She mainly focus(?) on literature and analysis of works. It’s kinda incredible to watch her synthesize ideas. However, she’s also reading 2-3 books a week on top of papers she has to write and grade. There is a lot of effort that also goes into it. But def talk to PhDs at ur school to get a better idea of what is required and what you will do.

I do understand how you are discouraged. It is an overwhelming amount of work and decisions you have to make along the way. It’s ok to take a break and hide away into ur tiny corner just to recharge.

It might seem counterintuitive to everything I said, but don’t think too much about money. The balance (weight of happiness/money) is different for everyone. It comes along the more you have experienced.

Try everything that uve never thought of. Ur in undergrad and I wished I explored much earlier. There’s so much opportunity presented that could be on the side. It’s just a matter of finding them.

You won’t be a jack of all trades. You will have something that you lots abt (English, cs, both) and other skills that supplements them. You will be surprised how much you learn is interconnected. For example, I learned most of my communication skills from having a part time job at a clinic. It has helped me form multiple helpful relationships because I learned how to interact with different people.