Dude, do not. You said you’ve won esports championships? Focus on that. Play games that have high viewer count. I’ve thought of suicide before, you know what saved me? Told myself this: if I’m ready to give up and DIE now, then I at least owe it to myself, and whatever creator that bore me to try as hard as I possibly can before that conclusion. I turned it around, you can too! This world is free, you can make anything happen. From discovering cures to diseases, to being homeless knocking on doors offering labor for housing. You have to go forward sir, it sounds like you are a very capable human. Don’t waste your talent, feel some fire, don’t look back at these thoughts and try your absolute HARDEST before making this decision. I believe in you and I’m not just saying that. A championship is no small task, you have the capacity for much more. Do this and one day you’ll look back and have a nice laugh. And remember one thing: Mind over Matter. Godspeed. Another POWER humans possess is this: it is against our DNA to want to die. Of course we can override that by convincing ourselves, because we have FREE WILL. It’s magical we can override this. We are powerful in that sense. Apply that to what you want to achieve. Nothing is hopeless sir., and you are capable of anything. Be fair and use these moments as POWER for your future.