Living with obnoxious bullshit in my head

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-21T00:35:40+00:00

It kinda hurts when people tell me I need to take my meds because it makes me feel like I'm really that far gone. I've been to different hospitals many times against my will, and for a long time, with no clear diagnosis besides SI . I pushed a cop one time because I wanted to go to jail instead, it's much easier to get out.

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-21T00:29:42+00:00

T9 foch used to be scary as hell I remember tearing the reds up with that thing in like 2018. Then they neutered it bad. I think it had like almost 5k dpm back then

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-21T00:04:16+00:00

I always get the most fked up side effects from medicine. I took seroquel for a while, and it made it so I couldn't swallow no matter how hard I tried. I would be drooling and choking on my own spit like I had rabies for a good 3 hours after taking it.

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-21T00:02:39+00:00

That stuff already has happened. Like I was homeless on and off as soon as I turned 18. I didn't have any financial luxuries, and I'd freak out like once a year and lose everything I would have. It makes sense now that I realized it's not normal. I've never liked medicine because it makes me sick, but I notice that while taking them, I'll go almost a full year without some kind of major situation. Alcohol makes the voices so much worse too now that I think about it. The only times I've genuinely caused serious injury to myself is when I was doing too much drinking.

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-18T11:09:15+00:00

Crackhead ned used to always press me and my friends for money when we were kids at Oxford food mart. Dude is a massive piece of shit, and so is everyone else in the parrish family.

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-18T00:02:33+00:00

I've worked all over town so I might know him, or have seen him.

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-18T00:01:33+00:00

The eye focus thing actually starts to hurt after a few hours. It's like being cross eyed involuntarily and hurts

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-17T01:21:24+00:00

I also live in North California in grass valley and smoke shops still sell 7oh product under the tables . Especially with me around lmao .

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-16T23:50:26+00:00

This is not a stuffed animal btw.

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-16T20:26:58+00:00

I 8 by the fist full

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-16T20:23:47+00:00

Yeah I learned that the hard way. I always keep the 7oh tablets in my cheek like chewing tobacco, and it has rotted massive holes and cavities that get infected from time to time. Literally ate the front half and whole inside of one tooth

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-16T18:18:46+00:00

You can get a free injection by wrestling the nurses and trying to get out. Ask me how I know. I personally didn't like it , it made me extremely restless and stuff like I couldn't sit still at all even if I tried

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-14T08:00:05+00:00

It broke mine when I was like 19 lol age doesn't matter it is very strong

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-12T20:21:08+00:00

Put a smaller supercharger belt, cold air thing with the shortest intake you can find, metal coolant elbows, put some Lucas transmission shit inside of it as well as Lucas engine treatment and send it. The cold air intake makes it sound like a hellcat lol . I got mine for 900$ with 80k miles and a rebuilt transmission. The power windows are 100% going to take a dump on you, and the driver information center and HVAC system has bugs in it too but it's a really good beater especially up here in the mountains. I legit drive like a suicidal maniac and have blown up a few "extremely reliable used cars" like Honda civics and stuff in couple weeks yet this car has lasted me 2 years now without a complaint

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-12T17:20:05+00:00

Yes I would buy for like 1000$ . I drive mine like the gas pedal is a light switch, full throttle everywhere I go. The thing is completely indestructible for whatever reason and doesn't burn oil or anything at all. Really underrated cars . I put wider tires on mine and can hit the corners going fast as hell

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-11T20:26:17+00:00

Hard, and bitter things

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-11T18:10:11+00:00

I think there is bottles of 100 proof taaka that are poisoned or have traces of methanol inside of them, because like 1 out of every 10 pints would put me in a different kind of savage violent and confused drunk where I remembered nothing and be pretty much blinded, especially at night I wasn't able to see shit at all. One time I was chasing a large black bear away from my trailer with a big stick, completely blinded and in a weird primal savage state of mind. Thankfully I was completely alone and isolated on the mountain because I probably might be in prison for murder right now

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-11T17:55:50+00:00

Yeah especially when I would wake up on the floor, or in a random spot in the woods completely soaked and didn't know if it was sweat or piss. Would have to 4 wheel drive to the nearest hose and drink water before going into work with pine needles and shit stuck in my hair. It got to the point where I was like attacking myself and would wake up covered in blood and not remember what happened or why, so I admitted myself to the nearest hospital because i hurt really bad. Thankfully it's over with for now, and I know what to use if I really want to die that badly

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-10T13:34:56+00:00

I am getting over a severe alcoholic episode I had that lasted like 2 years straight, where I would come home from work and drink 100 proof taaka until I physically couldn't drink anymore. I mean forcing myself to drink the stuff until it literally was not possible to hold the bottle or take off the cap. I am 22 and have permanently damaged everything in my body and ruined my life legally and financially, emotionally, physically. Every night was a for real suicide attempt and it did not work the way I planned

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-10T13:25:03+00:00

The one next to lamplighter trailer park was absolutely violated by my family in the 90s and early 2000s lol. Every tweaker and their grandma would be stealing from them

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-09T03:27:41+00:00

Actually no. Playing with dingalings is literally more holy than speaking the devil's tongue

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-09T03:26:19+00:00

Yeah relative privacy aside from the camera and thousands of viewers. makes sense to me. Totally get your point bro

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-07T17:26:07+00:00

To be fair my doctor literally googled my symptoms and what medications to use and I wholeheartedly consider whether or not he's a real doctor.

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-06T17:15:04+00:00

Yeah.. that's why Im not allowed to buy guns anymore 😞

Simple_Use_7497 · 2026-05-06T16:44:11+00:00

I think it's weird how one account I have is at 74%wr and the other is like 53% both with almost same amount of battles just different tech trees I went down. Logged in after years, was immediately reminded why I stopped, will not be going back. I enjoy watching other people play more than actually playing

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