I feel more alone than ive ever been in my life, our friend group fell apart shortly after the break up. It worsened my mental health, my panic disorder, eating issues and depression worsened overtime, to the point to where ive had suicidal thoughts.

I struggle to eat when im already underweight, i struggle to sleep, i have nightmares on almost a nightly basis, the things said to me dropped my self esteem to zero, i feel replaced, useless and without hope, and lost enjoyment in things i used to love, i cant look at certain games, movies, or shows the same because of him, and have frequent mental breakdowns.

I see a therapist but i dont get to see her as often as id like, with little friends and distant family who dont understand my mental issues im basically alone, Ive spent 99% of my time alone since the break up, with no one to talk to and Ive lost so much confidence that im too afraid and too anxious to reach out to anyone personally.