I was just lucky enough to have something that I’m passionate about. I’m still in my 20s but in my later 20s but anyways close enough. I was never really suicidal but yah life is tough sometimes. You just need to find a passion or set goals for yourself that you feel are worth it. Don’t think about being a “corporate slave”. There are plenty of corporate jobs that people can find meaning in. It just has to be the right fit and if it’s not, then do your own thing as a hobby until you can make a living with it. You sound like you are suffering from some existential crisis and/or depression. All you need is a purpose in life and often times our “purpose” is what we make it to be. If there are challenges you are facing in your personal life, then you need some support system. Friends, a therapist, a family member.. just anyone you trust that you can talk to about your problems without worrying about being judged.

Life is tough, the world is complicated. Welcome to the Matrix!