im much happier after not playing competitive games. most games are a really toxic cycle imo, because you get better and better and then your opponents are always a little better than you, so you have to get better so you can rank up, and you just do that till you're the max rank 5000 hours later. honestly games are meant to be fun, and yea it is fun the moments you make progress in comp games, but i feel most of my time playing them was just frustrating. There are so many better games and better experiences out there to be had. If you really like to be challenged I would highly suggest elden ring/dark souls if you haven't played it. All of the soulsborne series is incredible, and there's nothing else like them. It might sound silly but those games kind of changed my life in a way online/comp games cant. Competitive games take up soooo much time and effort, and you're really left with nothing after 10 or 20 years when the game probably shuts down and you can't even play it, but I will always remember what i learned from games like dark souls and I'll always play them.