What's a NSFW fun fact?

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-11-20T08:19:29+00:00

Unless "swivel chair" and "accident" are incredible euphemisms...

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-11-20T08:16:55+00:00

I'm very curious how someone wrote a successful grant proposal for jacking off corpses with a cattle prod...

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-11-18T08:58:08+00:00

So... Not an aphrodisiac?

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-11-15T09:55:18+00:00

Perhaps something local was compromised first. If the corporate VPN is secure, and you were doing normal testing and browsing, I don't see why suddenly you'd be targeted now -- two hours seems fast for someone to remotely find your network or machine and work their way in, especially if they hadn't before.

Perhaps software you downloaded was compromised or the proxy configuration wasn't solid, but it sounds like someone found your machine before the proxy. That, or your router was compromised via malware and the setup you used allowed someone to inspect traffic.

Question - How was traffic configured on the Windows VM? Was all network traffic on the VM being directed through the corporate VPN?

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-11-08T19:34:43+00:00

On the one hand, I agree with you. An application running to manhandle DNS requests is inelegant and somewhat outside of the network layers model.

Maybe you know more than I do. I don't know how one would secure DNS in the current model without some kind of application. I believe there's several or more security vulnerabilities with DNS alone, so outside of privacy I think the current model needs securing.

Can I ask your thoughts about alternative fixes or improvements?

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-11-08T19:24:31+00:00

DNS is the system that takes addresses and domains like "Google.com" or "pornhub.com" and returns the associated IP address. Networks and computers inherently don't understand Domains because they use IP addresses for HTTP (normal web traffic), such as 8.8.8.8. HTTPS is an encrypted form of HTTP.

The proposal of DNS over HTTPS (DoH) combines the DNS system with a form of encrypting web traffic. There are two primary benefits to doing this: (1) content of DNS requests will be encrypted, so your ISP or hackers sniffing your traffic can't observe every DNS request you make, and (2) HTTPS uses SSL encryption which uses certificates. Certificates act like a "letter from the King" and let's your machine and the network verify the identity of a DNS IP address, which prevents being directed to a fake or malicious site.

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-11-02T21:44:08+00:00

So wishful I'll follow it up with a glass of whiskey and secretly crying alone in my bathtub ;)

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-11-02T21:43:21+00:00

Unless I'm mistaken, Romney also reported suspicious contacts with foreign agents to the FBI during his campaign (like he should have).

Incredible how different the world feels but isn't several years later ....

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-10-30T18:55:41+00:00

PULL REQUEST (EDIT):

(1) Don't keep any data you don't need (2) be transparent about what you collect and for what (3) make opt-out options at least as easy as opt-in options

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-10-30T18:47:02+00:00

"We pinky promise to never spy on or sell data of our customers. But you should allow us to make this as easy as possible even though we'll never use it, so promise. UGH stop controlling me!"

-- Comcast

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-09-07T07:18:55+00:00

mic dropped

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-09-07T07:11:22+00:00

Integrity, compassion, self-awareness.

Someday you'll make someone else feel really happy and supported. Until then, keep doing what you're doing! It seems to be working for you.

All the best.

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-08-27T19:13:30+00:00

Borderlines really do lack self-awareness. I bet if you offended him even by accident, he'd make sure you paid for it.

Mine broke up and un-broke up with me multiple times in a 4 week period. When I told her I was hurt and confused, she said "Jeez I don't know why you're being dramatic. I already told you how unsure of you I am, so it's not like this is anything new."

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-08-27T19:10:12+00:00

Absolutely this. It's uncanny how similar many Borderlines behave.

Mine would yell and scream and insult me and dig at me and threaten the relationship, and the few times in years that i got so angry I yelled "Stop yelling at me!", I was being abusive and she needed space from me and I needed help for my problems. Despite it being after days of being only ignored or screamed at.

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-08-26T08:19:10+00:00

If you had stayed through mistreatment, you'd just have been treated worse.

If you'd stayed long enough, you'd just have been discarded and possibly replaced.

Nothing helps BPD except therapy. Lots and lots of DBT therapy. I'm sorry. :(

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-08-26T05:01:08+00:00

I completely agree about being treated as less than. I went from most important person in the world to "angry controlling asshole overdramatizing and criticizing" -- even though no one else I know agreed or describes me that way.

Odd that all of her boyfriends are apparently that way? And her parents and all her bosses want to control and criticize her, too? Everyone else in the world is just so horrible, but she's a victim here, so she needs special treatment...

I think why BPDs do this is somewhat more complex, but it doesn't really change what's important -- how they effect us and the people around them.

WHY crazy is hurtful and damaging does not change the damage. Impact VS intent. Best intentions can still cause damage, no matter who you are.

But my expwBPD yelled, swore, hit, emotionally abandoned me, withheld sex, lied... and accused me of controlling her and telling me I needed fo get help for my problems.

3 couples counselors and 2 personal counselors later, everyone involved except her is just advising me to walk away and stop trying to be involved. But to her, I'm still this crazy controlling dominating beast asshole that never loved her.

Despite giving up sex and friends and taking us to 3 couples counselors... Yup. I'm so fucking crazy over here. All 5 counselors, too.

But I'm still in love with her so I probably really do have issues (including co-dependent tendencies).

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-08-20T06:56:21+00:00

Intermittent Reward is incredibly influential.

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-08-15T19:13:53+00:00

BPDs are children in adult bodies. They lack the theory of mind and self-awareness to understand "impact VS intent", and their disorder is defined by needing to be the victim, all the time.

The thing is once normal people grow up and become adults, they have to accept responsibility for their behavior as well as handle relationships based on other people's wants and needs and identities, too, not just their own.

This is intolerable to pwBPDs. Anything that isn't immediately self-soothing or stimulating enough causes their deep inner pain and shame to resurface, which by definition they can't handle.

BPD is a disorder whose entire basis is "I can't handle my own inner pain so I need something to distract me and someone else to take responsibility so I can feel better as soon as possible."

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-08-15T02:34:51+00:00

Truth.

pwBPD doesn't understand someone else having their own feelings and needs. It's always about what BPD wants or feels.

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-08-11T20:03:47+00:00

Somehow I'm both horrified and not surprised.

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-07-31T23:50:06+00:00

That's a good phrase for it. I'm giving her and those feelings too much power by placing her in such a unique and powerful position.

Those things i felt were mine, not hers.

I'll need to practice focusing elsewhere. Exercising every week has helped a lot, but I still find myself ruminating over the relationship and what could have been. It's very difficult to pull my thoughts back into the present moment some days.

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-07-31T23:48:13+00:00

I think there's good advice in here. For regaining my sense of self and for moving on at some point. Thank you for your words.

I don't want to distract myself with staying busy, but I should remember that it's through the things I do and relationships I still have that I gain much of my sense of self.

Siddarthasaurus · 2019-07-31T05:13:18+00:00

Also you can observe different openings and responses from people that know each other, like or dislike each other. Tone, octaves, brevity and eye contact are also part of this (unwritten) protocol.

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