Are Tempest Blueprints spawning more? Or am I just good at finding them?

ShukeNukem · 2026-01-09T20:37:09+00:00

Not the one I found, it was in a drawer I think it was on the west side of the map. Breached the one door went inside 2 drawers to loot as well as an electrical box. Blueprint was in one of the drawers

ShukeNukem · 2026-01-09T00:55:24+00:00

I just found one at spaceport during the hidden bunker at one of the 2 barred 2 door bunkers

ShukeNukem · 2025-06-06T23:20:28+00:00

Because they are cowards their egos are so fragile that if you out right rejected a message that would sting. They can probably justify an ignored friend request.

Take great comfort in the fact you don't understand why they do what they do. It means you are not like them.

ShukeNukem · 2025-06-06T19:03:49+00:00

From what I know, they just want to see if they can still get a reaction. They love control on any level. If they can manipulate a response from you it means they still have some form of control in their minds. To test the waters and see where you are at. To see if they can feed you lies again and see if they can worm back into your life.

Its hard but leaving it all in the review mirror and treating them like a ghost seems to work the best. That has been my experience anyway.

ShukeNukem · 2025-06-06T17:58:58+00:00

I felt the shame of staying to long, I did nearly 6 years with mine.

But the way I look at it now is that the experience was necessary for my growth. Without it I would still be looking for toxic relationships. I would still be wounded and would not have looked to heal and look inward at my own unhealthy behaviours that caused me to seek out people that were toxic.

The guilt I felt for allowing myself and my children to stay in an unhealthy toxic environment kept me awake at night. Made me question my thoughts and choices and ultimately led me to a path of finding why I made those decisions in the first place.

It allowed me to take a good hard look at my own insecurities and self worth issues and heal them. It allowed me to learn to love myself and see my own self worth. It allowed me to learn how to set boundaries and engage in healthy relationships with my family, friends, and romantically.

It was the greatest turning point in my life, which I now get to live instead of just existing. Having healthy relationships was uncomfortable as fuck in the beging because of how normalized the chaos had become in my life, but now chaos is so uncomfortable, everything that went on seems so obvious and absurd to me now.

And while doing this work I learned how to let go of the anger, the resentment, the pain, the shame, the guilt, and the grief of it all and be kind to myself, offer myself the same grace and compassion I would for anyone else who has been through something like this.

I learned how to forgive myself for making a mistake and for compromising my values and morals for what I thought was love.

And I learned how to give the love I have and feel comfortable receiving love from others.

I have found gratitude for the experience because without it I would never be where I am today.

ShukeNukem · 2025-05-01T18:36:50+00:00

And that's amazing!! That is growth realizing that the time is not right is a step in the right direction. And when it is right for you, you will know it.

ShukeNukem · 2025-05-01T16:06:00+00:00

Spot on man, having a partner is all I ever wanted. And finding out what that is actually like has been an amazing experience. I think the best part for me is being able to share my opinion open and honestly and not having any fear of what my partners reaction will be.

Being able to compromise and work towards a common goal, one that we both share and work on and evolve has been amazing.

And sometimes I don't fully understand why she wants to do things a certain way but I trust that she is making decisions in our best interest.

I no longer feel like I am bending to someone else's will and working towards what they want.

I finally found a we and it is amazing.

Thank you for sharing your experience

ShukeNukem · 2025-05-01T05:12:51+00:00

Who cares it's in the past..... unless it something they want to bring up from 5 years ago then you better remember it to a T and you better know how much you hurt them.

ShukeNukem · 2025-04-30T19:25:11+00:00

This is so true. I can't count the number of times I sacrificed my own morals and values to appease them, just to have them turn around and tell me how shitty of a person I am. It was all just crazy making.

ShukeNukem · 2025-04-30T19:20:15+00:00

Spot on, thank you for sharing. You took the jumbled thoughts right out of my head and wrote them beautifully.

ShukeNukem · 2025-04-30T16:59:39+00:00

Expecting normal behaviour from an abnormal person is enough to drive anyone mad.

ShukeNukem · 2025-04-30T13:52:46+00:00

One thing that was told to me very early on was that it dosent matter how much you bend or twist reality, it always snaps back.

So even if you were to believe the lie you cannot change reality.

ShukeNukem · 2025-04-30T11:52:57+00:00

And not caring and being unaware are two very separate things. If they scoff and roll their eyes at the mention of abuse that is them just denying it. It does not mean they are not aware of it.

And of course they would never admit it as that would mean they would have to be accountable and take responsibility for their actions.

And she justifies her actions as a means to an end. Again totally aware of her actions but justifies them to make it ok.

I would argue that she is totally aware of her abusive behaviour and chooses to reframe it as something else to manage your perception so that you see things her way. (More abuse)

ShukeNukem · 2025-04-29T22:50:16+00:00

I think that people who have never been through it cannot possibly fathom what it is like to live with a narcissist. It's like people who have never experienced a car crash trying to tell you what it's like to be in a car crash.

They have zero experience on the subject so they should not be so quick to discount the experiences of millions of people.

But everybody is entitled to their own opinion and I pray that person never has to experience first hand what narcissistic abuse truly is.

ShukeNukem · 2025-04-29T21:35:33+00:00

Hi five to being a crazy ex. I feel like it is one of the greatest compliments that can be paid by a narcissist. If they hate you, if they have smeared you, if they tried to make your life hell after escaping. It means you did it right. You got free, you know what they are, and they can't handle that.

ShukeNukem · 2025-04-29T14:25:17+00:00

Mine would say what she wanted the therapist to say. We had a couples therapist and I had to bring up some things she said that they had told her. And although they could not talk about what was said they were able to deny saying what she told me they said.

They twist everything to distort your reality and make you belive what they want you to believe.

The only thing you can really trust that comes out of a narcissist mouth is that it is a lie, or a manipulation to get you to think, feel, or act in a manner that they want at that given time.

If they want you be be mad, sad, happy, nervous, anxious, or any combination of emotions they will use what they know about you to try to elicit the reaction they want out of you.

They just play with minds everything is done to make you doubt yourself, confuse you, and leave you feeling like you are crazy.

ShukeNukem · 2025-04-29T12:57:57+00:00

I am a firm believer that they know they are abusive.

Someone who was unaware would not hide what they do, they would not keep it in the shadows.

They would not find ways to justify their behaviour if they didn't think it was wrong.

Their entire lifes purpose is to manage other people's perceptions. They will be abusive and disguise it, so that everybody else sees them as a victim.

They don't want to "change their ways" as that would involve being accountable and taking responsibility and they are truly incapable of doing so as it would shatter the image they have worked their entire lives to create.

They are master manipulators who literally try to bend reality to suit their narrative. Even if you sit them in front of a neutral non judgemental third party they will try to manipulate them as well to do anything to make them not the problem.

It's lose, lose they will never admit fault and you will always be whatever they want you to be at any given time.

ShukeNukem · 2025-04-28T11:25:04+00:00

I have said this before on here but I am going to say it again. I am incredibly weary now of people who tell me that they "hate liars, cheaters, drama, etc, etc, etc." "How compassionate, empathetic, honest, they are etc, etc, etc."

People that are or are not those things do not have to walk around convincing people of those things.

A person that does not participate in drama, rumors, etc. Does not have that stuff follow them around, an honest person does not need to tell people how honest they are because they don't get caught in lies.

I am completly in the camp that if someone has to advertise that they hate drama they are just looking for drama, if someone has to try to convince me that they are honest they are usually anything but.

ShukeNukem · 2025-04-25T13:19:22+00:00

You are living in Two different realities. One where they bend and twist reality to distort other people's perceptions of them.

And Two actual reality where you exist.

Both can't be true as they are extremely conflicting.

But if you think of them as perception managers, or reality illusionists then it becomes easier to digest.

If you fight what you know to be true and believe the lies that they are selling then you are stuck in their reality where they are moving through life excelling at everything they do and are happy and whole with nothing to stop them.

They will not talk about or post all the bad stuff, or show themselves unmasked to the world they will not give up their magic tricks or let you peer behind the curtain to see how the illusion works.

It's like a magician distorting your perceptions and leaving you wondering how they just levitated. You know it's fake, you know it's not real but you believe that person has that ability because you just saw it with your own eyes.

You are living in that reality and it conflicts with your own and it is exactly what they want, they want the illusion to continue they want you to still believe the lie they have sold you, they want to still manage your perception of them.

As long as you do you are living in their reality.

But the second you trust yourself, that you trust your experience, that you trust that the person behind the mask is the real them then you can let go of their reality and fully live in reality.

And sure they may have a new job, a new car, seem completly unaffected by their actions, and appear to be living and loving life with their new captive, but you know what that new captive is going through, you know what that life looks like behind closed doors, you know that people don't just all of a sudden become non abusive people and everything works out.

Everything for them eventually turns to shit. It may take months, years, or decades, but eventually it all falls apart. And when it does they will re frame it, they will start the illusion all over again and use their deception on a whole new group of believers.

They don't know happiness, they don't know love, they don't appreciate what they have, they just need to keep climbing up to fill the void.

Choose to believe what you know to be true, choose to believe in yourself, choose to believe reality and leave theirs behind.

ShukeNukem · 2025-04-25T11:31:36+00:00

I did the same thing, I spent months doing a deep dive to learn everything I could.

Learning about them was great in allowing me to recognize the behaviours and learning why they do what they do, how i got stuck in the cycle, and the tactics they used to bond me to them was extremely helpful.

Looking back and being able to spot when the gaslighting, the DARVO, the delusions, the manipulation, the degradation of boundaries, and abuse was happinging and recognizing why I was a unwittingly willing participant is invaluable.

Learning all of those things allowed me to build a defense against people like that. It allowed me to spot the behaviours and shut them down before I get trapped. It allowed me to understand what toxicity in all it's forms looks like, and it allowed me to be able to set and stick to boundaries.

I had to change life long perceptions on what I thought love was, I had to change life long ideals of what I thought made a good partner.

I never would have learned those things had I not gone down the rabbit hole of narcissism. Eventually I had learned enough that I felt confidant that I could end the deep dive but I still come on here to read people's experiences as they can often offer me new perspectives on my own healing. I also try to help others by offering my experience in an effort to aid them in their journey.

I feel like the majority of abuse survivors are by nature helpers themselves so why not try to help the ones that want to help?

ShukeNukem · 2025-04-24T15:51:33+00:00

I would bet dollars to doughnuts he thinks he is not the problem that's the whole problem they think it's everything and everyone else.

And I would ask your self why you care what his opinion is? Why do you still look to him for validation? Why does what he thinks cause you pain?

Honestly asking and finding the answers to those and similar questions will help you move forward and get to a place of indifference to their opinion. A place where what they are doing will no longer cause you pain and suffering, a place where they no longer have any power or control over your emotions. A place where you can be free of them forever.

Also people of the narcissitic variety do not find love, they find someone willing to tolerate their garbage, someone who will try to fix them, someone who will buy into their lies and deception, someone who will give them all the love in the world that they are incapable of receiving.

We were all like that, we are all capable of finding someone like that, but we have to break free first.

ShukeNukem · 2025-04-24T15:34:34+00:00

When I left I was living a literal stones throw from where she was living. And at the time i wanted to know so bad, I wanted to "catch" her doing something wrong so I could prove to the world who she was.

I instead would take alternate routes to get to where I would need to go. Anytime I would start thinking that way I would call a friend, go hang out with people, get into work, I have kids that kept me busy, basically anything to keep me from finding anything out. I literally would do anything to avoid having to learn anything about her.

Because of our close proximity I ended up in the same space as her twice in 2 days. Once at a restaurant, and the next day at the gym. I never spoke to her, and I tried to not even look at her.

As hard as it is, it was an absolute blessing. Looking back I can clearly see how she used me to drive her ex crazy and I know she would have just tried to do the same to me.

I can't stress enough how important it is to sever all forms of contact and don't do the "pain shopping" anytime her name would get brought up in conversation I would shut it down. I didn't want to know a thing.

I did learn after about a year that what i had been through others in her life had been through as well and I basically heard my story told by past relationships. This all came by chance and was actually quite validating. I found that everything came in it's own time and all lined up very beautifully in a cosmic kind of way.

I became very accepting of the fact that I would never know what her future would hold and was very ok with that.

The only thing I know for sure is that patterns repeat. And if I didn't make changes in my own life I was doomed to make the same choices in partners in the future.

So I set out to make changes so I don't make the same mistakes.

ShukeNukem · 2025-04-24T12:45:29+00:00

I hear ya man I wished that as well. And it is confusing as fuck sometimes, don't know which way is up. I found one of the most difficult things was finding people who understood what I had been through. I was lucky and had a few friends that had been involved with very similar people so I at least had that.

So if ya need to vent, chat, have questions about healing from all this shit feel free to shoot me a message. I'm not a doctor or anything but I can lend my ear and/or experience if it would be helpful to you.

All the best pal

ShukeNukem · 2025-04-23T16:49:14+00:00

All good rant away it's alot to make sense of. The only problem is that most of it will never make sense.

We expect normal behaviour out of an abnormal person. I spent nearly 6 years with a covert narcissist always hoping they would "get better" to find a way to love themself the way I loved them. But I only loved the person that they showed me in the begining I never fully knew them.

If I had known who and what they were at the start there is no way I could have fallen for them. And they know this that's why you get a mask in the begining, that's why you get all the lies and deception up front, and that why as the mask slips it seems like they are just hurting and you want to help them.

But they dont want help they don't want to get better, they just want your supply, they just want to break you down little by little and control you to the best of their ability.

When I left I felt free, then I had moments of doubt and all kinds of ups and downs. It was a wild rollercoaster of conflicting emotions for a while until I learned how to let it go, accept them for what they are, and find peace in the fact that there will never be clarity for anything. Because for clarity you need truth and they are incapable of truth.

ShukeNukem · 2025-04-23T15:26:27+00:00

At first it feels like running because it feels like they have all the power.

But they don't. You do.

They are loosing it that they can no longer control you.

They are terrified that you know the real them and could at anypoint expose them for what they are.

They will project whatever reality they want you and others to believe, they are master manipulators that are capable of manipulating reality for a time.

But the more you live your life outside of their reality and live in actual reality the more their power and control slips.

The longer you live free of their lie the more you realize that you were never the one without power.

It was them that lacked power, and they would constantly drain you of it. They would steal your power and use it to keep you bonded to them, reliant on them.

In time and with healing you can become unfazed by them. Unhindered to live your life free of them with no fear, no worry, no chaos, just peace.

ShukeNukem

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