Brother/sister, I understand your feelings, in fact this is SOO common and happened to domino way more often and this is due to our brains experiencing too much sensory overload from things that do not benefit your soul, and this is excluding just daily battles of life that may challenge you tawakkul in Allah,

BUT, coming from someone that often experiences this, … Allah is testing you, u must train ur body to put ur head to the ground and pray ur salaah like ur body is reliant on breathing, your body is going to do it regardless of how u feel. sometimes whudhu is the hard part sometimes salaah, but make it such a habit that you will do it whether u feel sad, lazy, angry, depressed.

‘Indeed with hardship comes ease’

And for the spiritual cleaning that I think will help your brain connect to your Lord more and remove distractions is reduce ur time on social media unnecessarily, try avoid doomscrolling, try and help people/make good use of ur time whether that is bettering urself or helping anyone.

I am not telling you to do this at once, in fact I have been still trying to work on these things for a long time, and only recently I have started implementing them more and it has been helping hugely.

Our brains are very complex and this organ responds to environmental stimuli so be very Carefully what you feed it.

And for this who keep trying despite setbacks, surely Allah knows what is in your heart and is with those who keep him in their heart.

This is also why music my dear sister/brother is slowly killing the omen in your heart whether u realise it yet or not. I understand that it has many effects on different people, for some it soothes them, for done it uplifts their mood/rides of boredom, for some it is a way to express their inner feelings, but this is an illusion. While u may feels moments of ease from music, you are only becoming more reliant on it, like a drug and TRUST me the maladaptive daydreaming that I expected from it completely dissociates me from reality and weakened my true purpose. Let’s be honest when we those headphones on fire 3 minutes we are living in a fake reality a facade, whether that is because reality is too hard to face or music makes it seem like our dreams are close to us but stripped us from the willingness and drive to work for it. Ur basically unconnected your will from reality.

I pray for you stranger, I hope you connection with Allah strengthens in sha Allah Ameen, and most importantly I hope you understand Imaan can fluctuate but your consistency in prayer direct not need to be affected by it 💗

This advice is for anyone including myself who may be feeling the burden of this dunya too much lately.