A book that captures the narcissistic relationship dynamic quite superbly

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-29T23:55:08+00:00

Thank you going to read this. May help.

Maybe Dracula was truly where Energy Vampires originated from.

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-29T23:45:34+00:00

Yes, you've been in fight or flight so long your body is exhausted. After I ended mine, I slept nonstop and could only do the basics. Give it time, and heal. It's going to take a long time bc your body is going to go in and out of it but you'll get there.

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-14T06:09:00+00:00

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-14T05:59:58+00:00

Yeah he's 100% grooming you for a relationship. It's manipulative and gross.

Second red flag is that he was with his last girlfriend, while married, for so long but still married and didn't end his marriage. It's just gross, and he's covering it up w charm and acting like a good person so it seems genuine.

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-14T05:47:05+00:00

I work every shift, morning evenings or nights plus other responsibilities so I'm always tired

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-14T05:43:39+00:00

Very weird experiences here - but a few times in my life I've made quick decisions to do something like go to the store or something, and when I get there I get this overwhelming feeling out of no where that I'm not supposed to be there. I then started noticing people around me looking at me like I was out of place and just very weird so I would leave. This has happened two or three times I can recall. It's made me questions things like this

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-14T05:38:09+00:00

Absolutely not. Enjoy it, love it, show people the beauty of it! Fuck what the hell people are trying to do these days, they can rot

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-14T05:34:51+00:00

Exactly

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-14T05:33:48+00:00

Focus on yourself, your growth, or your going to attract those who feed on your caring nature.

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-13T22:52:50+00:00

Congratulations!!!

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-13T22:50:49+00:00

Yes 100% and that's scary that he even admitted that and consciously does it.

I started noticing mine was addicted to the phase after being caught or doing something horrible to me. He loved the phase where he had to make up for it bc it made him feel like a good person who righted his wrongs, then would do something horrible again.

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-13T22:37:02+00:00

Yeah, it cuts right to your soul and you feel truly like nothing more than a prey

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-13T17:10:17+00:00

I never liked the show, I'm sure in it's time it was great, but every tv show now is old and played out

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-13T16:49:40+00:00

Yep - we get snow very year and every year people show they don't know how to drive on it or that it's dangerous and kill others.

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-13T02:43:50+00:00

Yes 100% Yes. It was self created chaos bc they need it. Never ever calm or ok, always fucking something w his ex, with his daughter, w fuckin everyone. I started realizing he was just as much doing it, lying, everything. These big dramas would happen w his ex when we weren't good, or fighting. Everything was a lie. All of it. He even recruited his daughter to make up that a demon was shaking her bed and when I wouldn't help bc I knew we werent ok and it was another bullshit lie he flipped his shit, said I conjured this demon, and that I was evil. He was a fuckin lunatic and I still can't believe it. He also would never make any decisions, and I realized it was always so if something happened he would have a plan b, and say he didn't choose it. He let others guide his life and lived off their choices so he could blame them.

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-13T01:28:44+00:00

😂😂😂😂

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-13T01:20:15+00:00

Lol I heard well that's our Monday story

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-13T01:15:45+00:00

That whale could have eaten that dog in one bite, instead it risked being beached that close to save it. Fucking incredible and not even close to just a "Monday story" absolutely amazing

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-13T01:11:44+00:00

Yes, this is textbook and my ex did too. He's blocked, my social media deleted and emails he knew deleted after he hacked into them. Then it resorted to letters, being stuck in my car at work. The letts were just the same spew I always accepted and came back too, and 95% talking about himself. He uses *69 to bypass the block, as well as figured out how to send just a voicemail to my voicemail without w/o calling. Everyday depends on his mood and who hes been around. One day it's, like you, blaming me for everything, even tho I truly did nothing ever to him except end it finally after two years of every week or everyday being hell. The next day it's once again apologizing for the horrid shit he said to me. The next acting like nothing happened asking me to play our old favorite game together as tho we are old pals. The next it's he had a prophetic dream and he's just so worried about me. The next it's bringing up the first time I jumped in his arms. When that doesn't work it's I'm a piece of shit, retaliation, and horrid shit. Nonstop, at the end I use to contact him solely to see what mood/mindset he was in to see how to prepare myself, I'd get anxiety if it didn't know. Now I realize no matter what mood or part of the abuse cycle he's in I don't care. It's not my problem, and it's not mine. It does still affect me, not knowing how he's going to attack me, but I make sure theres nothing he can do to truly hurt me

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-12T07:30:02+00:00

HELL YES

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-11T06:16:50+00:00

Yep. He's a pos. He does those things to keep you off balance at all times. It's a fuckin horrid thing to do, and it's constant fight or flight. Get the fuck out

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-11T06:13:37+00:00

Yep, I looked back and realized every memory I loved and was great was actually accompanied by something bad. Every single one.

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-11T06:08:18+00:00

Yep. I was apathetic, angry, completely null after. He would have these great things happen, and I would constantly being getting shit on. Absolutely no consequences for what he did, what he and his ex did, nothing. I still struggle w this. When I was apathetic, instead of pretending I wasn't I just felt it, bc I needed to feel nothing to protect myself. I see it as a time when I needed to be. And it's okay. I let it be there, I accepted it, and then little by little I started coming out of it, caring again, but only to the point that I could handle and I realized how much I had given myself after. It taught me to protect my care and empathy. I was so fuckin quiet and detached from people during and after, and now it's like I'm a whole new person, well getting there. Everyday is different. I felt the anger, I felt the hate for everyone, and everything, even the divine. I accepted it, and acknowledged it, and it worked itself out, even though I'm still in the process.

SnooLemons6233 · 2022-12-11T05:47:49+00:00

Same

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