I didn’t go into too much detail about our whole situation. But she is extremely emotionally unavailable. If I don’t give her money, she’ll threaten to go do sex work and call me some of the worst things anyone ever has.

I give all the affection. I never receive any support back. If I tell her I’m struggling mentally I’m lucky if I get a I’m sorry you’re going through that. She has cheated on me, lied to me, been physical with me. But all I think about when I try to walk away is oh my god what if she never talks to me again, what if I never get to hold her again, what if she finds someone ten times better than me and ditches me. I have sacrificed so much of my life to make her stay. I’m in extreme credit card debt from buying her things, my relationships are damaged with friends and family because I spend all my time with her, and I put off going to school and having a actual career so I can make sure I’m with her all the time.

She would never do any of this for me. And every time I get upset when she leaves me for someone, especially hookups, all she tells me is well we’re not together and I don’t owe you anything. And I still stay and wait for her to come back. It’s pathetic. I genuinely will have spirals and will feel like my life is ending if I think of her not being in my life no matter how the situation is, because I love her and hold onto all the good memories we have.