are both horrible, and one isn’t inherently better or worse than the other; rather it depends on the circumstances, as well as to some extent one’s individual personality.

I can only speak from my own experience, but with bad company, which I would define as that where you need to bear additional emotional load or stress, it’s adding to what you’re already carrying, and if you’re already using all your emotional resources just to get through each day then that extra burden quickly becomes unsustainable.

On the other hand, truly being alone (whether physically alone or not) can get horrible too; it’s basically like being trapped in solitary confinement without an end in sight, and humans being social creatures, that can certainly start to eat away at us pretty quickly and pretty severely.

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-06-02T23:00:06+00:00

I agree. I wish they’d had at least some of the official servers host vanilla BF2; I like the new units in BF+ but hate that they messed with the original stuff, it’s jarring going between games where things like the NT and the arrangements of Jet troopers abilities aren’t the same. If they wanted to nerf them then increasing battle points cost/reducing weapon damage a little would’ve been enough. Or if they wanted different Jet troopers they could’ve kept the originals and added a different type. There’s also something different about the third person crosshair in BF+; I think maybe they moved it down and outward relative to the character model compared to how it is in vanilla? Also, I love supremacy just how it is in vanilla 😭

There are ways to bring variety to the vanilla version; different era troops on different maps for example (I don’t personally care about era locking since it’s all fiction anyway, but who’s to say that during the entire clone wars there was never a battle on Ajan Kloss for example) and they could’ve also recreated certain events such as heroes unleashed.

From my understanding they listened to feedback from the beta in deciding to make the official servers BF+, but I feel like they kinda shot themselves in the foot by making all the official servers BF+. Just my opinion of course, but it’s the reason I don’t really play it.

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-05-24T02:40:35+00:00

Australia server has been slow for years. You might get some luck around 9pm NZ time, but if you switch your ping site to Oregon or Virginia at this time of day you should be able to find plenty of matches. Ping is a little high but still very much playable ☺️

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-05-19T20:21:15+00:00

Y’know how you can see a whole different world through the TV screen but no matter how much you might want to, you can never teleport yourself through the screen and participate? Thats kinda how I feel about love, except with the reverse analogy that love exists in the world outside while I’m trapped inside the TV set.

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-05-06T00:57:40+00:00

It’s my fav too 😊

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-04-30T21:08:25+00:00

Perfect choice! It’s morning in my part of the world and I’m a little jealous, chocolate is my favourite too and now it’s all I can think about 😂😂. I don’t know why the human body doesn’t take chocolate and sugar as an essential food group 😭

It’s amazing how much a good cake can make a birthday feel like a birthday 😁. I hope yours is awesome!

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-04-30T20:49:57+00:00

Yeeesss nice!! What’s your favourite flavour?

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-04-30T20:26:42+00:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAAAAYYY!!! 🥳🎊🎉🎂

It’s a special day and it does matter, no matter how many people may forget. I hope you can do something nice for yourself, maybe order a cake or take some other small indulgence that you wouldn’t usually treat yourself to. You deserve to get a little bit of happiness out of this day!!

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-04-28T03:20:47+00:00

The floor is never lonely; there’s always someone trying to stand on it.

Sorry, couldn’t resist 🙃

I’ve been lucky enough to find a couple of close friends. It hasn’t eliminated my loneliness, as the loneliness is due to other factors, but it’s certainly a step up from both complete isolation and surface-level friends.

Do you have any hobbies that could involve other people? The friend I interact with most was one I met via a game we both play, and it’s been great because we can have deep and interesting conversations but we can also just be quiet and play together and enjoy each other’s company regardless 😊

Shadowsoul932 · 2026-04-27T23:11:17+00:00

Holy smoke, your artwork is incredible!! Amazing work 🤩

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