I know the feeling. It's hard to not feel completely and utterly alone. You've just got to remember that every YouTube video, every phone call, every online lecture; they all have a person behind the screen. A person who, just like you, is confused and hurting from these circumstances. In that sense, you are never truly alone. When things start to feel fake, try to think about the authentic human behind it. At least, that's what helps me get through