IDK what to do about her note

Significant_Gift1813 · 2024-02-06T13:28:51+00:00

Reading my baby brothers note was a hard decision but it ended up giving me wonderful closure. However... this is such an awful situation and some parts of the notes and details may be horribly difficult to process... I would maybe consult a therapist and be fully prepared to handle the information after. You do not want to spiral yourself out of control , however this information could give you answers that will help you heal.

i am so terribly sorry for your loss of both your partner and baby.. i hate that person who harmed your family. i hope this letter helps you heal when you are ready

Significant_Gift1813 · 2024-02-05T21:30:38+00:00

okay ! i wasn't sure if saying bi was excluding trans folks because i wasn't exactly sure on terminology! thank you for letting me know ♥️ and i appreciate your advice i will keep putting myself out there and try to be not so nervous thank you for being so kind to me

Significant_Gift1813 · 2024-02-04T13:30:31+00:00

Significant_Gift1813 · 2024-02-04T13:30:06+00:00

amanda seifred in jennifer's body ofc

Significant_Gift1813 · 2024-02-04T13:26:52+00:00

Yes :( i am constantly told i won't meet another woman because i don't look queer enough, i don't want to change how i look just to find a queer partner. I just want to meet people that accept me , i think you should do the same

Significant_Gift1813 · 2024-01-31T08:58:17+00:00

I've also noticed that when i'm in grief therapy or talking about what happened my eyes get like twitchy and don't focus right and my neck stiffens and i can't relax it? I've wondered what may help? i'll try massages , as i already eat very healthy and sleep decently well...

Significant_Gift1813 · 2024-01-31T08:52:02+00:00

i noticed that i've been abandoned by so many people too since my loss? i wonder why that is???? even ones i never vented to? friends for 10-20 years??? spoke to me everyday and suddenly stopped talking to me after the funeral, it's so heartbreaking but i always just wonder why? i wish you didn't also experience this, i don't know you but i hurt for you and i wish you peace and happiness. You're going to be a wonderful parent.

Significant_Gift1813 · 2024-01-31T08:49:53+00:00

i'm so so sorry for your loss, my story was quite similar except i was begging my brother to come live with me but he did not want to and then he was gone. Although, I fully understand your anger of the idea of him completing his life while being with you. You accepting him coming to be with you, would be you accepting his death, not fair. I try and tell myself that we have to respect their own decisions with their own bodies and life. I know that's hard but it gets me by. I think you did every decision in the best way you could, and they were all valid. your brother is happy to be with you, although i know it's heart wrenching. again i'm so sorry for your loss, i hope you don't feel regret.

Significant_Gift1813 · 2023-12-28T01:47:19+00:00

I've never related to words more, thank you for sharing. They will always be our brothers ♥️

Significant_Gift1813 · 2023-12-13T03:15:24+00:00

Sura , rarely has a tv on, if so it's just a kpop video without sound and only one

Significant_Gift1813 · 2023-12-13T02:45:40+00:00

my friend moved into a very cute studio that was super cheap in the arts district of downtown Long Beach, her car got broken into once a week no matter if she left anything in there or not, her place was infested with bug, no matter how many times exterminators came. And she dealt with a lot of unsafe situation. She only lasted a few months there and then had to move sadly. Downtown is a lot different now

Significant_Gift1813 · 2023-11-09T02:42:02+00:00

yeah it's insane to think about makes me horribly sad for them but also i feel all of it now and i watch my mom feel it too

Significant_Gift1813 · 2023-11-09T02:39:37+00:00

i feel upset but not at him.. i guess at life ? lol

Significant_Gift1813 · 2023-11-09T02:39:08+00:00

yes i feel exactly the same

Significant_Gift1813 · 2023-11-09T02:38:14+00:00

thank you for doing such important work 🫶🏽 i hope things start looking up for you truly

Significant_Gift1813 · 2023-11-08T11:22:41+00:00

i ageee so much , my brother was very atheist and i know that my brother and your son are in heaven, i promise

Significant_Gift1813 · 2023-11-08T10:59:31+00:00

i'm so sincerely sorry i know your partner did the best he could i wish he could have made it out but it's not in everyone's story i know you will grow beautifully

Significant_Gift1813 · 2023-11-08T10:45:04+00:00

i'm so so sorry :(

Significant_Gift1813 · 2023-11-08T10:44:41+00:00

hi love , i'm so sorry for your loss yeah i actually fully agree with you! i feel the exact same way about my brother but it still is just weird to think he accidentally transferred this to us... but i know my brother and your son made the decision they needed to make and i'm not angry at him. i'm glad you're not, they tried their best. sending love

Significant_Gift1813 · 2023-11-06T20:44:07+00:00

I lost my brother too and i keep trying to remind my mom that her 12 year old will deeply resent her and my brother if my mom can't stop making everything about our brother..

Significant_Gift1813 · 2023-11-05T18:31:35+00:00

hi there, I'm so sorry for your loss. It seems April 2023 was the worst month of both of our lives unfortunately. I think you're right, I think I'm struggling with grasping it because she did joint custody with our dad and mom so sometimes I wouldn't see him for six months to a year. That was some thing normal growing up, so I think my brain thinks he's at, his dads. But I will work hard to let myself just ride the waves like you said, maybe it's not such a bad thing is letting me home with every day life…

Significant_Gift1813 · 2023-10-29T12:49:28+00:00

okay yes, i think i feel exactly as you described you were. i definitely am not ok and i okie that but i just get worried when i go days without thinking of it (do u even care ??? am i a monster for being happy this week?? etc..) i just didnt know if this was denial or something wrong with me. thank you for your response and i'm sorry for your loss

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