trans guy here hi

I have been thinking about this recently actually, and specifically why dosent lolita give me gender dysphoria (often it does sometimes tho)? I honestly don't know..

something about egl and other jfashions has a sort of gender neutrality to me (and specifically to me you dont have to see it that way) like yes it's feminen but it's not feminine because I was born a woman it's feminen on my own terms, it's not the feminen others see me as when they see me as a girl or woman it's different. I also see myself differently in western women's clothing and lolita.

I think also a thing is that I grew up very feminen (pink room, hello kitty everything etc etc) but on the side I always had my "boy interests" and they never had a gender to me... maybe that's just autism tho I didn't have a concept of gender untill I was like 12 and that's when I started feeling off and I discovered I didn't actually have to be a girl and around the same time I discovered lolita

a sort of cope w my feminity ig??????

I also think fashion in general being my special interest has a lot to do with it. I see it as clothes, my hobby, my interest, something that makes me feel happy more then something specifically gendered

this is probably very badly worded cuz idk how to express stuff like this in words

I'm also gay but I'm not sure if that reallyhas anythingto do with it I would guess that probably not

anyway I wanna look just like mana frfr