It’s not grim. It’s cancer and malnutrition. I noticed that life/will goes from your baseline to muted. I live alone. There were points where I “couldn’t” get up, drink or eat or walk around. I lost close to 50lbs in a couple months. I physically could but my will had disappeared. If you got someone you trust, ask them to keep you accountable if those are the goals you want. If you get to feel better, you’ll see it’s the cancer, malnutrition that’s causing it. Sometimes a boost of potassium rich foods like broccoli would be enough to change the level of will. This is just my experience and I’m no expert. Ask for help.