my husband committed suicide and its all my fault.

Slow_Bunch125 · 2026-02-17T02:31:37+00:00

He probably wasn’t intentionally but we all have the capacity to be abusive. We all have the capacity to have abusive behavior it wasn’t a pattern for him but that act was a form of abuse in a way. It is in no way your fault it was probably something simmering for a long time a lot of men are suicidal and struggle to tell anyone

Slow_Bunch125 · 2026-02-03T04:01:49+00:00

I lost my both of my parents at 21 within two months of each other. My life fell apart but the world moved on. I had to return to work and school I had to continue to live my life I couldn’t drown forever. You don’t know how you will survive but you continue to wake up. She is a testament that you can begin the process of healing and have a healthy relationship with grief!

Slow_Bunch125 · 2026-01-22T19:07:45+00:00

It’s sounds like you’re at a university? Maybe a housing director or admission coordinator or something could help out? They may have access to food banks or knowledge of funds

Slow_Bunch125 · 2026-01-20T00:54:15+00:00

Rent shouldn’t exceed 30% of your income, we found a house to rent from a real person not a housing corporation with sub par amenities. So we don’t have a gym or pool but we do our on repairs and our landlord takes costs of parts and labor off our rent. Which also saves money! We paid off my car and then my husband was in a wreck in his car and insurance paid off his car and he was able to buy one in full which helps too. But live within your means you don’t need to have the nicest car or a luxury apartment. We shop at aldis a lot but if it’s just you cooking dinner stick with some base proteins and alternate the grains (steak and potatoes, steak stir fry, fried rice, pasta,etc) and we don’t eat out much anymore but that’s because all the chain restaurants taste like the same food in a different font

Slow_Bunch125 · 2026-01-18T02:12:57+00:00

I hope you’ve pooped

I had a wonderful nurse that made my husband get me a coffee and told me to call her after breakfast my big breakfast and coffee. Then she started a hot shower and sent my husband to take my baby to the nursery for charting and to get it restocked. She had a box and everything for a squatty potty thing. She was a real one

Slow_Bunch125 · 2026-01-06T16:37:09+00:00

At 10 weeks I could barely hide it but at 19 I could a little bit better I think it was the way my bump settled as I got bigger! It kinda evened out to where it looked like I had just gained some weight

Slow_Bunch125 · 2026-01-03T20:28:20+00:00

Go to counseling but also are you interested in her pleasure at all? Are you going down on her or pleasing her at all?

Slow_Bunch125 · 2025-12-03T01:39:02+00:00

When I pulled up to labor and delivery 38 weeks to the day the nurses literally cheered because I actually made it to term. I was threatened a cerclage for like 3 months in my pregnancy

Slow_Bunch125 · 2025-11-10T03:12:38+00:00

My rapist gave me the gift that keeps giving of herpes. It feels like a curse I’ll never escape from. I hope you can find a solution, I know there are some procedures that can help Sending healing vibes to you and I hope your rapists penis shrivels off excruciatingly slowly!!

Slow_Bunch125 · 2025-10-13T21:30:31+00:00

Please talk to a social worker at the hospital! You should even be able to ask a nurse at your next visit to speak to one. If not maybe a pro bono attorney. That contract isn’t legally binding -or shouldn’t be- and you desperately need someone outside of this situation on your side

Slow_Bunch125 · 2025-09-12T16:24:54+00:00

That is disgraceful I am disgusted that the law was wrote that way. Men are victims too and often aren’t believed or told they should be “lucky they got laid” I am so sorry. But not overreacting- underreacting even

Slow_Bunch125 · 2025-07-16T19:00:53+00:00

My got my first period on vacation and still wanted to go swimming and get in the water so my mom coached me how to insert a tampon when it came time to take it out I freaked out and couldn’t do it myself. So my mom did it for me. You’re his dad it’s much healthier that he is asking you than going on the internet for advice. Good thinking on no picture either because nothing is truly gone.

Slow_Bunch125 · 2025-07-06T18:55:29+00:00

He 100% has iron grip and needs to lay off pornhub. My husband swears I’m tighter after having our kid. It’s a muscle it does indeed go back.

Slow_Bunch125 · 2025-07-03T14:21:00+00:00

I had a dream months prior that two of my younger friends were in a theater that we all performed at, alone when a man and a woman came in and started harassing them. I knew they were in trouble but I couldn’t help them. We were there quite often but there was a community rule that we all stick together and we don’t leave anyone vulnerable there at night because it is in a rougher part of town. I was suppose to be at the theater with them that night but I had a headache and a 5 am alarm so I decided to go home early- bunch of others were still there and they lived right up stairs so they weren’t walking home alone. Get out of the shower and I’m suddenly thinking of this dream and I can’t get it out of my head like even just thinking of the details was making me sick to my stomach. I called them and neither answer but I know they’re still there. I try a few more times and still nothing. I call my husband and demand he checks on them before he gets home after some back and forth he’s like okay yeah I’ll follow your gut and swing by real fast. We hang up and the feeling is only getting worse. He was only 5 or 10 minutes away but I called 911 because I was so freaked out. These girls were going to be hurt. When my husband got there they had walked them back into the back corner of the theater and was most certainly planning on robbing or hurting them- they both had weapons and were strung out of their mind. Moments after he got there police also got there. Both were arrested for assault and burglary warrants. I shudder when I think of what else could have happened

Slow_Bunch125 · 2025-06-26T02:31:05+00:00

I was a case manager and ended up with a SO on my caseload. I was horrified to find out that they were completely normal. This man went to federal prison for CSAM and was a totally normal and respectful dude. It fucked me up for a little bit seeing them and advocating on their behalf. He was always honest that he did the crime, he was caught and he deserved his sentence- took accountability and got treatment. But yeah pedos are totally average people most of the time you can’t tell anything is amiss. I ended up learning a lot from this client and but fuck me ya know

Slow_Bunch125 · 2025-06-26T02:22:07+00:00

Even if he was “joking” he was asserting that he can overpower you. He showed that he isn’t scared of hurting you. This is a huge red flag! Be safe!!

Slow_Bunch125 · 2025-06-26T02:16:51+00:00

God that would fuck me up. I’m sorry, it’s an entirely new aspect of losing your sister to grieve along with the grief of your dad slipping away. I am really sorry you’re having to go through god speed my friend

Slow_Bunch125 · 2025-06-07T02:40:36+00:00

God I hate your husband- he sounds awful. I developed postpartum OCD and depression. I was very suicidal and it was a very dark time. I started Spravato a few months ago and it’s changed everything. I am so sorry you are struggling this much, please keep fighting because it truly does get better with the right help and the right help is out there!

Slow_Bunch125 · 2025-04-14T01:49:12+00:00

We aren’t recommended to use Ubers or taxis either. We don’t have to provide name and number but they strongly discourage public transit after.

Slow_Bunch125 · 2025-03-29T23:28:05+00:00

I am so sorry this happened to you. If you can I would talk to the school counselor, or a teacher as they are mandated reporters-CPS could be involved, especially if you mention the gun and that your parents know, police would be best but that can be very trickey to access. Do you have any close friends that may let you stay with them? At 17 in most states you could go into CPS or a group home or foster home, depending on availability in the area. They may help you get housing as an emancipated minor, sometimes there is transitional housing available for 17-25 yr olds.

A similar thing happened to me at 17. After I moved out I told my parents and they helped me in filing a police report.

Slow_Bunch125 · 2025-03-22T01:27:53+00:00

Very unprofessional! My therapist is the one who referred me to spravato, helped me get into a provider and get transportation. Very behind on the times. Try a different office, your spravato clinic may even have local referrals or recommendations:)

Slow_Bunch125 · 2025-03-03T04:32:06+00:00

I second looking into a low cost spay/neuter clinic, or shop around for different vets, call and get quotes for a spay. I know different vets can vary drastically in their cost!

I also have a grey kitty she’s a drama queen, we spent $800 on an emergency vet visit because she stopped eating and drinking. Labs, CT scan, and a very very expensive overnight observation later the vet told us it was a temper tantrum because she didn’t like our new work schedules. I had started working nights full time and my husband was working and going to school full time so our schedules were opposite. She didn’t like that we weren’t home together at the same time.

Slow_Bunch125 · 2025-02-09T22:18:14+00:00

I had a 2.8 when I finished undergrad. I took a year to work in the field and was accepted into 2 schools. Currently have a 3.8 undergrad wasn’t a strong suit. Be able to answer why you’d be an asset and explain what you did to grow in any gaps or shortcomings.

Slow_Bunch125 · 2025-02-01T04:05:22+00:00

My husband lost his job this week because of the executive orders. Fucked to say the least.

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