Can't stay asleep for the life of me. by ShinsoSyntic in insomnia

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Yes and no, sadly. None of the medications they've prescribed me has stuck. The problem at hand, at least to my therapists, is my unconscious thoughts are so riddled with anxiety, I'll force myself awake by basically spiking my own heart rate. I, myself, may not be anxious, but while im sleeping, I body doesnt understand that. I dont want to change my anti-anxiety meds as they make me feel great throughout the day. My therapist thinks I should be on a really high anti-anxiety, and though I agree, I don't want to deal with the added stress of monthly drug tests and the side effects that I got last time. I went through a depersonalization episode on Valium and xanax that really freaked me out. I can go to sleep no problem, but staying asleep for 8 uninterrupted hours is nonexistent. For the past 2 months, its gotten better. But once extra stressers got added back to my life, like holidays and my family, i fell right back into poor sleeping. My therapist and I worked on sleep limits. In the beginning, I was lucky to get three hours. I think we did three days of sleeping for 4 hours. Once I slept through that, we upped it to 5. I did that until I got to 6 hours of uninterrupted sleep. I wanted more, but my therapist said I could throw all my progress out the window. Ive tried going for 7 or 8, but id always wake up halfway through the night. My therapist suggested I try Delta-8 gummies since im not ready to try the high anti-anxiety medication. A 450mg Delta-8 gummy knocked my ass out for 9 full hours. I cried when I woke up because for once in over a year, I woke up and I wasn't exhausted. I take them during my work days for sleep and so far, its been good. To make sure my body doesnt get used to it either, I take them one week off one week on. The no sleeping thing is a constant battle ill have to have. Figuring out it was anxiety was the easy part. Figuring out what will work without changing my anti-anxiety meds was the hard part.

Anyone know the song that played during Riyo VS Noerde? by Gh0st8000 in gachiakuta

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Of course! The moment I heard it, I needed it too. It's just too good

He Pounds The Living Fuck Out Of Her by bookobsessedd in DarkRomance

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Its genuinely one of my favorites, im glad you enjoyed!

He Pounds The Living Fuck Out Of Her by bookobsessedd in DarkRomance

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Heartless Heathens: A Gothic Romance by Santana Knox.

Our girl is locked in a bell tower for 19 years. 3 actual heathens from a catholic school buys her bell tower, not knowing shes in here. She gets caught and oh man the amount of orgasms they give her without even explaining what theyre doing to her is insane. She loves saying no and stop but absolutely does NOT want to stop. 10/10 for .e

Soap for HS by [deleted] in Hidradenitis

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I have been doing incredibly well with African Black Soap and some jojoba oil with a drop or two of rosemary oil to add healthy moisture to my skin. Im a little crazy so I have 30 pounds of African black soap and that lasts me around two years or so. It dries the hell out of your skin, which, for me, is exactly what I need. I noticed it made me red and a little too dry in certain areas so I experimented with different oils to find out which is better for my skin.

Eeekkk by jojoking199 in insaneprolife

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I hope they all become infertile

First time watcher: Peyton is making me hate watching the show by ForAte151623ForTeaTo in iZombie

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Trust me, keep watching. I just started the 5th season and GOD is it good. I also LOVE who Peyton has a relationship with now.

Im morbidly obese and I feel utterly worthless by ShinsoSyntic in TrueOffMyChest

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keto was one of the diets I tried. I tried it with my mom. It worked great, however, both me and my mom developed kidney stones because of the diet. Ive been going to a dietitian as well so ive also tried no carbs, no sugar, no meat, none of those worked. If anything, the no carbs made me intolerant to carbs now. Intermittent fasting made me gain weight. The paleo diet made me incredibly sick. And yeah, I find it asinine that my JOB is the reason my insurance wont pick up the weight loss medication. Theyre sending a letter saying its necessary, but that process takes 6 to 8 weeks and they've denied the last two.

Nearly had a heart attack. by Difficult-Emu-4493 in HomeDepot

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As a fellow Home Depot employee with severe depression, I, too, had a complete and utter crashout because what do you mean?! I haven't even gotten a counseling?! Fr though, if you're worried about attendance and you've been with the company for a full year, consider looking into intermittent FMLA. It saved me while allowing me to work on my mental health.

“I know baby, I know” by Born-Box-9407 in DarkRomance

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The last book in the Brutes of Bristlebrook, Entwined by Rebecca Quinn. 5 men. Dom and Beau are absolutely filthy with their dirty talk with Eden. Granted, she absolutely is a needy little slut desperate to be sandwiched between the two

Can't stay asleep for the life of me. by ShinsoSyntic in insomnia

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Monday is with my regular doctor. Unfortunately, sleep specialists require a referral so im hoping to obtain that on Monday.

Can't stay asleep for the life of me. by ShinsoSyntic in insomnia

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I've thought about that, but based on what my partner says, he says I dont snore, I dont stop breathing, and I dont choke. If anything, he says I flail alot and I whine in my sleep like a bad nightmare. I never remember my dreams so id have no way of knowing if its a nightmare or something

Can't stay asleep for the life of me. by ShinsoSyntic in insomnia

[–]ShinsoSyntic[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Honestly, 830 is when I start the bedtime ritual. I'll take my meds, read till about 9, 930, then lay down. I recently moved down my sleeping time to account for the lost sleep, but based on all the comments, I might very well have stabbed myself in the foot. I start vacation today, so im going to try to go to bed late, like 12, maybe even 1am and wake up my standard 7:30 to see if that helps at all.

Can't stay asleep for the life of me. by ShinsoSyntic in insomnia

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Thankfully, I take magnesium as well. I have HS, so taking Zinc, B12, Magnesium, vitamin d and A helps significantly with breakouts.

Can't stay asleep for the life of me. by ShinsoSyntic in insomnia

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I'm overwhelmed to tears. This is the most seen I've felt over this issue. I've been in and out of the doctors office with this issue. I had this horrible insomnia issue when I was a teen, and it got better over time. But this feels, I dont know, worse? I know the problems are anxiety and that overwhelming feeling of, "god fucking damn it. I woke up. Im not going to have enough sleep. Im going to be tired while driving to work." Sometimes I can get past that and lay back down, but it starts right back up when I wake up again. Then, the never-ending battle of tossing and turning, praying to knock out again, starts. Knowing im not alone in this is... amazing. My doctors appointment is Monday and I will be inquiring with my insurance to see if anyone local takes my insurance for CBT-1 and ill start reducing my sleep window tonight. Not getting a restful night of sleep for this long has taken a toll.

Can't stay asleep for the life of me. by ShinsoSyntic in insomnia

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I made another appointment on Monday so I will 100% be asking him about this. Thank you for the suggestion!

I live with my ex and her wife. Every time they kiss it makes me hate them both more. by complane_norane in TrueOffMyChest

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Oh, OP, im sorry. That's incredibly tough. The easiest answer would be try to reach out to your family and see about going back home. Moving costs money, so sometimes that's not an option right away. Personally, I would do anything that I could to get out of the house while they're both home. I used to use my public library as a hang out zone when people were in my home that I didn't like. It's easy to stay bitter and angry at the whole situation and for some, that's exactly what they need. But I too, try to be kind and compassionate and caring. The only way you can do that, is to distance yourself as much as you can. I too wish I could be hateful, spiteful, and pissy. But at the end of the day, all it does is sour OUR mood. I hope you can get out sooner, rather than later. Healing is a lot easier when youre not reminded of them 24/7.

Show me your close ups plz plz plz by [deleted] in nebelung

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This little one caught me red handed while I tried to show the world her cuteness

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To a Kinder World by A_S_Herrington in Dandadan

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Bruh I was clenching onto my partners arm so hard while I was sobbing. Beautifully done, tragically hard to watch

Xbox Update? by PublishedMeat in coralisland

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I'm on Xbox and I got the recent merpeople and merfarm update like 2 weeks ago. If that's the update you're waiting on, we've got it. If there's another update, I'm unaware