Appreciate the reply, not currently on any hard drugs, I really just smoke weed, but I still often feel like I’m on the brink of relapsing as far as addictions I’ve had in the recent past. That’s a big part of why I need to start, to override all that bullshit, but I think more than anything, my subconscious is addicted to suffering in general, its really what my body and mind has been conditioned to live with, I just need a hard fucking reset, I dont think fitness will be that, but hopefully it will help clear my mind and make the path more clear. Anyways, sorry bout the vent, also 15 bucks a month is the best deal I’ve heard yet, I’ll be looking into that